I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 113: What The Hell Is Going On

Previously:

"wow not only once but twice" and I turn around and walk away and I hear her call my name but I don't stop I put buddy down and he begins to whimper and I say "I'm sorry buddy" and Demi comes downstairs with the sheets wrapped around her and says "Noah please stop" I nod my head it's just like 3 years ago all over again except this time she is not years so I say "save it Demi" she says "no please stop please let me explain" I turn around and say "explain what hu? That I caught you again with that stupid bitch in bed? Explain what that you love me and everything and that it doesn't mean anything, explain what that you did it because you were pissed off at me? No Demi you cannot explain it you cannot make your way out of this anymore ok I caught you once I caught you twice and then I caught you a third I am done with you Demi so done no wonder Alex left you without letting you explain you will never stop doing this shit Demi you said you were done with mine and Alex's bullshit well guess what I am also done with yours now I don't know how I could've ever fallen in love with you" and with that I walk out and I make my way to my car and I get in and begin to cry I can't believe I was about to tell her everything and then she does this I know I said before that I am done with Demi and that I don't love her anymore but now I am officially over her I can't do this anymore.

Noah's Pov:

After a while I make my way back to Lauren's house I need to tell Isabella I need to tell her now I need to just get over all of this because I can't breath anymore I just can't and I want to be able to breath again if my heart if going to get broken by two girls then let it be I deserve it for lying to the both of them but something I know for sure is that Demi is not going to know the truth about me being Alex never, I arrive to the house and I go in and immediately I am greeted by Lauren walks over to me and says "hey what's wrong?" I sigh and say "nothing I'm ok" she says "don't lie to me I know something is wrong" I sigh and say "I was going to tell Demi that I am Alex but I ended up not telling her because I found her in bed again with Scarlett" she looks at me shocked and says "oh my god your kidding right?" I nod my head no and she says "oh my god Noah what are you going to do now are you still going to tell her?" I sigh and say "I was going to tell her but after this no I am not going to tell her and well I am done with her like this time I actually mean it she is never going to leave Scarlett behind" she nods understanding and says "I'm really sorry Noah" I nod my head and say "I wish I could say it's ok but it's not and well I also decided to tell Isabella the truth" she looks at me confused and says "the truth about what?" I rub the back of my neck and say "I um cheated on her Lauren" she gasps and says "oh my god no you did not? With who?" I say "yeah I did and it was with Demi" she punches me in the shoulder and she says "oh my god are you kidding me Noah? Out of everyone it had to be Demi the one that cheated on you? You of all the people should know how it feels to be cheated on, you are going to break Isabella's heart Noah" "I know Lauren I know I am but she deserves to know the truth she nods her head agreeing and she says "I hate to say this but I am really disappointed in you Noah I can't believe you would cheat on Isabella after what you went through but I'm glad that you are telling her and not keeping it a secret" I nod my head understanding and honestly it hurts me so much when someone says they are not mad but are disappointed in you, I dislike it because it feels like you let them down, and I guess I did let down Lauren so I take deep breath and I say "I'm sorry Lauren for putting you through all of this" she nods her head and says "I'm not the one that you need be apologizing to Noah, and look I know that what Demi did wasn't right but have you ever at least let her explain to you why she did it not only right now but also when she did it 3 years ago?"

I stay quiet thinking about it I never really did let her explain once at least, I guess I never did let her explain why she did it because she broke my heart and I was just really upset that she did that and I never understood why she did it but of course that's my fault because I never gave her the chance to explain why she did it, I snap out of it and look at her and say "I never let her explain because I was just really upset that she cheated on me and I just didn't want to hear it even though I wanted to know why she did it but I just I guess I didn't want to hear the truth because it would just break my heart even more than it was already broken I know that I should let her explain but honestly up to this point I really don't think I want to hear why she did it all I know is that she is never going to change she is never going to stop sleeping around with Scarlett no matter what, I was on my way to tell her that I was Alex to tell her everything so that I could move on and so could she because she deserved the truth but then I walk in on her and she is having sex with Scarlett, and that just broke me again Lauren it really did because I was hoping that for once Demi and I could fix things work everything out and start all over but no she just went and slept with her again" I begin to feel like k can't breathe and I knew that it was heart I haven't taken my medication today I have just been so stressed out with everything and honestly I just wish that my life could end right now because I don't want to live anymore I don't deserve to live I just end up hurting the people around me everything that happened is my fault nothing will ever be the same anymore I can't breathe anymore I just can't and she says "Noah calm down ok take deep breathes please you are over doing it with your heart relax its ok Noah" I feel myself getting more and more dizzy and next thing you know I feel my eyes close.