I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 136: He Left You Once

Previously:

"please don't make me do this right now" "I don't want to Demi I really don't want to because I know that it's not good for you and the baby but it's killing me to see you go through this just tell me what happened what did I do that was so bad?" "I can't Alex I can't tell you" "why not Demi?" "because if I do then you will leave me and you will go through pain again just like you did 3 years ago, I know I should tell you because you deserve to know but I just don't want to lose you Alex, I lost you once that I don't think I could lose you again" I cup her cheeks and look into her eyes and I say "you won't lose me Demi, I am not going anywhere I promise Demi I going to stay here right by your side because if we fixed this problem once then we can fix it again" she sighs and looks into my eyes and says "Alex I'm sorry" "Demi please just tell me" tears are falling from her eyes and she says "Alex I cheated on you 3 years ago".....

Alex's Pov:

Demi cheated on me 3 years ago? I feel like my heart just completely broke I feel like I am about to throw up just thinking about it, why would she do this to me? I love her so much that she just goes and cheats on me? With who the hell did she even cheat on me? I look away from her I don't even know what to say I never thought that it was going to be this I thought it was going to be something else but not this, this just breaks my heart completely, "Alex please say something" I ignore her and don't even dare to look at her I don't think I can look at her, "Alex please look at me or say something" "get out" I say without even looking at her "what?" "you heard me Demi get out I can't look at you right now or even talk to you" "but I thought you said that no matter what you were going to stay by my side that we could get through it" I can hear her crying already and it breaks my heart to hear her cry but it breaks my heart completely knowing that she was in someone else's arms, "I know I said that but I never in a million years thought that those words where going to come out of your mouth I need time Demi I need time to just process all of this" "Alex please" "please Demi just get out please I don't want to say something that I am going to regret so please just leave" she nods her head understanding and says "I am really sorry Alex I really am but just know that I will always love you even if you don't love me anymore after this" and she walks out

I lay back and sigh I put my hand over my chest I can literally feel the pain in my heart I can how it has been not only shattered but broken into pieces, I don't know what to do I love Demi so much but cheating on me is something else she already knew that I couldn't trust myself with other girls because I was afraid that I was going to cheat on her and what happens? She cheats on me instead with who knows who, I don't know if I can forgive her for this I really don't I want to but it just pains me so much to know that she had sex with someone else, I wish I could just run away go somewhere and get away from all of this but I can't, I can't do that because Demi is having my baby she is giving me a little girl she is the reason why I would stay around because of our baby, someone knocks and I see Lauren walk in and she says "oh my god I am so glad you are finally awake" I smile widely and say "I'm kind of not happy that I am awake" she looks at me confused and says "what why? What are you talking about?" I sigh and say "never mind just forget it" "no come on tell me what's wrong I can see that something is wrong" "well first of all where is mom and dad?" "their flight got delayed unfortunately they will still take a little longer to get here" "oh ok and um well it turns out that I don't remember what happened in the last 3 years" she looks at me confused "what do you mean?"

"Yeah something went wrong and I can't remember anything that happened I don't remember Haley giving birth to Lexi or anything else like um" I pause and she says "like what?" "I don't remember finding out that Demi was cheating on me" her eyes widen and she says "oh my god Alex I am so sorry" I sigh "It's not your fault Lauren I'm sure that I went through this before 3 years ago I just can't remember but of course I still feel the pain" she nods her head understanding and I say "how did I handle the pain 3 years ago?" "I um I don't know if I should tell you this it's um not my place to tell you" "what do you mean it's not your place?" "I am not the one that is supposed to be telling you this Demi is or even Isabella but not me" "Isabella what does she have to do with this?" Lauren runs a have through her hair and she says "I'm going to go call Isabella" "ok" "I'll be back don't worry" she walks out and I just lay there what the hell did I miss these past 3 years, I wish that I could just remember everything that happened I wish that I could get rid of this pain that I am feeling in my heart just so that I could move past this, someone knocks on the door and I say "come in" Isabella walks in and she says "hey Alex" I smile "hi Isabella" "how are you feeling?" "pretty good just a little sore" she smiles and says "so um Lauren said that you wanted to talk to me about something?" "yeah I um I don't know if this is going to be a weird topic to talk to you about but um as you know I don't remember nothing from 3 years ago and Demi just told me that she um cheated on me, so I um asked Lauren how I dealt with my pain and she said that it wasn't her place to tell me it was either you or Demi"