Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 96

Taylor's POV

I woke up the next morning to see Travis upset and on the phone to his mom. I reached over to comfort him but he moved away and shot me a cold look. Once he finally got off the phone I tapped his arm to get his attention. I had a horrible hangover but he was more important.

"What's wrong Trav?" I asked him, confused.

"You sent her to the orphanage, Taylor! What do you think is wrong! You didn't even wake up to say bye to her." He sobbed. I watched as Travis got up and left the room, ripping tears away and heading straight down the stairs. I frowned thinking he was talking about a nightmare but when I got to Harper's room she wasn't there. Her blankies and beads had all gone as well as her pacifiers. Ducky had even gone.

I looked down, now feeling ashamed. I had no idea what I'd done wrong or why I even sent Harper away. I must have drank so much. I headed downstairs and reached for my lactation pill, popping one out before Travis' hand stopped me.

"One, she's not here anymore, what's the point in taking them. And two you can even breastfeed until tomorrow because you drank alcohol and alcohol and breastfeeding don't mix." Travis told me. I slowly nodded and put it away, severely taking one while he was gone before sitting down on the sofa.

"I don't even know what to tell you Taylor, you've hurt that girl too much this time. She calls you Taylor. She sobbed all night last night. You called up the adoption place and asked them to take her back. You scream at her, don't look at her, you won't feed her anymore. Tay do you even want her?" Travis asked me. His voice cracked at the last point and I felt tears forming in my eyes.

I quickly wiped them away, I don't get to cry. It's on me.

"I want a baby." I whispered. I slowly looked up at Travis who shook his head. "Not until you can treat Harper with respect." He replied.

I looked down and immediately started sobbing. She's gone now and it's all because of me. I let her go and in the one who made her go too. That's when it all clicked. Harper is the baby I wasn't. She is basically a baby and she needs me and she needs love. I've been pushing for her to act like a child not the toddler she is and I had been so harsh.

"W- where is sh-she?" I stuttered out.

Travis sighed and made a phone call before sitting on the sofa. It took about 30 minutes for tree to show up at the door holding an extremely thin, pale and upset Harper. As soon as she saw me her tiny body tensed and my heart sank. I screwed up big time.

I opened my arms for harper but she shook her head and cuddled closer to Tree. I decided to let them in so we all sat down on the sofa and Harper climbed over to Travis who held her protectively and let Her cuddle close. The glisten in her eye was gone and it's like her sparkle had been dulled. I felt absolutely awful that I had done this to her.

"Come to mama. Let me hold you, baby." I whispered. Harper's head shook and she closed her eyes, nuzzling closer to Travis and starting to fall asleep. I looked down feeling disheartened by the rejection.

I already knew that there was no one else to blame other than myself but it still hurt to know that I had done all of this. I hadn't even realized.

"Your daughter walked in on you and you decided to just scream at her. Do you not think maybe she might have been confused. Upset? Maybe thought he was hurting you? You have to think logically when you have a child with trauma, Taylor. You also need to think about the fact that this poor baby hasn't been eating or sleeping. You need to take care of her! Travis has been told and you will not be getting pregnant until you learn your lesson." Tree told me. I looked down and slowly nodded at her.

I had a whole lecture from Tree and Travis and thankfully she left harper with us. I tried to cuddle up with Travis but he didn't even try to put his arm around me, he just focused on Harper who was asleep. "Travis, how am I proving you wrong if you won't even let me hold her. Just give me my child!" I screamed. Immediately regretting it when harper started to stir.

"Taylor. I think it would be best for us all if maybe you just left." Travis told me. I looked at him, hurt evident on my face but I couldn't even fight back. I immediately broke down sobbing before running upstairs to our room and laying down sobbing.

How could he even do that. He didn't even hesitate to tell me to leave. He's not even tried stopping me!

I started by packing up my shoes in one bag. Just the essentials as I could come back for the rest. Next I got my clothes and they had to go in two suitcases. I planned to go to my moms so I would need a lot of clothes. Half way through I just couldn't take it anymore. I felt so hurt by him and I just wanted to make up. I just don't have it in me to go downstairs and talk to him.

Instead I spent an hour or so sobbing on the bathroom floor until I packed up some other essentials. I looked over at my favorite one of his hoodies on the bed folded nicely with one of his shirts next to it. He always leaves me a shirt and a hoodie for bed. Hesitantly, I packed it into my bag before sitting down on the bed.

I looked at all of the picture frames of us together, our happy moments. I slowly panned across to the one of our engagement and my heart sank. I looked down at my ring, slowly pulling it off and placing it down on his nightstand. This time it's over for sure. He wouldn't want a selfish cow like me back.

I took everything out to the car before going back inside for my coat. As I put it on I noticed Travis on the sofa crying to his mom. I turned to leave but I suddenly felt a hand grab me.

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