Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 88

Harper's POV

Mommy and daddy forced me to wear a stupid spider outfit and it's horrible! It's not comfy, it's so scratchy and no one likes spiders. I have a bunch of fake legs hanging off me and I hate it. I wanted to be in a nice onesie for their stupid Halloween party but no. I'm stuck in this.

It's bad enough that I have to see everyone who comes over and talk to them. There's even going to be stupid babies here because so many of mommy's friends have babies now. I hope they don't influence her and make her have a baby too because that would be terrible.

It's not even Halloween today! It's Halloween tomorrow so I don't understand why we have to have a stupid party anyway. I hid in my room while everyone came but it didn't last too long unfortunately. Mommy came in and I heard her before I saw her. Her heels are so loud on the wooden floors. "Hey baby, come get some dinner." She told me, holding her hand out to me.

I very hesitantly took it and followed her down the stairs, taking each step with caution and care. I didn't want any more injuries. I presumed that dinner would be a cooked meal but instead it was a big assortment of food across two whole tables and the crowd of people downstairs was massive.

I heard so many people saying my name and talking to me but I blanked them out and covered my ears, stepping away from mommy. My eyes immediately filled with tears and I noticed mommy crouch down in front of me. She gently rubbed my arms with her hands and held me in place. "Look at mommy. You're okay. Deep breath. That's it, okay do you want me to hold you?" She asked me.

I nodded and let my bottom lip poke out. She kissed my cheek then picked me up and held me on her hip, heading over to the table and getting a paper plate for me. She pointed at each food and I shook my head, ready for some nuggies.

I was in absolute shock when we made it to the chicken nuggie section and it was empty! The other greedy kids ate them all and left me none. I couldn't even hold back my emotion at that point and I immediately started sobbing and trying to get away from mommy. People went silent and started to stare so she headed straight outside and sat us down on the porch swing that we have at the back.

She swung us back and forth for a while, holding me close and having me rest against her front but eventually she tried to speak. "What's wrong, sweet girl? Tell mommy and I can help." I didn't want to talk. I just wanted to cuddle and be held. Instead of answering I rubbed my eyes and turned into her more.

"Well I think that you're hungry, you're tired and you're clingy. How about we get you some food and then you can cuddle with me and get some sleep?" She suggested. Suddenly anger rose within me and I immediately hit her and shook my head. "I can't because stupid fat greedy kids ate all my nuggies!" I screamed, grabbing a play pot and throwing it at mommy.

She looked at me with wide eyes and I immediately panicked, realizing the actions I had taken. I immediately started sobbing again and tried to apologize. "It's fine. Just go to your room Harper. I don't know what's caused this but you either tell me now or you're in your room for the rest of the night." She told me.

Mommy looked really mad so I immediately started to run inside. "Wait, come back honey, talk to mommy!" She yelled but I went straight up to my room and cried for hours. I continued to cry and eventually mommy came in with a plate of nuggies and a bottle for me. I looked up at her with tears in my eyes. She was in a new dress and she gave me a soft smile.

"You're not yourself today are you, Bug?" She said quietly. I looked down at my nuggets and shrugged. I wanted to tell her everything that was irritating me but I just couldn't. Instead I let a small tear drop onto one of my nuggies and listened as she walked away.

Suddenly I felt the need to be with her, I needed comfort and I felt lost and scared and alone. I took it upon myself to grab my blankie and Billie and my ducky onesie and tried to carry everything as well as my nuggies and bottle down the stairs. As I got to the last few steps the plate fell out of my hand and a whole fresh pool of tears filled my eyes.

"Mama." I sobbed hoping she would find me. Everyone turned to look and I could hear someone yelling for her to come and eventually mommy came over through the crowd and opened her arms for me. By that point I was way too worked up and just stayed frozen on the spot. I could barely get a breath.

Instead of talking to me mommy picked me up and I watched as daddy sweeped up the mess on the floor. She must have noticed the items in my hand because she immediately put me into my onesie and handed Billy and blankie to me before sitting down with me in her lap and trying to hold the bottle to my mouth. I shook my head and turned away, still upset.

She lay my head down by her Snuggies and held it in place, gently rocking us both. "Shh you're okay, deep breaths baby. Follow my breathing." She told me. I copied her and eventually I was okay, just very sleepy and hungry. Daddy came over with some fresh nuggies for me and sat by mommy, putting an arm around her.

I say myself up so that I had one leg at each side of mommy and I could only see her and I propped the bowl of nuggies in the middle of us. Once I ate I cuddled into mommy and started to close my eyes. I was watching one of the babies being happily fed by its mommy and that just angered me. Why can't I have that? Mommy said she would once and never went back to the conversation. It's probably a lie.

"I want to." I whined, pointing to the baby then turning to Taylor and glancing down at her snuggles.

"Soon baby, soon. It's not ready yet. I promise you I am trying." She told me. That caused me to become even more upset so I just huffed and cried into her. She smiled and gently rubbed my back, holding me close and singing quietly to me. I wanted Snuggies.

I didn't want to say anything but I also needed to have my pull up changed. I didn't want all of the people here knowing I still pee my pants so instead I made up an excuse. I gently tapped mommy. "Mama, Walkies." I whispered. I pointed to the bathroom and she nodded, taking my hand and taking me there. She made me try to pee there while she found a pull up but I hate the toilet, I'm scared of falling into it.

Thankfully once she found a pull up she held me up until I was done then changed me and got me back into my onesie. I looked at her for a moment and her face softened. "Talk to me honey, I can't help it you don't." She whispered.

"Snuggies." I mumbled, looking down and kicking my feet anxiously. She nodded and headed upstairs before coming back into the bathroom this time with a blanket and she picked me up, taking me to the living room so she could socialize.

She covered me with a blanket. then too her arms out of the straps of her dress and made sure she was fully covered before rolling it down more so that I could have some skin contact. "Are you sure you don't want a bottle?" She asked me. I nodded and put my hand on her chest but she shook her head.

"Honey if I could I would and you know that, you've got a couple of weeks left until you can and then I promise as soon as the milk comes in I will let you know. For now you should have your bottle though because you love your bedtime bottle." She told me. I am very disappointed that I have to wait for so long but it's not mommy's fault. It just makes me sad that babies get it whenever and I have to wait.

The party got louder as the night went on and I felt so clingy and didn't want mommy to leave me. Part of me wanted to cuddle but the other part of me wanted quiet. She must have noticed I wasn't doing too great because she immediately took me upstairs and settled me down in her bed. Eventually I managed to sleep but parties definitely are not for me.

A/N

It's not the best but I have no motivation and I had to post something lol.

Also I didn't proof read

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