broken wings

chapter 44 in the woods

Tuesday, second day of the week. its weird to know that only a few weeks back I was locked up in a box, its weird to know that she probably was locked up now in the box she was in at the same time that I was in mine. the fact that the escape plan couldn't have worked since my shortened stay and that I still hadn't found a way to subtly bring her up to Xavier or Ashton. it hurt because I wasn't helping her even tho I could, her eye was probably infected, and just in general she was probably not healthy in any way. 

but then what could I do without making the cops suspicious about my situation? they would question why I was 8 hours away from home when it was school and why I went in that basement, and with my dads charges at the moment it would for sure not help in any way. but I'll find a way eventually, when ? I don't know. but I'll get you out of there someday Lilana. 

but all of that is besides the point right now since I have science

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nothing excited happened at school today, not at lunch or in class, it was just talking. Tuesdays are always so boring for no reason. but it was time to go to bed, time to get a night of sleep since I wanted one and was truly tired. 

but knocking broke my movement of turning off the lights, " come in " I said tiredness lacing my voice. 

the door opened and Ryder walked in, closing the door and walking to the side of my bed that I was laying on. " I just wanted to come say goodnight since we haven't really spoken a lot today " he said while bending down. he kissed my forehead and whispered " goodnight love " 

he started walking towards the door and I whispered before he walked out " goodnight Ry " 

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Wednesday, 1 week, only 1 week until I need to face my father and lie to everyone in the room. 1 week until I take away the justice of the girls that deserve it, it will break them and I hate that I will need to do that, I have no choice, well I do but I don't think I can without having to live in fear. but isn't that selfish of me? probably isn't it ? 

I wish this choice wasn't even a choice or that it was less hard to make one, less hard to put those girls down. 

life isn't easy is it. 

" could I go for a walk Julia ? " I asked Ryders and Codys mum since school had already ended and I wanted to get fresh air because I have been overthinking a lot today about the court, I wanted to be alone for a while. 

" of course sweety just be home before dinner okay? " she answered with a smile. 

" i will, thank you.  till later " 

" no need to thank me, be safe love " she said when I left trough the door ready to have some me time. 

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setting myself down on a bench in the woods somewhere was needed after I already walked for 2,5 hours, I was going to need to head back in a half hour to be on time for diner or I want going to be on time at all. 

the walk helped so far but still not completely, my head will keep rushing me In confusion until the day itself and I wish it wasn't like that. 

after 10 minutes of rest I stood back up and decided to get the shorter way home, which was walking by the road instead of going trough the woods. when I was outside of the woods I walked about an hour until a car stopped at my side I started walking faster, I didn't know the car and I didn't feel like the situation was anything good. 

I heard the window roll down but didn't look, I kept walking quicker but the car just kept driving by my side, it freaked me out. 

eventually the car drove faster making me believe that he stopped following me, stopped caring. 

but oh how I was wrong, a few meters farther the car came to a stop and a man walked out, I couldn't identify the man since he had his hood up, but he was walking my way and I did not like that. 

I turned around and started to run but the footsteps where headed to be right behind me. 

I felt someone grab me and put their hand on my mouth to prevent me from screaming, " I thought I told Amy to warn you to not run away from me "