Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 26

Taylor's pov

I couldn't hear anything, not a single breath was coming from her nose or mouth. I pressed slightly harder on her wrist searching for any sign of a pulse but there was nothing. My heart sank to the pit of my stomach and I felt sick from fear of properly losing her.

Just as I positioned myself ready to do cpr I heard her small body take in a huge breath and the door burst open with a bunch of medics. They asked me to step back but I couldn't. I needed to be there. I continued to fight my way to her side and eventually when we got into the ambulance they let me sit beside her.

Her pulse was there but it was so slow that I was overly concerned. Travis and my mom decided to follow the ambulance to the hospital so that we have a way to get home afterwards so it was just me and harper. "Hey sweetie I know you probably can't hear me but I am so sorry that I have failed you." I whispered, grabbing her hand and kissing her on the cheek.

Her eyes opened at that very moment and met mine, I could tell that she wasn't fully with me despite being awake. I placed my hand at the top of her head and kept a tight grip on her hand. The sigh that left me must have been loud because even the doctor chuckled at me. "It's always a relief when they open their eyes." She told me, walking over to check up on harper.

It didn't take us too long to get transferred from the ambulance to a room in the hospital where the doctors checked on harper. Thankfully she was all clear however her entire body was still freezing, Travis and I were given a few pointers on how to help her at home and how to ensure she gets better.

Unfortunately CPS had to pull us aside due to her exposure to alcohol at such a young age. We understood however it was terrifying, the last thing I wanted was for her to be taken from me. "This is a major issue, however I understand that this is a huge mistake that was not intentional at all. I am still going to have to mark this down and there will be a close watch on you from now on too. Any more mistakes and she will be taken into another home."

I looked down feeling absolutely awful, not only had we been awful to her all day but then we nearly killed her! We really had been failing at parenting so far. I looked over at Travis who also seemed disappointed in himself too. My eyes wandered over to the glass window where I could see Harper laying in the bed crying while my mom tried to comfort her. She needed me not my mom. "Hey can I just take a second she needs me, she doesn't look okay?" I asked.

The social worker nodded, allowing me past and watching as I ran into the room and to Harper's side. She immediately reached over for me so I quickly scooped her up and hugged her close to me. We had been informed that the alcohol had made her hypothermic so she needed to stay warm but she seemed to be the opposite. Her little body was shivering in my arms and she nuzzled her head closer to me just trying to get warm.

Travis helped me to put a bunch of blankets on her then we both went out to the social worker again, Harper still clinging to me with her face hidden in my neck. The social worker said that they have to speak to me without her around and that I had to put her down but the second I tried she burst into sobs.

"I'm sorry I can't." I whispered as I walked away , grabbing all my things and heading to the car. Travis had a long chat with them thankfully and they said that they believe that it was a total accident. I'd never hurt my baby intentionally.

Harper was an absolute mess in the car, we hadn't even thought to bring any of her comfort things and she was just completely breaking down right in front of me. No matter what I said or did she just couldn't stop and she wouldn't tell me what was upsetting her either. "Honey do you not feel well is that what it is?" I asked her.

I was laying back a little in the back of the car and had Harper on top of me with her head laying on my chest. I felt her head nod a little. Bless her little heart. "Do you feel hot?" I asked.

She nodded again.

I took the blankets off her and instead put her in a jacket that we always kept in the car. She whined a little when I pulled her away from me to zip it up but was happy once she was cuddled back up to me. Thankfully she crashed after that, probably because of the alcohol, I felt myself drifting off when Travis and my mom hopped in the car.

Once we got back to my moms house I went straight up to the guest room where myself and Travis were staying and tucked Harper in. We decided that she should rest for a while and we would get her at dinner time to get her to try some food.

We managed to convince her to get up and try some food even if she didn't feel well and my mom had made an amazing spaghetti dish so we gave her a tiny little portion and some water in a little sippy cup. Travis had stayed with her while she napped and I helped cook the food with my mom.

Thankfully harper didn't have enough energy to argue with us and she actually tried the food, managing to eat her whole portion despite a few complaints. She had picked out and wined about the mushrooms and onions however she ate all the other chopped up vegetables that we had put in there.

Travis and I mentally high fived each other before both expressing how proud we were that she ate something proper. The events of the day really had pushed us to try harder and be better parents. No matter what it takes we're going to be on the right track and we will fix everything that we can for this girl.

A/N
Sorry that this part is quite short and rushed. I've lost a lot of confidence in my writing and specifically in this book. I'm trying my best but some things have made it hard for me to continue this book.

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