I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 142: I Missed The Call

Previously:

"so you don't trust me?" she sighs and says "honestly no I don't think I can just like I know that you don't trust me" I make a confuse face and say "why do you say that?" "well I mean you took away my daughter from me so you clearly don't trust me anymore since you went to the extreme" "you know when the judge said that I had full custody I thought that I was going to feel much better but I didn't I felt even worse than I already I felt ashamed of myself I knew that once he declared me full custody that you and I were officially over that there would be no more us that I had officially ruined not only our future but I had also ruined our daughters future since she is no longer going to be able to grow up seeing her mother every day, I ruined her future" tears are falling from my eyes I look at Demi and she also has tears and she says "you are right you did ruin our future and also our daughters and I don't think that I could ever forgive you for that Alex" "Demi?" "just get out of my house Alex just leave" I nod my head understanding and I walk out....

Alex's Pov:

It's been 2 months since I was granted full custody by the judge, it's been also 2 months since Demi and I officially called it quits with each other and basically said that we can no longer be together, I didn't think that it would all end this way but I think that it's for the best and it's true I don't think that we will ever be the same way that we were 3 years ago there is just too much pain and a lot of trust issues between us, I'm going to be honest but I miss her so much I miss waking up and seeing her next to me I miss our crazy little adventures, I miss the way we could just stay at home all day and do nothing but enjoy each other's company, I miss our intimate moments when we would make love and kiss, I simply just miss Demi and I know that even though I don't trust her and she doesn't trust me I still love her, I will always love her and I was stupid for what I did and I don't know how to make it right because even if I did try to fix it Demi wouldn't take me back, I've talked to Demi after that just like 3 times and it's only been for doctor appointments to see how our daughter is, but other than that we have no communication, I have been in the studio a lot writing music not for myself but for other artist I decided to be a composer instead of and artist because if I release an album then that would be a bad idea since the baby can be born any day so I have just been a DJ at a couple of clubs, right now I am in the studio finishing up a song that I wrote about Demi and I's situation the song is called "Little do you Know" (A/N: I do not own none of these lyrics they belong to Alex and Sierra's song called Little do you Know) I still don't have the first verse just my verse and the rest of the song.

I'll wait, I'll wait
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me

Little do you know
I know you hurt while I'm sound asleep
Little do you know
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Little do you know
I'm trying to make it better piece by piece

Little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies

Oh wait, just wait
I love you like I've never felt the pain,
Just wait
I love you like I've never been afraid,
Just wait
Our love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me

I'll wait (I'll wait), I'll wait (I'll wait)
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait (I'll wait)
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait
The love is here and here to stay
So lay your head on me
Lay your head on me
So lay your head on me

'Cause little do you know
I, I love you 'til the sun dies

By the end of the song I felt my eyes sting, and then I hear someone say "that's a very beautiful song" I look up and I see Demi standing there, I stand up and say "oh um I'm sorry I got carried away and lost track of time is it your turn to be in here?" she says "yeah it is but it's fine trust me I'm glad you were still in here" I nod my head and say "well I think I'm going to get going I'll just be" she interrupts me and says "no it's ok trust me I um do you have the first verse of that song?" "no I don't I um can't seem to write it" she nods her head and says "can I um help you out with it?" I look at her and say "I um I don't know I guess if you want to" "yeah I want to help you" I sit back down and she sits down in the couch and we sit there in slightly awkward silence and I say "so um how have you been feeling?" "I have been feeling extremely tired my feet are always sore, my back is always killing me, I am always craving things, I'm always horny" she chuckles at the end when she realizes what she said and I chuckle too and she says "sorry I didn't mean to say that" "it's ok don't worry about it" she smiles and says "how have you been?" "well I um have been doing a lot of writing I decided to be a composer instead of an actual artist since the baby is going to be born any day now, so I've just been Dj'ing at a couple of clubs and more writing" she nods her head understanding and she says "yeah I heard that you were a composer now and um it's funny actually because Phil is looking for a composer for my new album and he heard about you and he asked me if I thought that it might be crazy if I would let you compose some songs for me" I chuckle and say "well I mean I wouldn't mind to be honest I don't know about you though"