Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 17

Taylor's pov

I gently scooped up Harper and held her close in my arms. When we went down to the field it usually meant that there were people and cameras everywhere and she hated crowds so I carefully situated her against my front with the hood of my jacket covering her face and whole body so that when she woke up it wouldn't be the first thing she saw. I heard her whine a little so I slipped a pacifier into her mouth and gave her her little stuffed animal before going down to the field.

As we waited for Travis I felt something fall near my feet and noticed the little bear was now on the floor. This caused her to bolt up, screaming which also caused the jacket and pacifier to go onto the floor too. I took a deep breath before kneeling down in the busy crowd to pick them all up. I could hear her starting to cry worse and beginning to panic so I just rubbed her back a little and bounced her.

I passed over the teddy bear to her and gently kissed her cheek before looking at the other two items. "Harper, do you want mommy's jacket to cover your face so you can sleep?" I asked her and she just cried and shook her head. She claimed that it was too hot with it on.

She was begging and crying for her pacifier but I just didn't want her to put it in her mouth after it was on the floor. People had began to stare and harper was growing impatient and more worked up so I just did what I could. I saw my friends who were also parents always just put the pacifier in their mouth and use their mouth to clean it so that's what I did.

I quickly popped it in my mouth, cleaned it as best as I could before putting it in hers. Of course we didn't have the same germs but she was my kid and part of life is sharing with your kid so sometimes germs become the least of your worries I guess.

I watched as cameras were all pointed towards us and just knew how freaked out Harper must have been feeling. Just when I needed him Travis came over wrapping us both up in his arms and keeping us close by. He helped me get a slightly better hold of Harper before leading us away from the crowd to calm her cries a little more.

Travis went back to get changed and hang out with his team for a while so I just took Harper back upstairs to our more quiet section. People were still staring at us from their seats however having a window to divide us made Harper feel safer. I sat down with her in my lap and just handed her a bottle from my handbag. It was becoming a comfort item that she could rely on whenever she needed it and if she was so stressed I was more than willing to let her have it.

I offered to hold it for her but she wanted to start out on her own and me hold it if she gets sleepy. While no one was in the room with us I slowly rocked her a little and hummed to her. "Don't cry sweetie, we're gonna see daddy soon and if you want we can fo straight home and get in bed and cuddle. I think you need some sour though because you've not eaten much today with your teeth." I told her.

She just nodded and placed the bottle in my hands, resting her head against my chest and gently playing with the zipper on my jacket. In these moments she really did remind me of a curious little sleepy baby. I really wished that I had her as a baby and could have given her the most amazing life.

I knew she wasn't going to fully fall asleep while here anymore as the smell of alcohol had increased and it was the one thing that made her uncomfortable. Feeling as though there was no other way to help I just made my way to the car, hoping that Travis would one out of the changing rooms as we passed.

Just as we passed he came out and I smiled a little handing her over to Travis as I put on my jacket and put her bottle into my handbag as well as my phone.

Harpers POV

I was just pretending to be asleep, I couldn't fall asleep because I was scared. Scared of a lot of things. The smell and the loud cries were making me feel overwhelmed so by closing my eyes Taylor had to take me away from it all so that the area would be quiet. Sadly that did mean that my bottle got taken out of my mouth and I got handed over to daddy instead.

I whined a little wanting Taylor's comforting scent back however it didn't work, daddy just rubbed my back a little. Eventually car doors could be heard and I knew that we were setting off home. I wanted Taylor again. I felt clingy and like I needed her.

I never know why I feel this way when I do but I just sometimes really need Taylor more than she knows and it is difficult. I'm quite bad at showing that I need her so normally she gets frustrated at me because I cry so much. This time i tried a new method. "Momma?" I whispered.

I could hear her turn around in her seat before her voice was facing my direction. "Shh it's night night time honey, mommy is here.we're nearly home so just go back to sleep." She whispered. I felt her hand gently placed on my knee but it wasn't enough.

"Mama." I tried again. She continued to face my way. "Shhh I'm here, go back to sleep. It's late for you to go back to sleep. I'll cuddle you when we're home." I'll take that as a promise.

I whined the whole way home, I was getting tired and it was making me frustrated the longer I had to wait. My teeth were also hurting and my lip was so swollen from my fall the previous day. Finally the door opened and I was picked up. Not by mommy but by Travis.

Because of this one small mistake that they made I began crying and opened my eyes to look for Taylor. Thankfully once she had opened the door she took me into her own arms and cuddled me closer to her. It's different when Taylor cuddles me, Travis just isn't the same he's funny and better when I'm awake but when I'm sleepy and sad Taylor is better.

I noticed both Taylor and Travis smelled like alcohol too but I remembered how Taylor is nice when she drinks that drink. It is just something I have been trying to work on remembering.

Finally I found myself cuddled on the sofa up to Taylor and starting to fall asleep. Every time her hand ran through my hair it made me closer and closer to sleep until I was out. I had enjoyed watching Travvy at work and couldn't wait to go more often, especially with his friends and family, they are so fun. I just didn't want to go near any more crowds. I was becoming quite sensitive to noise and it just wasn't the type of thing that I wanted to be around. Hopefully Travvy and Tay Tay will understand if I don't want to go.

A/N

HIIII what did you guys think!!!!?

Feel free to comment and do not feel shy to comment I love reading them! Some of them are so sweet and others you really do entertain me and make my day so please do leave comments!

I am trying to have all my Taylor fanfics updated on the exact same day every time so if you read all 3 then apologies you will have a lot of reading to do tonight 😂

Im thinking of dance for harper...

Also do you think that Travis and Taylor should try putting her into therapy or not because of her panicking and anxiety at such a young age?

Also on my Instagram account I will be live streaming the surprise songs at my eras tour show (as long as I remember to and have enough charge and signal) as a few of my friends on there have asked me to so if you would like to watch then just give me a follow. My account is the same as this one.