Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 20

Taylor's POV

It was about 3:13 when I woke up needing to go pee in the night. This didn't usually happen, normally I would wake up to go get some water however I sat up, allowing myself to wake up slightly. As I stepped on the floor beside my bed I felt it squish beneath me before hearing little whines. I practically leaped over whatever it was and had to contain my screams in order to not wake Travis up. I almost had a heart attack. As my head slowly panned down I saw Harper laying on the floor asleep.

Her whines started to turn into cries from the sudden awakening that she had experienced and the fact that she had been stood on by a 34 year old woman. However her eyes never opened, signalling that she was still pretty much asleep. "Shhh go back to sleep." I whispered as I knelt down by her and brushed through her hair with my hand, carefully placing her pacifier in her mouth to settle her back down. Just like a little baby she calmed and curled up tighter into a ball.

I sighed in relief with the close call before making my way into my en-suite. She hadn't properly woken up so that helped me in settling her easily but I was shocked that I hadn't fully woken her up. As I went back to my bed I scooped her up and placed her in the middle of Travis and I where she cuddled up toward Travis. I watched for a moment before getting in bed, back to her and falling asleep.

It wasn't that I didn't want to face her but it was more of a fact that she wriggles a lot at night and I would rather be kicked in the butt or the back than in the stomach. It's never nice to be kicked at the amazing time of 5am right in The stomach. She also was very bad at deciding who she wanted to
Cuddle with so every time she moves away from me it makes me think she's been taken by someone and I always hate it. I shouldn't panic over the idea however I can never settle the anxiety that I get at night regarding harper.

The next morning I woke up and I saw Travis and Harper still fast asleep by me. They were so cute! I could feel so much discomfort underneath me. Possibly because I had rolled onto my back in the night and now had a pacifier, a stuffed bear and a child's hand trapped underneath me. Harpers little face was tucked right into my side and her other little hand was clutching onto the neckline of my shirt, pulling it closer to her.

I don't know how I feel about how much was on show to her but I couldn't really help it and she was fast asleep. I didn't want to wake her so I just carefully lifted her up a little, keeping her head supported and untrapped her hand before paying her closer to me with her head resting on my chest. This allowed for the shirt to be put in a more normal place.

I hoped that today would be a lot calmer and she would hopefully be okay at the tour if she stayed with Travis however It was quite the opposite. As we were about to walk out of the door a whole meltdown started because she didn't want to leave the house. She wanted to stay at home on her own because going outside is too scary for her.

Unfortunately we were on an extremely limited amount of time so the calming down had to be highly rushed. My cramps were really bothering me and her meltdown was just causing me to stress. I needed her to come because no one could watch her at my house. "Harper we have to go, come on stay with me I'll keep you safe." I told her.

She highly disagreed and just shook her head. I noticed her beginning to shake with fear of leaving our house and that's when I realized the extent of her anxiety. I dropped my things and made my way over to her. "Come on mommy will keep you safe don't worry. Just don't look and we will soon be in the car and what if I let you watch Frozen on my phone?" I told her.

She just sobbed as she reached for me, wrapping her arms around my neck and letting her emotions out. I picked her up and she tensed so much, beginning to shake even worse. I gently rubbed her back and bounced us both a little. "Shhh you're okay, let's just go get in the car." I told her.

"Momma noo!" She whined but it was too late we were already making our way to the car. As we got in she tried to desperately sit with me in the front however I couldn't risk her getting hurt if anything happened. Putting Disney+ on my phone I handed it back to her and allowed her to watch frozen while we drove to the venue.

Just as we pulled in another meltdown started because she knew what it meant. It meant a good few hours not being around me. Thankfully I had thought ahead this time and as we went in I got all my hair and makeup done before getting into my outfit and heading to my changing room to relax. As we got in there was a much cozier sofa set up for her with tons of blankets and pillows.

Thinking tactically I lay her down and tucked her in with some blankets then handed her my now fully charged phone. "While I'm on stage do you think you can take care of my phone for me. I will leave it on Disney so you can watch whatever you want to but there is a parent lock so daddy will have to put in a passcode to make sure it's okay for your age." I told her.

She smiled and nodded excitedly. If there is anything he learnt about her it's that she LOVES to be given something to do that makes her feel important. Little jobs like this make her feel included and like she actually has a purpose and something to do.

Just before I left I gave her a kiss to the forehead before going on stage.

I had clearly thought tactically as when I got off stage she was passed out asleep in the sofa, curled up beneath a bunch of blankets with tangled playing on my phone which I could hear but not see. After I had gotten changed I scooped her up and found my phone again before handing her off to Travis. I collected the last few things that I needed to and had a quick drink before we got in the car.

On the way back I turned to look at her all tucked up looking absolutely adorable then turned to Travis with a pout. He knew what I was going to say. "I want a baby Travvy, she's so cute." I cooed.

Travis laughed a little before reaching over and placing a hand on my thigh. He knew the fears I had of pregnancy and how anxious I got of the thought of having a baby and something happening in the night. It was a fear that had haunted me for years on end. I couldn't seem to shake it any Time I thought about having a baby.

Once we got in we both put harper to bed before going to the living room and sitting down with a glass of wine. Travis put an arm around me and turned to look at me. "Harper is just like a baby so how about we wait? I know you want the full experience but I don't think she would enjoy being a big sister."

He was right. Harper needed us the most and she had to be our focus, especially with how and her anxiety had been and how stressed she had been recently. We had to be there for her and she needed our undivided attention, not just part of us.

A/N

I may or may not have just got home from seeing Taylor live for the second time in a row! I think I won surprise song wise with today and yesterday ngl! Also I am pretty sure that queen Taylor waved at me...

Anyway!!!

I think my other two fanfics will be updated tonight toooooooo or at least one other one!

What do you think.

Does harper need a sibling?

Taylor is getting baby fever because of harper.

Any requests for this story let me know hereeee it helps me decide the next chapter.