I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 92: But I Love You

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Previously:

Eddie says "well you and Isabella can move in with Demi and I'm sure it'll make things easier and I mean it's not for forever it's only for about 7 months” I sigh and say “I would love too but Isabella and I also have school” he says “when are you graduating?” I say “in about a month” Roger says “then it’s perfect because you would start in about a month” Eddie says “you see Noah it’ll all work out” I give them a small smile and say “I’ll think about it I mean I also have to ask Isabella and see what she thinks” he says “don’t worry about it take your time” Demi comes and says “hi daddy what’s going on?” he says “well Roger was telling us that he needs some time off to sort something’s out so it looks like Noah might be his replacement for when he is gone” Demi looks at me surprised and says “really?” I say “well it’s not a for sure yet I mean I need to ask Isabella and see what she thinks” she says “oh ok I mean you guys can move in with me if that’s the problem I don’t mind” I smile at her and say “thank you but I’ll have to get back to you since I need to ask Isabella” she smiles and says “ok yeah don’t worry about it” I sip on my beer and she walks away, oh god what am I going to do I am trying to get as far away from Demi and I seem to be getting closer to her man Isabella is going to kill me, I don’t even know if I should take the offer?

Noah’s Pov:

After having that talk with Eddie, Max, and Roger I decided that I should go and ask Isabella I mean she deserves to have an opinion in this, I don’t know how she is going to react I see her talking with Lauren and the girls and I walk over to them and I wrap my arms around Isabella’s waist and say “hey babe” she smiles and says “hi bae” Lauren says “so Isabella here says that you both have something to tell us” I smile and look down at Isabella and she smiles at me and I say “yes we do” Camila says “ok tell us” I smile and say “nah not yet I want the whole family to be together” Lauren frowns and so does Camila and the rest of the girls and Isabella and I just chuckle, we continue having a good time and I guess I must say that I started to enjoy myself, I miss begin around my family and Demi’s family too we were all one big happy family until that incident happen, I still don’t know whether I should take the job or not I mean I guess I also don’t know because I haven’t talked to Isabella about it.

The party has come down to an end and well by the looks of it Demi is slightly drunk and I can’t help but feel that it is kind of my fault because of the fact that I told her that I would never come back and that we would never get back together, like I said what was I supposed to do, tell her that I am coming back get her hopes us not I would never do that she may have hurt me but I didn’t come back for revenge I came back for max, Lily and my family, I will say though that being Noah, Alex’s fake cousin is harder than I thought it would be but I am trying my best to make it work, right now I am carrying Lexi upstairs because she fell asleep I walk in to the guest room and I see Dallas and Haley making out and I stop and say “whoa, whoa, whoa, can you stop eating each other’s faces while I am in the room” Haley says “dammit Noah you always walk in on us” I chuckle and lay Lexi next to them and kiss her forehead and say “goodnight baby girl” and I look at them and say “you know there is something called locking the door” she rolls her eyes at me and Dallas says “you know there’s something called knocking on a door” dam she got me so I say “touché” they chuckle and I see Max and Lily sleeping already so I go and kiss their foreheads and I say “goodnight ladies don’t be too loud ok” Haley throws me a pillow and I just laugh.

I walk back downstairs and I see Lauren and Camila trying to get Demi to go to bed but she doesn’t listen apparently she is more than tipsy she’s actually drunk, so I go and say “are you guys trying to have a three way with Demi?” Camila says “eww Noah” and she punches my shoulder and I chuckle and Lauren says “you know that wouldn’t be bad at all” Camila gasps and says “Lauren” and I just laugh and I say “I got her you guys” Lauren says “are you sure?” I say “yeah I’ll take her upstairs and you guys can get her some water and change her into comfortable clothes” they say ok and that they will be up there in a couple of minute, I pick up Demi bridal style and I go upstairs and Isabella sees me and she raises and eyebrow at me and says “what are you doing?” I say “taking a drunk Demi to her room” Demi who I thought was passed out says “I am not drunk ok” well she slurred most of what she was saying and Isabella and I just chuckle and Isabella says “ok I’ll wait for you in the room ok” I smile and say “yeah I’ll be there in a couple of minutes” I walk over to Demi’s room and I open the door and lay her down on her bed, I begin to take off her shoes and she more passed out than awake so I sit next to her and I rub her hair out of her face and observe her, she looks different it looks like she is missing something I don’t know what it is but she isn’t the same anymore, she is still beautiful but there is something missing, I sigh and say “why did you start drinking again Demi?”.

I rub her cheek and she mumbles “because you left me Alex” my eyes widen holy shit did she really just call me Alex again? Is it the alcohol talking or does really know that it’s me? I say “Demi, Alex didn’t leave you because she wanted to she left because you cheated on her” she groans “I know and I am sorry I never meant to hurt you Alex I swear I didn’t, but you just left me and didn’t even let me explain to you that I never meant to break your heart you left me behind like I was a piece of trash that you didn’t care about” a little part of me felt guilty because she was right I never gave her a chance to explain why she did but, I was just so hurt that I just wanted to get away from her I couldn’t face her and ask her why she did it I just couldn’t I was in too much pain my heart was broken and it still is, the only reason why my heart is still beating and still has feelings in it is because of Isabella she has kept my heart from stopping she is the only reason why I am still alive right now, I am interrupted from my thoughts when she says “why did you leave me?” this question surprised me because not only did she just ask me this but she is literally looking at me she looks so vulnerable and broken like these past 3 years she has been putting on a brave face and knowing Demi I know she has but deep down I know that she is also broken just like me, I sigh and say “I didn’t want to leave you but, I had to leave you before things became worse than they already were” she says through teary eyes “but I still love you Alex and you just left me, you left me like if our love never meant anything to you”.

I can feel a familiar feeling that I felt 3 years ago but I immediately push it back I can’t go back to those feelings I refuse to go back, so I say “I’m sorry Demi but you just need to forget about me ok, because I am never going to come back, move on with your life fall in love again with someone else ok because I am no good for you Demi all I have done is cause you pain ok, so please, please move on for me if you really do love me” she says “but I love you Alex” “I know and I’m sorry that you do” out of nowhere she grabs me from my shirt and pulls me down and she crashes her lips onto mine and at that moment I feel that my walls were broken down once again by Demetria Lovato and I feel the sparks again run through me just like before, I don’t want to stop kissing her but then I remember that she hurt me once and I promised myself to never come back to her no matter what, so I pull away and of course instead of staying awake she passes out, I frown at the fact that I just cheated on Isabella the mother of my unborn child and my future fiancé, I really hope that Demi doesn’t remember none of this tomorrow.

Whoaaaa what just happened?

Will Demi remember all of this?

Would this count as cheating towards Isabella?

Should Noah tell Isabella?

Is Noah still in love with Demi?

Hey guys so here is a short chapter because I wanted to leave it in a interesting part I feel like a lot happened in this chapter not only for Demi but for Noah too so please vote and comment and let me know what you guys think is going to happen next? Thank you guys for reading! =)

P.S- Next update will be Wednesday! =)