broken wings

chapter 11 where were you?

my father never came home that night and neither did he the next day until pretty late. its nothing i'm not used to but most of those times he goes all the way out with me as much as he can because 'he had to miss out on me for the other days'. even tho it was his choice to leave.

so yes its Monday and I'm in pain, I mean I always am but its just extra there today due to my fathers needs.

i'm walking towards my first lesson of the day when I see Justin and his friends standing near my locker, id rather appear without books to class then walking there and risking my life.

but that didn't work out

his friend came and pulled me with my upper arm towards them. I was standing in the middle of them lookin at the ground not saying anything. I didn't come after school that day and I was able to get away by the teacher the first time but it probably won't work now.

they didn't say anything they just waited until the bell rang and no one was in the hallway anymore. I mean of course they weren't going to do anything to me here and have the risk of someone walking in, so they took me to an empty classroom still holding on to my upper arm.

you probably think I should be glad for them not talking or looking at me but to be honest it was freaking me out more. still looking at the ground I felt a hand on my jaw and throat, the hand forced me to look up in one of Justins friends eyes. he caressed my left cheek while holding eye contact with me.

they were too ... nice? they were acting weird and I am so confused.

he leaned in and whispered in my ear " where were you ? "

I swallowed the lump in my throat " uhm I-i was-wasn't feel-in-ing well "

he raised his eyebrows " oh really " his thumb was pulling my lower lip " sweetheart, did you feel better the next day ? when Justin came to your class. "

he doesn't care he's trying something but I don't know what " a l-little ye-yes "

he leaned in our lips brushing against each other, I tried to move back but it caused the person still holding my upper arm to push my head back and my lips to fully collapse on top of the person talking.

I heard Justin and his friend laughing while I was getting forced to kiss this person, I tried to move my head but it just wouldn't budge.

when he finally pulled his lips off of mine I looked down knowing he was smirking.

" and how does she kiss dalton ? "

" I think you should try to teach her how to kiss back Rocco, I think she missed the demo that you need to do that . " I guess dalton pretty much spat in my face.

Justin stepped forward and pushed dalton and Rocco away from me and grabbed me by both of my wrist and keeping me close to him " look at me " he said rather harsh, so I did. he put both of my wrist in one hand while moving his other one to my waist.

" you know darling your friend really pissed me off when he pretty much screwed up our chance with you. he beat us up but you already know that didn't you ? I know you asked him to do that. so I wanted you there after school and you were stupid enough to not show up. I wasn't going to hurt you, I was going to warn you and make sure you would never do that again -"

" I never even did I-" I was cut off by my own shock when I felt his hand arching closer towards my 'princess parts' I tried to tell him to stop but never had the chance to do so when I felt Roccos hand covering my mouth. he whispered in my ear " I would shut up princess because every wrong thing will mean his hand comes closer"

I kept quiet not wanting Justin to touch me there. " you better listen to Rocco beautiful because I will, I was always agains rape I still am. but I will fuck the attitude out of you if I need to. " Justin claimed.

" so we're making this short okay ? you will never tell your friend anything about us again. you will act nice towards us and you will fucking obey us yeah ? " I nodded being scared for his hand to arch closer to my lower region.

" now can I get a kiss ? " I just stared at him blankly, what was he thinking of course not. he raised his eyebrows. " keeping quiet is agreeing baby " he said right before kissing me. again I didn't kiss back I just squeezed my eyes closed not wanting to believe that he was genially kissing me. its not like I was showing attitude.

he randomly turned me around forcing my back against his front and me to face Rocco. " this is just a little taste of what could happen if you don't obey. com'n Rocco teach her " Justin told me while Rocco started smirking at me.

" sorry princess I forgot to brush my teeth today" Rocco whispered in my ear. internally I wanted to trow up smelling his breath but of course I wasn't going to do that.

he forced is lips on me and Justin started grinding on my behind causing me to gasp and Roccos tongue to enter my mouth. I tried to pull away but once again none of them budged.

Rocco's tongue explored my mouth while I just stood there numb and wanting to cry. the taste of his tongue was something I wouldn't want there again or even now but I had no choice.

Justin and Dalton were laughing and talking about how I definitely should learn how to kiss. when Rocco let go of me Dalton went up to me and kissed my cheek " our little secret baby, no one needs to know" I nodded not wanting to disrespect them. they let out a chuckle and left the class room. straight away tears escaped my eyes knowing that I was truly fucked and they could potentially screw over my life even more. they could be the last straw to me doing something to myself.

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its lunch now and I was walking towards the canteen, I don't know or teachers noticed me skipping the whole day until now but I just don't seem to really care. I mean could it make my life any worse?

seeing the others sitting at a table I walked towards them. seeing his face made me remember the moments of Saturday on how he saw me but then again he thinks I was someone else in the end anyway. " hey little one " Ashton said when I sat down next to him and Cody. I gave him a smile showing that I want to say hi back, I truly loved the fact that none of them force me to talk and just accept my non verbal signs too.

i grabbed my lunch and saw Emily give me the look causing me to nod showing that I felt okay. no one really payed attention to me due to Amy talking about her father. not getting attention is something that i didn't mind. " where were you? " made me look up from my food just like everyone else at the table looked at Ryder too. he was looking at me. " w-what ? " I truly was confused on what he meant. " I walked passed your class, I was going to walk you to lunch, I wanted t- uhm but you weren't there. " " uh I left earlier because I needed to go to the bathroom " one of the ways to know if I'm lying or not is my stuttering, sometimes I stop stuttering when I lie. but there is no way any of them could know that already due to the small amount of time we've known each other.

" no, I had free period I was waiting on you there the whole time " he looked at me not even with a stern look just with sadness and disappointment. why ? I didn't really know was it because I lied ?

" i skipped, I j-just had a headache " " you are better now ? " he looked at me worried, I nodded but he gave me a pointed look while nodding with a smile, I don't think he believes me. Everyone continued with their conversation while I kept quiet and so did Ryder. he knows something I don't want him to know, was it about Saturday. did he still think it was me?