I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 116: I'm Alex, Demi

Previously:

“no, no, no you don’t have to do that trust me already talked and well we knew that our relationship was over once we lost the baby, she told me she couldn’t forgive me but she said that maybe one day she will be able to do that and that we could be friends, and I mean I understand why she would call off the wedding and everything” she says “I am really, really sorry Noah I really am I wish I could do something about it” I give her a small smile and she says “can I ask you something?” “yeah sure” she says “did you really love her?” I sigh and say “yes I did love her at the beginning but like I said after we lost our child I continued to love her but not the way that she would’ve wanted to love me because what I felt was more of a friendship love” she nods her head understanding and says “so um is this what you wanted to tell me?” “um no not really but I just wanted to put it out there I guess I don’t know I’m just really nervous to tell you” she says “Noah please calm down I don’t want you to have a heart attack or something” I chuckle to myself, my nervousness is getting to me, my palms are sweating, my heart is beating really fast, I don’t know if I could do this I don’t think I can this is too much for me but then I say “I’m Alex, Demi” shit……

A/N: Hey guys just letting you know that from now on it will no longer be Noah’s Pov but Alex’s Pov! =)

Alex’s Pov:

“I’m Alex Demi” shit I think to myself I literally had a word vomit like in mean girls, we are silent for a moment but she is looking at me with confusion, anger, and hurt in her eyes and says “wait what? What do you mean you are Alex?” “I’m Alex, Demi I had the surgery after we broke up and I went to Brazil I have been leaving as a guy for 3 years now” she nods her head and says “no, no, no that can’t be no you are not Alex, Alex left me Alex doesn’t love me anymore, Alex didn’t let me explain Alex wouldn’t lie to me like this” oh no she’s having a panic attack so I walk over to her and I pull her in my arms and I hug her and I say “Demi please calm down please your having a panic attack” she continues breathing hard but then she came to her senses and realized that I wasn’t lying to her and she pushed me away and I feel a sting on my left cheek and then I feel another sting on my right cheek, she just slapped me I look at her while grabbing my cheeks and tears are running down her eyes and she gets up and runs a hand through her hair and says “why hu? Why did you do this to me Alex? Why did you make me fall in love with you as Noah? Why did you torture me like this?” I stay quiet not knowing what to say I was still in shock at the fact that she just slapped me.

Then she says “is this revenge are you getting me back for cheating on you? Is that why you did this? Is that why you watched me make a fool out of me in front of you? Did you plan this whole thing with Isabella?” that’s where I got mad I know I shouldn’t because I am in no position to get mad but the fact that she brought Isabella into this it just set me and I say “don’t you dare bring Isabella into this she knew that I was Alex but don’t blame her ok not her or my daughter because none of that was fake everything was real ok I did lose Isabella and I also lost my daughter” she stays quiet and I feel tears stinging my eyes and she walks over to me and I am expecting a slap but instead she begins to push me away and says “I hate you sooo much Alex, how could you lie to me, how could you do that to me especially when you saw I was without you, I was miserable when you left me and didn’t even give me a chance to explain, I relapsed because of you Alex” I look at her I did not know she relapsed I never knew that why didn’t anyone ever tell me that? She relapsed because of me she went through pain because of me, I broke her, she continues to push me but I don’t fight back because I know that it’s my fault all of this is my fault all of this happened because I was so stupid, so I say “I know Demi I know that all this is my fault it’s my fault that you cheated on me because I wasn’t here for you like Scarlett was, I know that it’s my fault that you relapsed because I left you and didn’t let you explain, I know that it’s my fault that you are feeling pain right now because I lied to you, everything is my fault I was so stupid in leaving you without letting you explain”.