I didn't have to memorize each hurtful word he said to me that day because all the tears I have cried out and all the pain I have endured were enough reminder of how he broke me. Feeling betrayed over and over again would be the most painful thing in the world because it makes you feel so small, so helpless, and it makes you want to die. Anyone can betray you but saddest thing about betrayal is that... it never comes from your enemies.
I have been listening to the table conversation for the past thirty minutes, and those minutes felt like hours of spacing out and being absorbed in my own self-deprecating thoughts.
May natira pang pagkain sa aking pinggan ngunit hindi ko na ito magawang ubusin pa dahil sa biglaang pagkawalan ko ng gana. As soon as I lifted my eyes from the table, I met my brother's eyes that were filled with worry and despair. I could read the questions in those eyes but I decided to disregard it.
"What are you gonna do with that money?" iyon ang tanong na pilit ibinabato ni Savannah kay Parker dahil ayaw nitong magbigay ng konkretong sagot kanina pa.
Parker even had the audacity to use the paper bills like a handfan just to annoy everyone on the table.
Ang sumunod na pinag-usapan nila ay hindi ko na nasundan dahil tuluyan na akong nawalan ng gana sa lahat. Hindi ko inaasahang mararanasan ko pa ito sa ganitong mga pagkakataon kung kailan kailangan kong iparamdam sa kanila na okay lang ako at hindi ako apektado sa kung ano man ang nangyari.
"I think I have to go first, I'm sorry but there's an emergency.." bigkas ko habang binabasa ang text sa aking cellphone.
"What? Wala pa 'yung dessert!" there was a shadow of sadness in Parker's face upon hearing my sudden farewell.
Kuya Joko looked at me with his doubtful eyes but just like what I had to do, I paid no attention to him.
"I... I have to attend something important, I'm really sorry. But it was nice meeting you guys.." saka ako lumingon kay David at Carson bilang paumanhin sa aking biglaang pamamaalam.
I stood up from my seat bidding my goodbyes to each one on the table but I froze when Carson stood up as well. Everyone looked up at him including me.
"I brought a car, I can give you a ride." he offered smoothly and without waiting for any approval, he placed himself behind me wanting to lead the way for me.
I had no time to argue so I just went with the flow. "Okay..." I mumbled weakly. Kumaway sa aking gawi ang dalawa kong kaibigan habang papalabas kami ni Carson ng cafe. He even held the door open for me.
"Seriously, you don't need t—" I was talking to Carson to let him know how it is unnecessary for him to offer me a ride home when I saw the same range rover parked outside.
It was just there, windows closed and no one around it. Sinubukan ko pang lumingon sa paligid, nagbabaka-sakaling makita ko ang hinahanap.
"You were saying?" naibalik ni Carson ang atensyon ko sa kanya nang tanungin niya ako. I was able to give him half of my attention because the other half of it has been lent to seek a familiar face around.
"I uhhh.. I was saying that you don't need to do this. It's totally fine with me, Carson." I reasoned out, dahil baka mamaya ay napipilitan lang siyang gawin ito dahil sinet-up siya ng mga kaibigan ko para hindi ako magmukhang mag-isa.
"No, I insist. I want to." aniya naman kaya sa huli ay hindi na ako nakipagtalo pa. He was under the impression that I'm in some sort of an emergency but that was just a stupid excuse I fabricated just to leave that place.
Next to the range rover was Carson's BMW. I gave one final glance outside before I pulled the door and hopped inside. Pinanood ko ang pag-ikot ni Carson sa kabilang bahagi ng sasakyan patungo sa driver's seat habang nagtataka pa rin ako sa presensya ng pamilyar na sasakyan sa aming harapan.
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