Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 21

Taylor's POV

I had developed huge baby fever and it was getting out of hand. It's at the point where I genuinely only speak to Harper like she's a baby, she doesn't complain but I look so stupid. I was just going to head towards the stage for my show when she started crying and instinctively I just couldn't. I needed to be with her. I turned to look at her and saw her having a nosebleed which could be explained by the thud I heard before the screams. This child is so good at hitting her face in things and busting her nose.

"Aww baby girl come to mommy it's okay." I cooed as I opened my arms. She made her way over however Travis scooped her up and watched as I got dragged away by tree. As I was singing cruel summer I noticed they were standing by the stage tissues in hand and Harper was practically hyperventilating with anxiety.

"Hey guys I am going to have to pause for just five minutes. I know you all totally understand and I'm about to see thousands of videos on TikTok of what I'm about to do but sorry. I quickly ran to the edge of the stage and sat where the 22 hat person gets to sit before reaching out for Harper. Travis handed her over and a bunch of tissues so I quickly held her against me but still leaning forward and held the tissues over her node. I gently rubbed her back to try to soothe her and allow her to take a breath but she was still struggling.

I rocked us a little bit and thanked some generous fans who handed over more tissues for her. I love my fans. They always help. Another fan handed over some water for her and thankfully the bleeding stopped. I sat her up properly and opened up the bottled water for her, helping her to drink some in hopes she would start to stop crying. Eventually she did so I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and a big momma squeeze. The whole stadium erupted in screams and applause before I handed her off to Travis and made my way back onto the stage.

"Sorry about that, she wanted me.. umm where was I?" I said as I started to sing again. The show seemed to go on really quickly and before I knew it I was on karma. For some reason I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just couldn't shake it for some reason. I needed to see Harper and know she was okay.

I rushed to the back after my show where Travis met me. He was sweating and looked extremely stressed. "Taylor, she got into the crowd and I cannot find her. I don't even know how she got in there." He told me struggling to catch his breath.

I immediately broke down sobbing, this had happened before and I couldn't lose another child. I had adopted a teenager a while back and unfortunately she had ran away and never returned. We were informed she went back to a foster home however she wouldn't come back due to the spotlight. I was devastated and heartbroken. I couldn't lose Harper.

I immediately ran out into the crowd, ignoring every single fan who had tried to get a picture with me. I paused for a moment while sobbing to scan over the whole floor, looking for any sign of a lost small child. Knowing Harper too well I made my way towards the barrier, knowing she would immediately make her way towards me on stage if she got lost. I also knew that she would be backed up in a ball against some sort of wall.

Eventually we reached a crowd of about 5 teenage girls talking to her. She was in a ball shaking with anxiety and sobbing, barely unable to breathe while they told her how to breathe in and out. She wasn't listening and she was begging for me. "Hey girls sorry, I'm right here sweetie, mommas here." I told her as I made my way through and scooped her up.

She immediately clung onto me, crying louder in shock from what had happened. The amount of people that were still ont he floor probably wasn't helping  at all and she just seemed desperate for as much comfort as possible. Travis thankfully lead us out of there and we made our way back to the backstage area where I found my room and sat down on the sofa.

Laying back I brought her closer to me, allowing her to place her head on my chest and use my heartbeat as a guide. Travis knew exactly what to do and placed the weighted on her so that she could feel closer. Eventually she calmed and I kissed her on the head. "See momma stayed and helped you through it. I've got you." I whispered.

I could feel her gently playing with the tassels on my midnights outfit but I didn't even care, if it helped her take her mind off things and stay calm I was more than happy for her to do so.  She always seemed to just slip straight into baby mode during these moments. She would just stop talking and become so vulnerable and all she wanted was her momma, her bottle and her pacifier or her blankie. If I wasn't there she would do the same to Travis however I was the preference possibly due to her bad experience around men.

I slowly handed Harper over to Travis so that I could change my clothes before returning feeling a lot more comfortable. She whined a little as Travis moved her however she soon calmed when she felt that she was back against me. I gave her some time to calm down a little before sitting up and making my way out to the car.

We made a nice long journey to the hotel for the night and as we got in Harper was flat out asleep. I put her between myself and Travis not wanting to lose her again and just cuddled up beside her. She looked absolutely emotionally drained. Her anxiety was just getting worse and worse and we were running out of options too.

I peered over to Travis who smiled at me sadly. "I'm sorry I lost her I feel so guilty." He told me and I shook my head a little. Why was he blaming himself? She ran away and she is stil with us and perfectly fine. "Hey don't blame yourself it's all fine she ran away, you couldn't help it. She's perfectly fine. I am waiting for a day that I come off stage and something hasn't happened, hopefully one day" I joked.

We both cuddled as close to her as possible, ensuring she was still comfortable and asleep. I brushed my fingers through her hair a little and just smiled wide. I couldn't have asked for a more beautiful and amazing baby girl if I tried. Granted she is still 3 someone really had messed her up, she really wasn't at that age in her mind. Especially when it comes to panic attacks she always seems so much younger. I loved her for it though and I would do anything for her too.

I can't let her go she was born to be with us.

A/N

Hey guys... what do you think of this chapter.

Don't worry Taylor isn't gonna be pregnant I was joking around about her getting baby fever from harper. Harper is the baby and she doesn't want to share Tay.

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Any suggestions on new way that Taylor can calm harper down as I feel like she does the same thing every time haha.

Also I am unsure how well updates will be this week as it's Father's Day tomorrow and my birthday on Monday so I am busy quite a lot this week  however I will try to stay on top of it.