broken wings

chapter 23 you should feel flattered

I heard voices echoing trough my brain, or the room I was in I didn't know due to everything being faded and a headache making me feel like I just got hit on the head. I don't remember my father being mad at me or even going home, so that I was confused about the pain was pretty normal.

I tried to open my eyes but the bright light covering my vision prevented me from keeping them open. its only made my head feel worse and to be honest I want to just fall asleep again, at least I don't feel the pain then.

" love ? " I heard a grown up voice question, a voice I didn't recognize and it freaked me out. so I opened my eyes ignoring the pain as much as I could and tried to sit up and get away from the stranger.

that didn't work, I felt an arm go behind my back and a hand supported my upper arm. " calm down you are going to hurt yourself " I heard the voice say again, I looked to my side and saw a man in his late twenties helping me sit up to now a fully sitting position. he kind of looked like the man I had met earlier at Aston and Xavier's door. he was someone else tho.

" are you okay, can you tell me where you are in pain? " I kept quiet until he spoke again " please? "

" i- i uh my he-head " I stuttered to the stranger standing in front of me. he nodded and picked up a weird looking pen and turned it on making a light appear from the back.

" can you follow the light for me for a second? " I nodded and he shined the light into my eyes and I guess tested my reflexes or something I had no clue. he did a few other things until he put everything back on the table and introduced himself. "I'm Elijah, your friends older brother. I will get some painkillers for you and I'll tell them you are awake " he spoke while walking out of the room.

I looked around the place for a while, I looked to be in the hospital but then again not at the same time. me looking around the room from the bed was interrupted by a happy Emily walking into the room and hugging me without a warning making me flinch for multiple reasons. but I hugged her back " you scared me so bad " she whispered to me in the hug and looked at me with a smile " Elijah says you will be okay so that's good right? " she said excited.

I'm scared that maybe they found out about something but from what kind of reaction I have had from both Emily and Elijah I don't think they know, at least I doubt it.

she sat next to me on the bed and started explaining the whole thing to me about the sitation of me in the bathroom and after how she dissed Amy. I would lie if I didn't feel hurt from again being reminded that Amy never liked me, did it feel good that Emily put her in her place, of course but I'm pretty sure she hates me more now.

let's not even start on David. I don't even know what kind of things he is planning right now to do to me. I was frighted for sure.

I looked at Emily with big eyes when she told me about the punch she gave Amy " aren't you like best friends-"

" no you are my best friend little one " she whispered while laying her head on my shoulder, I was shocked never would I think I would have a best friend, someone who chooses me for me and not for my body or numbness. from this moment on I was going to let her in, not all the way of course but I'll let her in. " so are you emy"

about 10 minutes later Elijah walked back in with a glass of water and 2 white pills. " I'm sorry Xavier and Ashton held me up for a second " he said to me with a apologetic and worried look.

" it's okay " I whispered to him still being scared to use my full voice with this stranger. he handed me the pills and watched me take them. when I had took them he spoke again. and to be honest I'm pretty sure Emily had fallen asleep on my shoulder already. " do you have pain anywhere else? I could check your burns, they told me about them " he asked me with a small smile. hell no he would. I already risked too much today this couldn't be seen. this wasn't a small almost healed burn, this was a big infected burn.

i shook my head no, not wanting him to see " no thank you " he nodded his head with an unsure look but he didn't push me which I was glad for. he went into the hallway and I heard him yell Ashton's name. when Ashton came and looked inside he soon understood why Elijah had called him. his girlfriend taking a nap onto me. he came towards us and. picked up Emily from me and gave me a smile. He mouthed ' are you okay ' and I nodded. " come on everyone is in the living room " I followed him outside the room and went into the living room where he laid Emily on the couch next to him.

I went and sat next to Ryder who was sitting in the other couch, while Xavier and Cody also shared a couch. Ryder wrapped his arms around me and pulled me towards his chest kissing me on the top of my head. he let go of a big sigh and looked at me his eyes slowly relaxing.

I still felt guilty about what I said to him earlier and I felt the need to apologies because if what Emily said was true and he looked like he was about to cry then I needed to apologies to him, he deserved one. " I'm sorry " I whispered to him and he looked at me questionably. " for what? " he asked.

" about in the hallway, I didn't mean it " I said back to him, feeling the need for him to just Say it is okay. " I'll accept it on one condition " he said and I looked at him to show that I wanted him to continue. " you tell me what happened in the bathroom " he said using his full voice now, making everyone listen to our conversation " do I need to ? " I asked him not really wanting to do so. he nodded while sitting up more causing me to be slightly pulled up on his lap.

" u-uh I just passed out " I said trying to sound believable, I was honest I just know he didn't mean for me to answer this because they already knew I passed out. " and why did you ? " I heard Xavier ask from the other couch.

" I just pa-panicked and ... y-yeah " I stuttered towards everyone. " you had a panic attack, about what love " Ryder asked again.

i sighed not liking this many questions and attention on me " I just have them sometimes " the not stuttering showed my lie, but to be honest it wasn't a lie. I do have them often I just know the real reason but I wont say it.

" so we won't get an answer ? " Ryder asked. " I gave you o-one " I said back with a slight attitude looking up at him making our faces only 2 inches apart. " yeah right, you should be glad I like you otherwise you wouldn't have gotten of so easy " he said back with amusement in his voice.

i softly hit his shoulder letting go of a giggle, he chuckled at me and gave me another hug.

Ashton then stood up and gave me a hug too " you scared me shitless " he said with a sound of relief. " thank you " I said to him, him and me both realized that it wasn't a thank you about what he said but that it was about the bathroom.

after him came Xavier " I don't like blood you know, and I have seen a lot of yours. you should feel flattered I didn't trow up " he said while reaching for a hug. I laughed at his comment softly and he soon joined me laughing softly too " I do feel flattered, thank you " I said towards Xavier too.

then came Cody. he hugged me and said " I know we haven't talked much but you make my brother happy and that means I care for you. thats not the only reason tho. thank you for making Emily realize what kind of person Amy is. " he said to me leaving giving me a kiss on my cheek not even giving me a chance to answer him. he is shy rather he likes to admit that or not.

maybe today wasn't too bad. I have the feeling like this brought us closer.

but closer means

closer to the truth

closer to my story

closer to them hating me