I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 108: I Am Only In Love With You

Previously:

Demi tried talking to me the rest of the night but I would ignore her or find and excuse to not talk to her, we all eventually went home and well it was time for Isabella and I to talk about our situation and so we were in our room and she says “so can we talk now?” I nod my head saying yes and she says “I am so sorry Noah I am so sorry that I doubted your feelings for me I know that you only love me I guess I was just jealous and was afraid to lose you at any moment but this whole month has made me realize that you only love me and I made a mistake in leaving you I should’ve stayed because we are just a couple of months into saying I do and I didn’t stand by you through the good times and the bad times I really am sorry for leaving you Noah” up to this point she was still crying and honestly I understood her and I still do love her so I say “I understand you Isabella I really do and I mean we both made mistakes and I still love you very much” she says “I still love you too Noah” I smile and then she says “can you forgive me and let us try to work things out?” the decision I make right now is our future whether I say yes or no someone is going to get hurt so I say “yes I forgive you and we can work things out”…..

Noah’s Pov:

So I decided to work things out with Isabella I hope I made the right choice, the reason why I made that choice is because I feel like Isabella and I deserve to try things out again I mean we never broke up or anything but I just feel like when we lost our baby it all went downhill from there but Isabella and I’s relationship started off amazing and I still love her but of course I don’t love her as much as I love Demi but I am hoping that as time passes by my feelings become stronger for her, it’s the day after the party and well I am just getting up it is around 6:00am and I decided to start my day off today by going out for a run, I feel like I need to straighten my life up because if not it’s just going to keep on getting worse and worse so a good jog sounds like a good start for a new beginning, I walk downstairs and buddy immediately comes running towards me and he barks and I say “can you keep it down before you wake them up” he barks again and I say “seriously buddy?” he barks again and I say “fine come on let’s go” I grab his leash and well we begin running and we made it to the park and I lay down breathing heavy and he comes next to me and licks my nose and I say “buddy stop” he continues and I chuckle and I say “ok, ok” he stops and lays down on my chest and looks right at me and I say “I know, I know what you’re thinking that I should’ve told your mother that I am Alex” he barks and I say “geez calm down it’s not that easy ok she clearly has someone in her life and I am marrying Isabella ok” he barks again and I say “look at me I am going crazy I am speaking to a dog” he barks again and I just chuckle to myself.

 I made the right decision right? Letting Demi go and marrying Isabella? I may still love her but she has Sam now and well I have Isabella who I am going to marry in less than 3 months, I can’t help but admit that it pains me knowing that they are together now, if it wasn’t for Isabella coming back at the wrong time Demi and I would’ve probably been back together I wouldn’t be looking for a fresh start I would be in bed right now making love to Demi well that’s if she would’ve forgiven me for lying to her all this time about being Noah when I was actually Alex, I do wonder what would’ve happened if I actually would’ve told her would she have forgiven me right away or would she have chopped my balls off? I honestly think that she would’ve chopped my balls off and then probably felt bad and then forgiven me but I mean it was her fault because she cheated on me she broke my heart I wasn’t looking for revenge or anything I just wanted to see how she was I wanted to see whether she was living a good or a bad life, I wish I could’ve just forgiven her right away but I just couldn’t because I was broken, but now I can because I realize that I still and have always loved her, but I guess I was wrong it wasn’t our destiny to be together because if it was then the moment that I was going to tell her would’ve been perfect, if it was meant for me to tell her Isabella wouldn’t have showed up, Demi and Sam would’ve never kept contact, Demi and I will always be in love with each other but we are not meant to be together for the rest of our lives.