Sevyn and Von hung around the same people but did not like each other. But they were just cordial. Until Von's birthday came up and Sevyn was the only friend of his that remembered.
I woke up to hearing things moving around the room and I was confused. Dayvon is never out of the bed before me.
I peaked my head from under the covers and saw Dayvon dressed in all black looking like he was looking for something.
"Dayvon? Where are you going?" I asked.
"I gotta go." Dayvon said pulling his hood over his head and I sat up confused and rubbed my eyes.
"Dayvon." I groaned getting up.
"No ma. You can go back to sleep. Sleep ma." He said quickly coming to me and I hit his arm.
"No. I already know what you're about to go do. Stop doing bullshit." I said and he looked up and sighed.
"I'm sorry ma. But you know I gotta go." He said.
"You don't have to do shit Dayvon. You're choosing to. Stop choosing to be stupid." I said smacking his arm.
"I love you ma. You gone hold me down?" He said looking me in my eyes. But I can never leave him hanging like that.
I hate when he does this. HATE. But even when he does something I don't agree with. I will always have his back.
"Yes baby. I love you." I said and he kissed me twice.
"I gotta go. Imma be back. Don't call ma phone unless I call you. Wait till I get back. Here ma. Go get some food n shop. Imma be back." Dayvon said giving me a whole stack of money.
"Dayvon I don't need—"
"Just take it ma. I love you. I love you so much." He said going to the door.
"I love you." I said as he left out and I deeply sighed.
I don't think he understands just how much it affects me when he leaves to go do illegal shit. I never know exactly what he's doing until he comes back and tells me.
He could be robbing someone. Robbing a place. Killing someone. Shooting at people that shoot back. Fighting. Selling stuff. And on top of me worried he might not come back, when he does come back there is a chance he could leave right back out because he could get arrested.
I don't even get upset at him for leaving. I'm SAD. I don't want to lose Dayvon. I don't want to lose my man.
The best thing I do when he goes is just simply distract myself. So I actually will go out.
I made the bed and grabbed my phone off the nightstand and went to the bathroom. I started watching my show and started the shower.
45 MINUTES LATER, when I got out of the shower I dried off and put my robe on. I let the steam out as I was washing my face again and moisturized my face. I went to the room and started picking out my clothes while Haunted by Beyonce played in the background.
I got dressed and put this on.
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