I will always love you even if I say I don't (Demi Lovato Fan Fiction) (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 161: I Don't Want To Hurt Him

Alex's Pov:

It's been five minutes and I am still standing here facing the door hoping that she comes back inside and says that she was joking around, her words keep replaying in my head "Alex if you don't get your act together and get some help not only will I not let you see Jenny but I will most definitely call off the wedding, so it's your choice", was she being serious? Will she really not let me see Jenny? What about the wedding? I finally move and sit down on the couch I rub the back of my neck and think about what I could do? I look up and the bottle of vodka is just there on our coffee table looking right at me I pick it up and put it against my lips but before I take a drink from the bottle Demi's words repeat again in my head and I immediately throw the bottle against the wall and it shatters into pieces I sigh, great now I have to clean that up, it wasn't until then that I thought about what has been going on in the past days and I realized that I have been a mess and I need to get my shit together because if I don't not only will I lose my daughter but I will also lose the love of my life and I cannot let that happen, I am going to show Demi that I am better than what I have become and I need to talk to her about everything that has been going on since she left, I will not let Demi cancel this wedding because she is the love of my life and I want to marry her as soon as possible I want us to be a family.

Demi's Pov:

It was really painful for me to just tell him that and then walk out because I know that what I just said can either make things worse or he can see that I am serious and make a change, I love him so much and I am slightly afraid that he won't try to get himself back together, "no Demi stop thinking negative about him he will realize that he is going nowhere with the things that he is going and he will get himself back up he will because he loves you and he loves Jenny" I say to myself, I am trying so hard not to cry because if I cry I am not going to stop and I am just going to get out of the car and run back in and tell him that I didn't mean what I just said, but I have to be strong and I have to let him make the decision for both us, all I am hoping for is that he makes the right decision.

*2 Months Later (Jenny is now 5 months)

No One's Pov:

It's been 2 months Alex has been working on himself, Demi has not been living with him due to the safety of Jenny but because after their conversation she went back to finish her tour, a month after tour ended she came back but went to live with her Marissa, she has gone out a couple of times with Alex but it was mainly just to let him see her, Demi has also been working on the release of her new album and has also been working on a specific song.

Alex's Pov:

These past 2 months have been hard for me but I am little by little getting myself back to my feet, I decided to get help from some of the people that helped Demi out and it has definitely been a different experience for me and has opened my eyes, I cannot say that I am completely better but I know that I still have some temptations when it comes to alcohol but I have decided that I am going to stop drinking for the best of me and my family, speaking of my family I am very grateful that Demi has let me seen Jenny a couple of times, the toughest part I would say throughout this process was not being able to see my little girl for a whole month or even after Demi came back from tour but I knew that Demi was doing this for the safety of Jenny and I respect that, I miss both Demi and Jenny very much right now I have not seen them for about a week, I was laying on my bed I looking at my cellphone I had just woken up and I see that I have a message from Chris that says "Happy Birthday Bro, I hope you have an amazing day I wish I could be there with you but work is killing me right now but enjoy your day love you bro" I smile widely and remember that today is my birthday but then it turns into a frown because I'm not going to anything except stay home and I guess watch TV since my mom is still in the hospital and everyone else is busy with their own stuff, damn this is going to be a really long day, I immediately reply to him and say "Thanks bro love you too", If you are wondering if everything is better between us all it is we all decided one day to sit down and talk together it was very emotional but we did it and things are better between us.