broken wings

chapter 40 home alone

it was now Friday, we have reached school and the three of us headed to our own classes. school was always my favorite place, not because I was a nerd or liked the classes, I liked the freedom. the way that there wasn't a constant pain inflicted on me, of course that wasn't always true since I did have my bullies, but it was less powerful as my fathers words, hits and screams.

getting pushed back from your own father and see your own father hate you yet be obsessed with you is more painful then some random people who decide to hate you. as much as that is a valid reason to be in pain to, whatever causes someone to feel pain is a valid reason since it is making you feel it. nothing makes pain unworthy or stupid.

i walkend down the hallways to my first lesson and decided that maybe I should start my day right now.

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it was now the break between 2nd and 3rd period, it was only a 15 minute break so it wasn't anything special. what made it special was the girl that I was currently facing after being dragged into an abounded classroom. again.

I just looked at her, didn't even other a word or sigh to her, not because I hated her, its because I was embarrassed. in the end I did take her friends from her, she may have had been evil but no one deserves that to happen to them. but myself I was too scared to apologies, I didn't even want to apologies for my mistake and that is honestly pathetic, but then again people always say you are what your life is.

" I'm not going to spare you more words as that I am forced to say to you, but my dad is mad really mad. yes I know surprise surprise. he wants to see you, he's going to screw you over and I don't even mind. all I needed to tell you was that if you run from him when he tries to get a hold on you that he will make someone dear to you pay. we wouldn't want pretty Emily to lay there helpless and crying because of you do we? " she asked me caressing my cheek in a mimicking way, holding a grin onto her face finding this situation perfect. I nodded at her, rather I was going to listen or not was a question for me too but I couldn't risk having Emily be In such a position.

i am used to it and as much as I hate it and it haunts me every single time I know she will break from this, I am already broken, damn I am even shattered so a little more breaking would be less invisible then on her, and who would I be to again watch someone who Ashton and Xavier love get hurt? it wasn't my place to risk her life.

the fact that Amy would do something so cruel to her so called best friend is truly getting the end of me. no matter how dirty someone did me I would never wish them rape or to get beaten. Amy was truly like her father, heartless.

" say it out loud you bitch "

" yes I will listen to him " I looked at her, she smiled at me and whispered before leaving " you better "

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I never ended up going to 3rd period since I was late anyways and not showing up is less embarrassing then coming in late, I just sat outside on the bench until 4th period.

but now it was lunch, it was just regular except that Amy was shooting me draggers from across the room while Justin was sucking on her neck. yes you read that right, she decided that going to the three musketeers would be a great option after losing her friends, for her it probably was since she was just as horny and desperate as them.

i am sorry I just don't really like her.

or them

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