broken wings

chapter 38 I'm sorry

school just ended and I am currently walking towards Ryder's car who was in the school parking lot.

when I reached there Cody and Ryder were talking to each other, I saw Cody look my way when I and he smiled at me causing Ryder to look at what his brother was smiling, I looked back and decided to give him a smile too, which he didn't return. he just inhaled a sharp breath and walked to the drivers seat.

" you wanne sit in front ? " Cody asked me pointing to the passenger side " no thank you I'll be fine " I answered him knowing that trying to fix things with his brother in the car wouldn't work so I better not try until home. sitting next to him wouldn't help with that. Cody listened and just grabbed the passenger seat while I sat myself down on the backseat looking out of the window not joining in on their small talk.

only a few minutes later we reached their home and both of them got out of the car with me following them. Cody walked upstairs the moment he walked in the house yelling something about his boy waiting on him on FaceTime.

Ryder attempted to go upstairs too but I decided to take my shot and fix things since there wasn't a lot fo time left to do so anymore. " Ryder wait please " I pleaded. he stepped back from the stairs and turned around to face me with a look that said ' what do you want ' I don't know or he wanted to come off rude but right now he did come off that way. he was kind of the one that caused the situation but yet I am the one trying to fix it and he reacts with a glare and question look.

" don't look at me like that, why did you ran off yesterday " I asked him while the still held the same look as before slightly starting to piss me off. " I had to do something "

" no you didn't " I said back knowing that that was a lie " and how would you know " he said in a mocking way. " you planned to watch the movie with me, thats why Ryder. from the day before you had it planned. How come you randomly need to do something ? " I truly started to get frustrated with him and it was starting to show on me, I may not be the confident type but I trusted him to not hurt me and that was good and bad, I am not scared to raise my voice but It could turn out bad.

" that's none of your business, I had to do something and that's it. don't try to fish for something that isn't fucking there " he raised his voice back at me, making me take a step back, realizing that maybe this wasn't one of my brightest ideas. " alright then, I won't try to fix your mess " I spat at him trying to walk past up the stairs, but I felt myself being held back by a hand pulling me at my wrist making me hiss. the burn wasn't fucking healed.

" my mess ? " he laughed at me " yes your mess " I glared at him trying to pry his hands off of me causing his grip to tighten. " how come ? no, tell me miss perfect how come it's my mess "

" don't fucking call me that " it wasn't the name that bothered me it was the way he said it, it wasn't meant to be a nice thing. " what miss perfect? can't call you that? cause you for sure are acting like you are one " he mocked me again.

" i am no- " " yes you are " " I am not acting like one Ryder, let me the fuck go. " I tried to rip my arm away from his. " no I won't, tell me how it is my mess " he now yelled at me, he was confusing me more as anyone has ever done before. he was mad at me, or at least seemed to be, and I had no clue why. was it cause I blamed him? probably but then again everything that I said was nothing but the truth.

" cause you fucking kiss me and then run off like a pussy making me believe I did something wrong, especially of you ignore me after " I looked him straight in the eyes and glared at him, " now. let. me. go. " I said between breaths, not because I was mad, but because I was trying to keep my tears in from the pain he was causing me. his fingers were pretty much digging in my burned wrist and as much as I know he wasn't realizing it didn't mean that I didn't feel it and that he could ignore me when I asked him to let go.