JG's POV
I'm seeing spots.
Stars dance in front of my eyes as I try to take deep breaths,my chest on fire from breathing so hard.
I try to stand up but I can barely move my legs,I feel so weak right now.
I have to get to him.
I have to make him understand how sorry I am,how I really didn't want to hurt him.
How much I love him.
I stand up,my whole body aching and my head pounding.
I take off after the way he went,running so fast I feel like I'm gonna pass out.
But I don't care.
The fact that my baby boy hates me kills me,it hurts worse than anything I've ever felt.
I need him to listen to me,need him to understand everything.
I need him to see...just how sorry I am.
JJ's POV
I slam the door hard enough to where the whole frame shakes violently.
How could I have been so stupid??
How could I have not seen it??
I should have KNOWN that he didn't wanna be around me,that he didn't care about me.
He's Jack Gilinsky.
The manwhore,the schools biggest douche,the guys who's broken a million hearts.
Why was I so stupid??
I should NEVER have gone against my better instinct.
Mrs.D was all "give him a chance,he may surprise you" and here I was,telling her no.
And then I did.
I gave him a chance and I let him in and I said things I've never said to other people.
Did things I've never done with anyone else.
I gave him a chance to prove he was different than I thought he was.I gave him such a chance that I did something stupid.
I fell for him.
God why the fuck did I do that??
Why didn't I see how it was all just a joke,a game,a lie?
Why didn't I see it??
I know why but I hate to admit it.
I'm just like all those stupid girls at my school,like all those idiotic girls.
I gave him a chance and let him near me.I even slept with him,more than once.
And then I fell for him and now I see it was all just a big joke.
It was all along.
It wasn't real.
At least...not for him.
I make my way upstairs,laughing at myself.
Who was I kidding?
I watched him at school for years,having girls drape themselves all over him as they pleaded for just a little slice of attention.
I watched as they got all dolled up,trying to win the heart of the most popular heartbreaker.
And then I watched as he used them and broke them down when he was done with them,breaking their hearts in his own hands.
