Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 11

Taylor's POV:

I couldn't stand hearing her painful whines anymore, I just needed to get her settled and comforted so I had to just do what I thought was right. I got up and quickly searched my suitcases for the bottle that I had packed in case of emergencies. I knew that I would eventually regret this but she needed comfort and who knows how much this poor baby missed out on before she came here.

I quickly took the sippy cup from her and transferred the contents over to the bottle before sitting beside her and opening my arms. She looked over hesitantly before slowly crawling across the sofa and climbing into my lap. I pulled her closer and leaned back a little, placing the bottle in her mouth and gently rubbing her back.

I let go and allowed her to take it in her own hands while I gently brushed through her hair with my hands and kept placing gentle kisses on the tip of her head. I made sure to place a heating pad on her stomach and used my free hand to keep it in place. Eventually the crying calmed down.

I looked down to see her eyes looking up at me, slowly beginning to close. I reassured her that it was okay to fall asleep and that I wouldn't go anywhere before looking back over at the tv and allowing her to fall asleep. In that money I knew I was going to have a tough few days without Travis but I knew I could handle it.

The next day she woke up cuddled into my side, we had 3 more days here before we would go home and have a couple of weeks rest. I felt awful throwing her into the deep end and having her in Paris with me after only just adopting her however it was just how my career was and we couldn't do much to help it.

Today is my first show after a long break and I was terrified. My new album the tortured poets department had been added into this set so I had so much new choreography to remember and really didn't know how the fans would react. It's always scary to perform something for the first time but it's part of the career. Harper was going to be left with my mom while I'm on stage, depending on how she is feeling she can either watch from the tent or she can stay backstage in my dressing room. Either way there was no one else to stay with her.

It took a lot longer than usual to get ready, having a toddler clinging to me while I'm trying to get into my tour outfits and makeup really wasn't ideal. She was just getting clingier and clingier making me even more nervous to leave her for the night.

It got extremely close to my time to leave and I could see the whiny and emotional side to the toddler starting to show. She was beginning to cry over everything and needed so much reassurance. I gave her a plate of pasta and knelt down in front of her. She sat on the sofa in my dressing room with her food in her lap. "Hey sweetie you gotta eat this all up for me yeah?"

She nodded a little and passed me the fork, she wanted me to feed her but I really didn't have the time. If I started to feed her now we would only be half way done before I had to leave and she hates swapping around mid meal. "How about your grandma feeding you instead? Momma has to leave soon." I explained.

My mom came over and helped the girl finish off her food while I made my way to the stage. If we didn't make much of a deal about me having to go it meant that she wouldn't start crying and clinging. Maybe having her distracted and eating dinner is a good idea to get away and do my shows.

Harpers POV

Mommy left me with her mommy, I like her mommy she's always nice and she gives good cuddles just like Tay Tay does. It's not the same though. I finished up all my pasta and Andrea seemed very proud of me for eating my first full meal in a while. I like making people proud it makes me happy.

I began to feel sleepy but I didn't want to sleep without Tay Tay, momma cuddles always help me to sleep and when she's not here I'm not safe, I need her. I started to feel upset I could faintly hear her singing and lots of screaming people but why couldn't I see her? I could smell her scent too but still I couldn't see her.

All of this started to confuse me and instead of telling Andrea how I felt I just cried. I didn't know how to explain it I just wanted Tay Tay to cuddle me and be here. My stomach was feeling uncomfortable still and I also really needed to pee. "I nee pee." I sobbed.

Andrea nodded and stood up holding out her hand to take me to the bathroom however I started screaming. Only Taylor could take me. Andrea could be mean like some of the people who used to take me to the bathroom. I continued to scream and cry louder and louder, it must have been for a while because eventually Tay Tay ran back into the room. She was all gross and wearing a different outfit.

"Taylor she needs the bathroom but won't let me take her and she's been screaming and crying for the past hour and a half I really don't know why." Andrea explained, handing me over to my mommy. She nodded a little, still trying to catch her breath and just took me to go pee. While I did that she started to put her hair into a braid using the bathroom mirror then finished it in a ponytail at the back of her head.

She then told me to wait outside the door while she went to the bathroom herself. This caused me to scream even louder, what if she took the same amount of time again and did a whole other show and said she was going to the bathroom so u wouldn't freak out. She kept kissing my forehead telling me she would be right back but I couldn't believe her.

"Harper look at me," she started. I couldn't I was too busy screaming and crying to pay attention. My eyes wandered around the room looking anywhere but at Tay Tay. I felt her hand underneath my chin turning my face to hers, leaving me no option but to look her in the eyes. "I am going to go pee and I will be right back, I will take no longer than you did okay?" She told me in a gentle tone.

I continued to scream and cry but I let her go, I had to because I had no other option. Like promised she came back, this time in a sweatshirt and shorts before picking me up and sitting down ont he sofa with me. She gently being my head to her chest and began to slowly rock us both from side to side.

"Shhh you're alright I'm here. You're very worked up but I promise you are okay. Breathe with me sweetie." She told me. I didn't think about my breathing, I focused on Taylor speaking to me and the sound of her heartbeat. Like magic my tears stopped. Her hand was slowly running through my hair, also contributing to calming me quicker.

"Momma." I whispered, tilting my head up to her. Tay tays eyes fell to meet mine and a smile spread across her face, telling me to continue what I wanted to say. "Can I have bottle again?" I asked nervously.

I know I'm a bit too old but I never had it when I was young and it helped me feel calm and relaxed. I could see Taylor sight massively before hesitantly nodding. She signaled to her mommy to bring one over before passing it to me. Feeling lazy I quickly let it slip through my hands, looking up at Taylor innocently. I wanted her to hold it for some time.

She took the hint and lay back a little, placing it in my mouth and keeping it there. Eventually I felt so tired that I let myself just fall asleep. I felt Tay Tay lean down and kiss me on the forehead, taking the bottle out of my mouth and standing up.

I must have woken up in the car ride, however I didn't want to walk anywhere. Thinking tactically I just pretended to still be completely out. Finally Tay picked me up, taking me inside and tucking me in, sadly in my own bed not hers. Oh well it's her problem when I can't sleep and wake up crying not mine.

She whispered goodnight before all of the lights were out. And so was I.

A/N
W it's been a while haha, I'm so sorry for how long it has been since the last update but may and June are my busiest months ever this year, I have so many trips and plans and competitions while also having exams too so I have had barely any time to write! I am trying my best at any given moment though!

I hope you enjoyed this little filler chapter before I do a little time skip.

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