Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 19

Harpers POV

Mommy was on stage and had left me with Andrea. For some reason despite all of the time I had spent with her it somehow made me feel really scared and nervous. I wanted mommy back. I could hear her singing but I wanted her to be singing to me. I could hear Andrea on the phone to Travvy while I hid in a corner sobbing and panicking. She was saying something about him coming to me but I couldn't listen. I was too nervous.

I couldn't really breathe properly so in my head I tried to think of mommy telling me in and out and how to breathe but it wasn't working. Before I knew it I heard the door burst open and saw Travis running over to me. He scooped me up and brought me to the sofa where he lay me against him just like Taylor would. I could feel him gently rubbing my back.

Whatever he was saying to me was just going in one ear and out of the other. I wasn't interested, I just wanted him to stay with me until mommy got off stage. "Momma," I whimpered, wanting Travis to see what was wrong and what would help me.

"I know you want her, I know. How about we go watch her? Would that help and we can put your headphones on." He told me and I nodded a little. He just smiled and put my weighted blanket on me before putting some headphones on my head to help with the noise and cradling me like a little baby. I like it when I get treated like a baby.

He held up my pacifier and I nodded a little, reaching one hand up for it. He carefully placed it on my mouth before walking me to go watch mommy. She waved at me a few times which helped but it still wasn't the same as being cuddled by her.

By the end me and daddy were dancing together and singing along to the music. I enjoyed watching mommy sing because I got to still see her while she was working even if i couldn't be near her. I also liked spending time with Travvy too. He is quite fun.

As mommy finished we ran backstage and got to say hi to all of the backup dancers. They all love me and give me a lot of attention because I'm cute and that is always my favorite part of watching mommy. Once they have all gone mommy comes over and picks me up giving me lots of kisses and cuddles.

Finally that is all I wanted.

As we walked back to her changing room she spoke to daddy who explained everything that had happened and she soon looked at me with a sad face. "Aww did you miss your momma?" She asked me and I smiled and nodded. Wrapping my arms tightly around her neck and clinging to her extra tight. I didn't want her to go again.

"You Miss me?" I asked innocently with my big puppy eyes looking at her.

"Of course I did! I was so happy to see you and daddy dancing along." She told me and I giggled. She clearly just missed my awesomeness.

Once we got to her dressing room she placed me down on the sofa while she went to get into some different clothes which caused me to panic again. I erupted into tears and screams and cries for her. She is quite fast at changing but I was very impatient. She was taking longer than usual and I didn't like it.

Finally she came out in some fresh clothes with her hair tied back into a ponytail.

"Can mommy not change her tampon in peace?" She asked me, laughing a little as she reached out to pick me up and bounced me on her hip. I looked at her confused before shaking my head and cuddling closer to her. She smiled a little and wrapped a blanket around me before giving me a nice bottle with warm milk in it. Clearly she had made sure someone prepared it in time.

I smiled and took it gratefully before drinking it while we walked out. As we walked out of some double doors all I could hear was screaming. We often did this after each show as mommy always gave the fans a wave to say bye bye to them. Normally I would wave but because I was almost asleep it startled me a little making me tense and dropped my bottle on the floor. This only caused more tears.

Im emotional don't get annoyed at me crying.z

Mommy picked it up for me before whispering to me to just breathe and wave and that no one can get me. I believed her but I wanted my bottle and it was all dirty. Thankfully she had come prepared and handed me a pacifier until we got home. I took it and waved a little before shyly hiding my face in mommy's neck and playing with her hair a little.

Daddy opened the car door for us and we were finally in safety, happy to have mommy with me and that no fans had stolen me. I cuddled up into mommy's side and began to fall asleep while she transferred the contents of the bottle from the dirty one that went on the floor to a clean one then handed it to me. I smiled and took it before slowly falling asleep.

In the night I woke up in my bed with Meredith cuddled up to me. I wanted the other cats too so I ran to the living room where they were on the sofa. As I scooped up Olivia and Benjamin one of them hissed really loud and bit me while scratching my arms really badly. I began to scream and cry for Tay Tay while holding the kitties tighter and tighter.

Soon both Tay and Trav come running over. "Harper can you put them down for me before you kill then please?" Travis asked me while Taylor attempted to take them out of my grasp. I could hear them hissing and whining but I was scared and frozen.

Out of nowhere I felt myself throw them really far across the room which made Tay Tay very mad. "You don't throw the cats understood?" She yelled as she took me over to the naughty step. I looked down and cried but nodded and sat down where I was told to. I thought Tay Tay was going to help calm me down but instead she didn't she just left me there for a few minutes. Apparently it is so that I could think about my actions but I didn't see the cats on a naughty step for their actions.

Once she had checked on the cats she checked my scratches which surprisingly hadn't drawn blood before asking me why I was on the naughty step. That's a stupid question she's the one who put me there.

"Sorry I throw cats and hold them too tight." I told her and she nodded before taking me up to my room. She tucked me into bed and put my weighted blanket over me. "You are completely forgiven sweetie, don't let me see you do that again."

I only wanted the cats but now I didn't want Meredith either. I don't like cats anymore, they're a bit scary. Taylor must have noticed my unease as she picked Meredith up and took her out of my room when she left too. Her and Travis went right back to bed and to sleep, leaving that hallway light on for me.

I was feeling scared all alone. I really wanted to go and get In their bed with them but I felt hated. Taylor never put me on the naughty step before so she must really hate me. It made me feel very bad because I know that she didn't actually forgive me. She just said it to be nice.

I started to whimper a little, just the thought of Tay and Trav hating me made me sad. I needed them and I don't think Tay likes me anymore. While still whimpering I grabbed my comfort items and my pillow and covers before putting them down on the floor by their door. I could hear Travis snoring which wasn't too nice.

Being brave I decided to move along and put my things by mommy's side of the bed instead. Hearing her breathe in and out was reminding me how to do it while I was upset so I curled into a ball on the floor, pacifier in mouth and teddy bear trapped in my arms and closed my eyes. Before I knew it I was fast asleep. Just not where I ideally wanted to be.

A/N

How is everyone!!!!

I'm going to the eras tour literally tomorrow! Well today because it's currently like 2 am but still tomorrow because I'm gonna sleep before then!

Anyway what did you think of this part. It's all harpers POV so that people can start to understand certain things that have been setting off her emotions and how confused it makes her.

I also added in the moments with Travis that were wanted and I felt like that cats had been forgotten a bit in this fanfic so I added them in too.

Feel free to leave lots of comments I enjoy reading them.

Any ideas or requests that I could use leave them here, I try to include them all in the next chapter that I write!