Europa

July 28, 2048

Since I said that Lee guy that I do not know that much that well I have had a couple chances to interact with him. Each of these interactions has had the same strange energy, and yet I love him even more every time we have one of them. I've definitely never met anyone like him.

Today while I was eating breakfast with Jessica, he handed me a paper booklet. I looked at it and looked back at Lee to ask what it was. It seemed like each sheet was covered in equations that I could not even begin to decipher.

He explained that after we talked about my mother last night, he thought I could use some support to ease my concerns about the safety of the space station, He thought he would provide comfort with his calculations verifying the mission organizers calculations.

I looked down at the math and back up at him. I flipped to the last page and found the number '.03%' circled. "I'm afraid to ask," I said.

"Those are the odds that our space station explodes and breaks apart in the atmosphere like your mothers. I calculated the math on her mission and the odds of it combusting were around twenty two percent.

On one hand the '.03%' on the paper looked pretty good, but just looking it up close made me feel a bit uneasy. It was easier to tell myself that there was no chance of it happening. I realize its irrational to worry about something that is like one in ten thousand to happen, but sometimes humans can think irrationally.

The twenty two percent also rubbed me the wrong way. Now I wasn't treating the numbers Lee said as facts although I will say any number, he gives is pretty easy to trust. He seems to know everything there is to know when it comes to mathematics. If it is a realistic figure however it confirms a lot about what I had researched about the tragedy once I got older. The mission that killed my mother should have never been launched. The entire process had been rushed in an effort to discover Martian aliens. To rub salt in the wound it has now been proved that as of yet there has been no life on Mars, and they never even arrived to investigate themselves.

The part that made me very uneasy was how some of those themes seem to mirror our mission. Not only was our mission to discover life on Europa and our crew had been rushed to beat out the Chinese team and be the first country to discover aliens. My dad always says that history repeats itself. I would hate for him to be right this time around.