Seventh Sense (Erityian Tribes, #2) | Published under Pop Fiction

Chapter 47

"I know that but can I be selfish just this one time?"

The moment he kissed me, everything that weighs me down, everything that confuses me, dissolved at the back of my mind. I went through different emotions but what I felt the most was the desire to be with him. Like him, I want to be selfish for once. Just this time, I don't want to be concerned by everything. I want my own happiness.

He looked at me and this is the first time I saw him with such emotional expression.

"Why are you crying?" tanong niya habang pinupunasan ang luha ko. Kahit na sinabi kong pigilan niya ang nararamdaman niya, kahit na sinabi kong hindi pwede 'to, mas nangibabaw ang gusto ko and I hate myself for being swayed easily.

"Because I'm choosing you over everything." Lalo akong naiyak dahil kahit na alam ko sa isip ko na pagsisisihan ko 'to, gusto ko pa ring sabihin sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko. Nakatulala lang siya sa akin na para bang nagulat sa sinabi ko. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang sarili ko. Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na hindi 'to pwede, na magiging malaking gulo 'to, pero ngayong nandito siya sa harapan ko, hindi na ako makapag-isip nang matino. I just want him to stay by my side.

Nagulat ako nung bigla niya akong niyakap nang sobrang higpit. Pero mas nagulat ako nung may naramdaman akong mainit sa pisngi ko.

He's crying. At ayaw niyang makita ko 'yun.

I hugged him back, and this time I asked him his own question.

"Why are you crying?"

"Because you chose me," he whispered.

Napangiti ako. I wish I could have Naomi's sixth sense right now. I want to stop the time just this time. Just this moment with him, because I know that this is our only time to be together.

Napahigpit ang yakap ko sa kanya dahil naisip kong pagkatapos nito, aalis na siya at maiiwan ulit ako ritong mag-isa. I always thought that I am meant to be alone, but the truth is, I'm scared of being alone.

"Do you hate me?" bigla kong tanong dahil sumagi sa isip ko ang ginawa kong pagtataksil sa kanila, though that was my mission. I betrayed him yet he's here with me.

"No," mahina niyang sagot.

"Will you betray me?" What if he's just confusing my mind again just like the last time? What if ginagawa niya lang 'to sa akin para magamit ako laban sa sarili kong tribe?

"I'd rather die than betray you."

Napatigil ako nung sinabi niya 'yun at humiwalay siya sa akin. Tinignan ko siya sa mga mata at kahit hindi niya sabihin, kita ko sa mga mata niya ang pagiging sincere. Maybe I'm just too paranoid because I didn't expect him to be here. To be with me.

"I never thought that chaos can be this beautiful," he whispered and my heart skipped a beat.

Nakatitig lang siya sa akin at hindi ko magawang umiwas ng tingin dahil sa ganda ng mga mata niya. I closed my eyes as he cupped my face and I felt his lips brushed against mine. The next thing that happened made me realize how much I yearn for him, how much I love him.

I gave myself to him.

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I've never been scared of the future before, but right now, I am. Hindi ko alam kung ano nang mangyayari dahil sa ginawa ko at akala ko, maliliwanagan na ako sa dapat kong gawin pero mas lalo lang akong naguluhan. I know what we did was wrong but I chose my own desire before anything else.