Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 90

Taylor's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night to harper sobbing at the side of my bed. I could hear little thuds as she tried to climb onto the bed but couldn't quite make it up. I slowly moved out of Travis' arms and helped her up, trying to lay her down but she immediately let out a high pitched scream. At the same time Ducky was barking to alert me that harper was upset.

"It's okay ducky, I know. I've got her." I tapped ducky on the head then turned my focus to harper. "Hi my little princess. What's wrong baby? Tell mommy what's upset you." I told her. It's so hard to encourage her to share her feelings sometimes.

She shook her head and threw her entire body at me. I felt her cling to me and continue to sob. I gently played with her hair and gave her some time to cry before pulling her away. "Come on, let's go downstairs and try to calm down, we don't want to wake daddy up do we?" I asked her.

She nodded and allowed me to carry her downstairs. On the way back I stopped off at her room and grabbed her blankie and Billy bear then sat her down on the counter. "Okay. Let's get you some milk." I told her and she nodded.

I grabbed the cows milk then some of my pumped milk that I saved and headed over to her. "Okay, you can have moo moo milk like usual and I will warm it up. You could have some Snuggie milk that I pumped and I'll get that in a bottle for you or you can have Snuggie milk from me instead of a bottle. Which one would you prefer? It's completely up to you." I told her.

I don't want her to feel like she had to have it from me so it's easier to give her the options and let her know she can always choose not to. I wouldn't be offended even though this whole process means no alcohol when my friends come over.

She looked down at the pumped milk then back at me. "No wan moo moo milk." She mumbled. I nodded and put it back then she continued to sniffle. She tried to wipe away her snot with her hand but I quickly handed her a tissue and wiped away her little tears. She shrugged at the last two options so I got some in a bottle sorted for her then carried her up.

"You can try it from me baby. You've been wanting to for so long." I whispered, laying back down in bed and placing her against my front. I made sure to keep myself propped up a bit too in case she did want to. She slowly nodded and placed one of her hands on my chest.

I gave her a smile and took off my top for her then let her get comfortable and in the right place. "What do I do? I scawed." She told me. She's too cute. Her little eyes were so curious and confused. I helped her out and tried my best to explain is the most harper friendly way.

"Just like a bottle baby. You can do it." I told her. Eventually she did. I don't know what I expected but I did not expect it to be so uncomfortable. Travis sat up and looked over with a huge smile.

"Ow." I whispered, noticing it starting to hurt a tiny bit. Travis seemed concerned but I felt awful when Harper jumped back and looked at me in fear. She thought she had hurt me and I felt awful for making her feel that way.

I tried to gently guide her back but she started to panic and cry again. She started apologizing over and over again while I tried to comfort her but she couldn't stop. I noticed her reaching for the bottle and my heart dropped.

"Harper, look at me. No, please Look at mommy. I'm okay, you didn't hurt me. Daddy bumped his head on my shoulder. I promise you didn't hurt me." I explained. It was a total lie but I didn't want her to feel uneasy. She nodded hesitantly and slowly got herself back to how she was.

After a few minutes I looked down and noticed her gazing at me and gently playing with my necklace and my heart instantly melted. I must say she was messy and got milk all around her mouth but it was the cutest sight ever. I always wanted my own baby and it felt like I had one. I felt like she was mine and for a moment I forgot she had the most awful family before this.

Any child deserves moments like this that mean everything to them and their mothers bond. Knowing that she lacked this for so long and finding out how hurt she felt seeing any baby have this while knowing she didn't is horrible. She even knows what she missed out on and I can tell that it ruins her daily.

I'm starting to hope that I covered all bases now. She should by now have had everything she didn't have ad a baby and the perks to breastfeeding her is that she actually will grow because of it so it's benefiting her too.

Travis and I talked for a while and elated for her to be done but when the room fell silent I couldn't help but pick up on the little sounds she made. It genuinely sounded like I had a little baby in my arms and she even looked so much more like my little baby than a toddler when I saw her in my arms.

It felt so weird but so right at the same time. She was definitely sent to us for a reason.

"I'm going to guess that you like it huh?" I asked with a chuckle. I saw her crack a very small smile and watched as a small bit of milk ran out of her mouth. I gently wiped it away and rubbed her cheek, trying to get her to relax a little bit more and hopefully fall asleep.

"Don't wait for me to tell you to stop, whenever you feel full you can just move away and have some cuddles. If you want to carry on you can." I told her. She nodded a tiny bit and just continued, eventually she fell asleep still attached to me. I gently moved her away and put her hood up on her onesie.

I grabbed a tissue and wiped around her mouth before kissing her cheek and laying her down in the middle. "You're okay with her staying here right?" I asked Travis.

"Of course I am. Also, it was so sweet to watch. I didn't want to ruin the moment and say that and make it awkward but you both waited for so long to do that and I think it's clear that you both needed that." He replied to me. I smiled and leant I've her to give him a quick kiss. He returned it and we both lay down.

I felt Ducky jump up and lay her head down on Harper, however as I went to shoo her off I remembered that she's here for a reason and she's here to help us not hinder us. Instead I left her to it and gently brushed some hair out of Harpers face until I finally also managed to fall asleep.

A/N
Since you guys and Taylor and harper have been so patient for Taylor to feed harper here it is!

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