Multifandom Imagines And One-Shots

Natasha Romanoff: I Never Thought You'd Say It

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I was trying to be in love with someone I knew could never truly love me back. It was a fact that I never tried to run from. I knew what kind of woman I was dealing with but still I allowed myself to fall for her.

To anyone else falling for her seemed pointless. She wouldn't be vulnerable, she wouldn't spare anyone's feelings, and she would never fall in love.

To me, falling for her was enthralling. It was a forbidden fruit that I knew would come to smite me in the end. I reckon what made me different from everyone else was that I didn't expect anything from her.

I knew Natasha wouldn't fall in love with me. There was nothing I could say or do to make her even consider giving me a chance; and I was fine with that.

Natasha had so many lives but the one she hated the most was her own. She grew up in a loveless environment. She wasn't allowed a lot of her basic human rights and it will always leave a scar on her.

It takes time for her to trust anyone and even more time for her to decide she likes you. I've been a member of the Avengers for almost 4 years now and I feel like Nat didn't even like me until year 2.

By then I had already come to terms with liking her. I realized that I had feelings for her because I got jealous any time I saw her with Bruce.

Now it was public knowledge that there was something between Natasha and Bruce, but no one really knew what the extent of that something was. Whatever it was didn't work out but everyone could tell that Bruce wished it did.

I think that's why he warned me. I was exceptionally good at hiding my feelings but Bruce saw straight through me. He told me that even if Nat did like me in a romantic way she would never allow herself to show it.

That didn't stop me from falling for her. Here's the funny thing about falling in love: you usually don't have a choice. When your brain is producing a shit ton of dopamine whenever you're around one person it's hard not to be attracted.

Nat and I didn't have a strong bond right away. I was new and as you probably know none of the Avengers are fond of new. Fury had been scouting me because of my "unique abilities". You know the origin stories for super powers; government experiment, radioactivity, meteor falls from the sky, or alien. I fall into the "meteor falls from the sky" category.

Not only can I produce and control fire but I'm also considered to be very efficient in hand to hand combat. Nat was slightly impressed by my hand to hand skills and that's when we started to bond more.

We trained together all the time to test our skills and even come up with some duo moves. It took every ounce of control in my body to stay focused during our sessions. There were times where there was virtually no space in between the two of us. It was most likely as close I would ever be to getting physical with the woman.

Being her friend offered me a lot of insight into the way that she operated. I knew what she liked and what she didn't, I could tell when she was in her head, I knew when she didn't want to be alone. I just found that learning her was second nature.

Even if I knew she couldn't love me back, loving her wasn't something I'd ever stop doing.

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" So we're sure that this base is empty?" I asked, having a weird feeling about the situation.

" That's what the file said, it's been abandoned for awhile now" Nat answered me and continued to move towards the base.

I hated these types of missions. I felt like going to abandoned Hydra hideouts for potential information was stupid. If it had been abandoned I'm sure they took the things of importance with them.