Multifandom Imagines And One-Shots

Billie Eilish: Even If It's A Lie 2

Continuation of previous Billie Imagine

Word Count: 1145

You didn't want to get up the following day. You tried to convince yourself that if you didn't get up that you wouldn't have to worry about Billie. 

Part of you wanted her to come back after the night's events. However you knew better than to trust her. You knew getting your hopes up was just a waste.

It's not like Billie was all of sudden a normal girl. Even if she did want to come over her schedule wouldn't allow it, especially now with all the grammys under her belt.

You reluctantly swung your legs over the side of the bed preparing to get up. You shook the thoughts of the pop star out of your head before officially getting out of the bed.

After you brushed your teeth and had a proper shower you decided to make breakfast. It was one in the afternoon but you didn't care.

You started getting out the stuff to make yourself a breakfast burrito. You had just finished chopping the peppers when your doorbell rang.

All of your movements froze. There could only be one person at your door today. You debated not opening the door but you were a person of your word.

When you got to your door you took a deep breath before opening the door.

" Package for Y/n Y/ln"

A weight of stress was instantly lifted off of your shoulders. You smiled at the delivery person and signed for the package.

As you were closing your door a voice stopped you," Hey"

Your breath hitched, Billie was standing in front of you. You didn't expect her to actually show.

You couldn't stop yourself," You're here" Billie's eyes met yours and a small smile made its way onto her face," I am"

" Can I come in?" She was doing her best to hide it but you could see that she was nervous. You stepped aside to let her in for the second time in less than 24 hours.

This was stirring up more emotions in you than last night. Having an intoxicated Billie at your door was something you could call a drunken mistake. This however was a sober Billie at your door, this was intention.

Having her here meant that you couldn't just forget last night. You were too vulnerable last night. This was your ex, your toxic ex. No matter how much you loved Billie you knew that she couldn't love you back.

" Y/n" You didn't realize you had been standing with your eyes shut tightly clenched at your sides.

Billie's eyes were filled with concern which instantly caused you to deflate. 

" Sorry, I just- why'd you come here Billie?" Your voice was a whisper but your stare was focused on the girl in front of you.

You could see her fighting the urge to grab hold of you. Instead she took a step away from you.

" Do you want me to leave?"

" No," You had said it too quickly for your own liking, a small blush burning on your cheeks.

Billie chuckled lightly," Well at least you aren't trying to kick me out.  This is already more than I expected"

" I don't think I have it in me to ever kick you out," You loved her too much to ever go through with it.

There was a pregnant pause in the conversation. Billie's the one who decided to break it," Y/n I meant everything I said last night. None of this feels right without you. I don't feel right without you. I know I don't deserve a second chance but fuck I'm begging Y/n. Please"

" Billie I- I can't," you let out a deep sigh," I tried so hard to make us work Bill. I sacrificed so much for you but you could never make time for me. You couldn't even tell me that you loved me towards the end. You make me feel so fucking weak because even after that I still love you"

You let a single tear slip from your eye. You wanted to just take her back but you were scared. You didn't want a repeat of last time, you needed Billie to show you she changed.

Billies was letting the tears slide down her face as she listened to you. She always felt like she didn't deserve you but right now she just felt like an asshole. A selfish that let her insecurities fuck up the best best thing she had.

" I was scared Y/n. I love you so deeply, more than I even think is humanly possible. I don't know how to fix us Y/n but I want to. I'll tell you I love 100 times a day if I need to. I'll learn to make time for you, I'll pause my whole career right now for just another chance to be with you."

" Billie I don't know " 

Billie moved to close some space between the two of you. Even daring to reach out for your hand. You let her soft fingers cascade across the back of your hand. The feeling sent a burst of heat through your body. 

You let your desire control you and ended up pulling Billie even closer to you. Your forehead rested against hers, eyes fluttering shut. You wanted this to work, you wanted Billie to convince you that this was ok. 

" You are the best thing to ever come into my life. Better than the music, better than the grammys, better than the fans and I never want to experience losing you again."

You didn't want to forgive her so easily but you also couldn't keep pretending that you didn't want her back. This was the most emotion you had ever felt from Billie. You could tell that she meant it. 

" Say it for me baby"

" I love you" You could feel her lips brushing against yours. You couldn't resist capturing her lips in a soft kiss. Her hands moved so they were cupping your face, while your hands rested on her lower back.

It was a soft kiss filled with passion. You were both desperate to show how much you needed the other. There was no question of love in the kiss but a declaration.

The kiss was interrupted by your stomach rumbling. Billie smiled when you pulled away in embarrassment.

" I was making breakfast burritos before you came. Never got to finish."

" It was one in the afternoon"

" And now it's a lot after one yet I'm still about to make breakfast burritos and you're going to help me"

Billie's smile grew exponentially as she watched you cook. Helping where she could but mostly staying out of her way. 

She found herself staring at you the whole time. She had missed you and would never let you go again.

" I love you" 

You smiled to yourself," Love you too Bill"

An: Couldve been better but I just wanted to get something out