The Other Side of Dominance (BxB) ✔

Chapter 52 [Governor]

It's not the break up that hurts the most, it's the post trauma that follows it. It is waking up and checking your phone for the message that isn't there anymore. It's like starting your life over and you have no idea where to begin.

Inaamin kong hindi agad nag-sink in sa akin ang mga masasakit na salitang iniwan sa akin ni Blade no'ng makipaghiwalay siya sa akin dalawang taon na ang nakalilipas. Na parang ganoon lang, tapos na. Game over na. Hindi man lang siya nagdalawang isip. Napakadali niyang binitiwan ang dalawang salitang nagtapos sa aming relasyon. We're over. That's it.

Eventually, I realized my worth. That I didn't need him to make myself complete. That I could be happy without him. That happiness is a choice, not a result. That nothing will make me happy until I choose to be happy. That no person will make you happy unless you decide to be happy. I realized that happiness will not come to you. It can only come from you.

And if you were happy before you met someone, you can be happy after they're gone.

"Mr. Garcillano, I hope you don't mind but I think you're mistaken. The governor is here." I went back to my senses when I heard the female secretary talking to me.

My fingers were unconsciously and frantically tapping the top of the counter and it stopped when I felt a sudden movement beside me. It was Blade who took one step closer to where I was. Inalis ko ang tingin sa kanyang sapatos at muling binalingan ng tingin ang babae.

"He's here? Then that's good! I'll wait for him." masigla kong tugon, ang hindi ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit parang may problema siyang hindi ko nalalaman. Her mouth fell open as she looks at me and at the man beside me back and forth.

"B-But the gov—"

"Nessa, it's okay." Blade cut her statement off. Nang makialam siya ay doon na ako nawalan ng pasensya. Taas noo ko siyang hinarap ngunit bumahid ang isang multo ng ngiti sa kanyang manipis at mapulang labi. He even licked it before his mouth opened to speak again. "If he's eager to meet the governor, tell him to come back the other day." he continued, ang babae ang kausap ngunit sa akin nakatuon ang mga mata.

Anong sinasabi nito? Bakit pababalikin pa ako sa ibang araw kung nandito naman na ako? At bakit ba siya nakikialam?

"Why would I come back? The governor is here so I don't understand what you're talking about." matapang kong pahayag sa kanya. I don't care about our history anymore, I just wanted to get my business done here as soon as possible. Ayaw ko na sanang magkaroon pa ng interaksyon sa kanya pero dahil pakialamero siya, hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko.

"Nessa, tell him that the governor is leaving." iyon ang huli niyang sinabi bago ako tinalikuran at naglakad palayo. Hinabol ko siya ng tingin hanggang sa maglaho siya na parang bula.

The governor is leaving? What the hell?!

I looked back at the secretary to confirm if it was true.

"The governor just left, Mr. Garcillano." makahulugang saad ng babaeng sekretarya habang ako'y lito at hindi malaman ang sunod na gagawin. Ang hindi ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit niya sasabihin sa akin kaninang narito ang gobernador pagkatapos ngayon ay nakaalis na pala ito.

Kinuha ko pabalik ang mga dokumento kong dala nang mapagtantong wala naman pala akong mapapala rito. If I can't get help from the governor, then I'll just come back tomorrow to get Diego's signatures for my business permit. Nasayang ang effort ko sa pagpunta rito. Ang ganda-ganda ng simula ng araw ko pero hindi pa man nangangalahati ang araw ay nasira na agad.

And if this secretary was doing her job right, she could have told me earlier that the governor is not here. Hindi na sana ako naghintay pa rito at nagkaroon ng interaksyon sa lalaking 'yon.