broken wings

chapter 1 memories

'' just one mowe, daddy '' my 2 year old self said begging for another lollipop.

'' princess you already had one. '' '' dadddyyyy one mowe pwease I'll give u loads of kisses. ''

'' loads of them? '' '' ofcouwse daddy. '' she said filled with happiness. '' lets play a game okay? you close you're eyes and I will give you one, you should guess the flavor baby. '' daddy said with a smile.

she covered her eyes and waited until her daddy came back with the lollipop he would be grabbing behind mommy's back. '' daddy ? you back awain? '' she whispered.

'' yes baby 2 seconds I need to unwrap it. '' daddy said and then started to make sounds but they didn't sound like wrappers to her she was confused but didn't think anything of it.

'' open ur mouth sweetheart. '' so she did. she felt her daddy nearing her and stand in front of her, she was getting excited because she really wanted to guess the flavor right.

he put the lollipop on her tongue but that didn't taste like a lollipop, neither did it feel like one. she opened her eyes confused only to feel the lollipop being forced down her throat. she gagged but he didn't stop and she didn't understood what was happening, why was it attached to daddy? what was daddy doing?

he pushed her back against her princess drawer and began rocking back and forth really fast making the lollipop go down her throat repeatedly, it was painful but she couldn't talk and she didn't want to hurt daddy.

'' oh baby yesss, you are making daddy feel so good. daddy is only doing this because he loves you. '' she was confused and didn't understand why daddy liked this, didn't it hurt for him too?she kept gagging and crying trying to push daddy of to tell him it hurt.

her little hands trying their best to press on daddy legs and push him away but he never moved he ignored her cries and kept relieving himself on his own daughter like a reckless monster until he released down her throat.

'' thank you baby, you are the best princess I know '' she tried to spit the weird stuff in her mouth to the ground but daddy didn't let her. '' no baby swallow it, thats what good girls do. you wanne be a good girl right? '' he said forcing her mouth closed , she nodded wanting to make daddy proud she was a daddy's girl after all. she looked up in his eyes still with tears streaming down her cheeks swallowing his liquids.

'' good girl, you need to promise daddy something okay? you can't tell anyone about it because you will make people jealous, this is what daddy's do with their favorite child so if you tell someone and their daddy's don't they will be really sad.''

she nodded believing him, because her daddy was her hero. '' I wove you daddy '' she said with pain because of her sore throat.

'' I love you to princess. '' he said while picking her up and putting her to sleep.

she fell asleep confused while he walked downstairs to his wife with a smirk, a smirk who clearly wasn't for the right reasons.

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'' daddy nooooo. '' my 3 year old self said while giggling. while daddy kept singing happy birth day to her at 12 AM, she just turned 3 and her mommy worked a long shift and fell asleep, but she didn't mind because daddy said he had a surprise and she could stay up really late.

'' so baby you ready for your present? cause If you are I will go give it to you. ''

'' yes daddy yes, I'm ready. '' she said excited. its been two months since daddy told her about the daddy's favorite game. it should always be a secret and daddy shows his love in this way. she never liked it but daddy would get mad if she pushed his hands away from her princess parts or if she turned her head when his lollipop came near her. she didn't like daddy angry so she obeyed as much as she could just to make daddy proud.

" alright princess you just need to take your clothes off, otherwise you won't be able to try it on."

" i am getting clothes daddy, a princess dress? " she asked with one of the biggest smile you could imagine.

" something like that princess. " daddy said with a smile. she obeyed him thinking she was gonna be a princess.

" okay baby you also should take of the panties you can't wear those when you try it on, and after that go lay on the bed and cover your eyes. " she took it off while daddy turned around, she was to excited to get her princess dress to realize daddy was taking of his belt.

there she was laying on the bed completely naked with her eyes covered, with her daddy standing at the bottom of the bed without anything on, but she didn't know that.

" okay princess you can open them now. " but before she was able to look for her princess dress she felt a terrible pain in her princess parts. she tried to scream out of pain but daddy covered her mouth with his own and shoved his tongue in her mouth.

he didn't go slow, he wasn't gentile. he rammed into her like she was some sex doll, he didn't let her get used to his size or let her have a break. all he did was do what felt good for him while his daughter was slowly on losing her own vision and everything turned black.

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" no dad don't I'm sorry, " begged my 9 year old self to her father while he was punching her in the face as hard as he could.

" how could you, you bitch it was supposed to be a secret you screwed everything up. "

" I'm sorry dad I won't tell anyone anymore, please what did you do to her? " she cried.

" what do you think you stupid whore, I killed her what was I supposed to do she was going to tell the cops! " at that moment she realized she was screwed.

she was dead, the only person who didn't hurt her was dead, gone forever just because she was so stupid and needed to open her mouth. she killed her own mother because she didn't believe that dad loved her anymore she didn't believe that dad did what he did because he loved her.

she knew she was right and she still thinks so but she should have kept her mouth, it's her fault she killed her mom.

his beating kept going for hours until he finally stoped with his abuse on my body getting his frustrations out of him. he just walked out of the door and she cried, and cried, and cried. when she was almost asleep she heard her door open only to see her dad and his friends walk in.

there were 5 of his friends and they all looked at her in a creepy way, a way she only had seen her dad look at her with. " daddy ? " she questioned.

" hey little whore why don't you show them how much of a cumslut you are for older man. "

yeah that was a statement more as a question, she tried to back off only to have her back be met with the head of her bed, the bed with princesses on them, the bed she used to love but soon would be stained with blood, not just someones blood, her blood.

her night was amazing. she had 6 guys entering her from every hole possible, ramming into her 9 year old body. slowly on getting more and more traumatized and disgusted with her body and herself. there were moments were there were 3 people filling her up from all the ways while others just looked and waited on their turn with her.

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life isn't always perfect, not at all and I realized that at a young age, a way to young age.

i am 15 now, its the middle of the year and we are moving states again because our neighbors got suspicious and I didn't want to kill anyone else. I never forgave myself for being so stupid.

I tried to kill myself the moment I woke up from dad and his friends play date that day, oh wait I mean sir. ridiculous right? if I call him dad he gets angry with me. I can only call him daddy when he wants to have his way with me. over the years he didn't go sweet on me at all he was worst as before. his abuse became physical too. all after the day I killed her.

so uhm I am going to sleep a little here, i'm on a plane by the way. my dad can't do anything here, I'm really glad for that.