I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 106: The Heart Wants What It Wants

Previously:

I don't know what do? I am really confused my brain is telling me that I am not in love with Demi but that I am in love with Isabella, but then I have my heart telling me the opposite that I only love Isabella as a friend and that I really actually am still in love with Demi, this is just too confusing how can Isabella do this to me how can she make me choose between them I can't do that I can't choose between them I love Isabella so much she fixed my heart not only once but twice and well I know that Demi hurt me so much to point where I thought that I would never be able to have my heart fixed to the point where I thought that I couldn't fall in love anymore and well even though after she did what she did I still care about her and I know that she is in love with me but I just don't know if it's a good thing because I am Noah to her how is she going to take it when I tell her that I am Alex? Why am I even worrying about this I shouldn't care about her should I because she hurt me, why can't my heart just accept the fact that she hurt me? Or Why can't I just accept the fact that I am still in love with Demi Lovato......

Noah's Pov:

After I had a little moment with myself I decided to go and get ready for the party, I am assuming that Demi started to also get ready for the party because when I walk out of the kitchen she wasn't there anymore, I really hope that she didn't hear every single word that I said because if she did then she might get the wrong idea and the last thing I want is for her to fire me for thinking and hearing that I am supposedly in love with her, I still can't and won't admit to myself that I am in love with her because I am not my heart is making me think that I am but I'm not I just care for I mean I can care for her right? Just like I care about Marissa and her being safe doesn't mean that I am in love with her, my heart is just begin stupid and weak it doesn't know what it wants, I have my cellphone playing on Spotify that I didn't even realize that this song was playing,

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants (x4)

This is a modern fairytale
No happy endings
No wind in our sails
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down down down

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants (x4)

The heart wants what it wants baby

(A/N: I do not own any of these lyrics they all belong to Selena Gomez Song the heart wants what it wants, just writing this for copy right reasons I don't want to get sued lol)

I roll my eyes and say out loud "really Selena really? Well guess what my heart does know what it wants and it's not Demi it's Isabella ok" gosh I sound crazy don't I yelling at my phone because of the dam song, I seriously need to get my shit together I thought that I had everything under control but I guess I don't I need to show Isabella that I am in love with her only we are getting married in less than 3 months we are so close to saying I do and spending the rest of our lives with each other but Demi is always in the way, but I also think about why do I have to prove to Isabella that I don't love her why can't she just believe me? Does she not trust me anymore? What is it or what made her think that I could possibly still be in love with Demi? I swear this fiancé and ex-girlfriend drama is just driving me crazy why can't I just live a happy life with the girl that I love?