Our Small Miracle - Adopted by Taylor Swift

Part 86

Harper's POV

It's been a few weeks since we got ducky and I have been sleeping on my own in my big girl room every night. Mommy and daddy have been so proud of me and I love when I go into their room in the morning and they are excited that I slept alone. I'm not alone, ducky stays with me.

Mommy and daddy are leaving to go to daddy's away game and when they told me I immediately started crying. I wanted to stay in their room and they were begging me to stay alone in my room but I just wanted time with mommy and daddy before they left. I was not letting them put me to bed at all. "Please just one night! Pwease mama Pwease! I want snuggie time before you go!" I sobbed.

They will probably Only be gone for a few days but that's a long time with no mommy or no cuddles. I'm staying alone with Ellie which I'm very scared about. Last time I stayed alone with her it was terrifying but mommy and daddy claim that she needs to be trusted and she deserves a second chance to try taking care of me. At least I have Ducky to help.

I started screaming and sobbing when mommy lay me down. She tried to sit by me and talk to me while I calmed down but it didn't help. I had a wave of anxiety wash over me just thinking about not being with them, knowing they won't be with me. I don't leave mommy's side in the day, I need her here and I need some last minute cuddles before she goes. "shh lie down baby, come on now, you will be okay. See ducky is laying on you, does that make you feel safer? Yeah? It does?" She asked me.

I slowly nodded and cried more but I eventually realized that I will need to tell her verbally how I feel. "I- I not scared to sleep alone. I want you! You not here for weeks. Want Snuggie time." I sobbed, robbing my eyes with my fists both out of exhaust and to wipe away my tears.

I felt her lay me down but I immediately screamed and protested causing Ducky to try cuddling closer. He was trying to comfort me and so was mommy at the same time. I just needed cuddles. everything began to get too much, so much was happening at once and out of nowhere I started coughing and gagging. I needed just mommy or just Ducky. Both was too much. "Okay, okay. Come here, baby. You're okay. Let's just calm down." She whispered into my ear after picking me up and holding me closer to her body.

Due to how worked up I was I just couldn't, I felt trapped and everything felt like too much. I started pulling at my onesie now feeling suffocated by it. Mommy rubbed my back but it wasn't helping. I needed air and no more onesie. I just wanted to feel calm again. 

Thankfully mommy took off my onesie and opened up one of the windows in the bay window for me. She held me in her lap while I cooled down but even then I couldn't get to sleep. I just wanted to have mommy stay close with me and not leave. If I sleep she'll leave me.

She walked around the whole upstairs of the house before heading back to my room. By then I had fully calmed down but I didn't want to go in my room. I wanted mommy and daddy's room. "Nooooo." I whined, cuddling closer into mommy and gripping tightly onto her shirt and hair.

She grabbed my things then headed straight to her room. Ducky isn't allowed in there but he's supposed to come with me. "Come on ducky!" She called from down the hallway, letting ducky into her room before getting in bed and putting me in the middle. I cuddled right up to mommy and fell asleep almost immediately.

My sleep didn't last long because I started to feel a nightmare happening. Before I knew it I was tossing and turning and begging for help. Mommy was immediately sat by me trying to help me through it while daddy got a fresh pull up for me. "Shh you're okay, we're here. Daddy will be back soon baby, it's okay. We've got you. AH! OFF! GET OFF!" Mommy screamed, seeing the dog jumping up onto the bed. She immediately jumped up and ran backwards causing me to laugh through the tears.

Daddy began to laugh and quickly helped the dog off the bed Before bringing me into his lap and holding me close to him. I managed to stop crying but continued to sniffle so I handed her a tissue and helped me blow my nose. He then continued to hold me and reassure me that everything would be okay and it was just a dream. Once that was done mommy put me in a pull up that wasn't wet then reached over for a pacifier.

I'm so stubborn so I immediately protested and tried to push it out of my mouth but since daddy was holding me he held it down. He also turned me so that I could see mommy while I calmed. I reached out for her hand and wrapped mine around one of her fingers. Soon enough I felt myself falling asleep against daddy so he laid me down in the middle and watched as I immediately snuggled close to mommy, not letting go of her hand in hopes to find any possible comfort.

The next morning they left and it was extremely eventful. I cried a lot, Ellie got a big lecture on how to handle me and mommy panicked quite a lot on the way out. Ellie said she had some fun activities planned but before we did anything we got into our pajamas again. She wanted a pajama day.

"Okay first I want you to bring down all of your pillows and blankets. We're going to make a fort by the TV so that we can watch movies there!" She told me. She is definitely trying to redeem herself after last time but that doesn't make me any more hesitant, I immediately ran upstairs and grabbed everything she told me to. She also did the same.

I think we spent about an hour building a massive fort in the living room. Ellie said we could even sleep in it at night if we wanted to, so I couldn't wait to do that.

Once our fort was made I was ready to sit down but Ellie insisted that we needed cookies to join us. I nodded and ran to the kitchen, grabbing my stool to stand on while Ellie got all of our ingredients. I must admit that I made a lot of mess when I was adding flour into the bowl but that's just part of the fun! It's not like mommy is around to yell.

We spent the rest of the day eating cookies in our fort and watching tv. Normally I have a limit on how much I'm allowed to watch each day. As long as I keep it secret none will know. I'm sure Ellie won't snitch on me.

A/N

Sorry it's been a while guys I've been settling in at uni and I don't just sit in my room all day anymore I sit with my friends who I share accommodation with. I've been trying to write at night when I have time.

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