Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes) complete

Chapter 6: bring it back/ The weight

"Oh shit what time is it?" He ask fumbling to find his phone . I get up helping him to search for it then he finally finds it under the couch . "Fuck" he sighs frustrated walking towards the door and I look at his phone it read 10am with one of the pictures of us from the photo shoot . We've missed the breakfast meeting and announcements.

I can hear Emily's shouting at him about being late and informing him on what his schedule is for the day. I creep slowly to the door. "And where is saman-" I step out from behind Shawn and her eyes narrow at me. "This is you second and final warning! next I'm calling your boss and your off the tour" she says scowling at me with her hands crossed against her chest. "What is this?! What is going on between you two Shawn come on your better then this and your screwing her already really ? What would your mother think?" She sighs in disapproval.

"Woah, first off we are just friends and for your information we were up all night going over the song and she fell asleep " he lies and I hide my smirk " so why is she in your sweats and why aren't you wearing a shirt" " because she needed something comfortable to sleep in and you know I always sleep like this Emily so stop making a scene and for the record when we do screw I'll make sure everyone knows that we did without even having to ask!" He slams the door in her face breathing heavily.

I stand there awkwardly as he walks pass me. When we do screw that's the only thing that's playing in my head. I bite my lip trying to stop myself from imagining that. "Are you okay, I'm sorry about Emily she can be so annoying sometimes" he sighs folding the blanket on the couch handing me my phone. "I'm okay" I smile faintly at him now everything's so awkward. " I have an interview in an hour to get ready for-" "oh okay yeah I'll get going " I walk to the door as he pulls my  arm gently "I'm not kicking you out Sam " he laughs " I was going to ask you if you wanted to come with me" he smiles. As much as I wanted too I didn't want to have to deal with Emily again.

"Maybe next time Shawn and beside I'm already on Emily's bad side it'll only make things worst" I shrug looking at my phone. And Shawn holds my hand . "Sam you can't let Emily get to you and there's no way I'm letting her send you home so don't worry I'm her boss" he smiles pulling me into a hug. I shake my head pulling away from him " I know but I think I'm just going to stay in today" I smile shyly at him hoping he won't be too disappointed. He sighs "okay I'll see you later don't forget we're in the studio tonight so start working that creative brain of yours" I smile thank god he's not mad and I walk out the room down the hall "don't miss me too much !" He screams "I wont" I laugh assuring him.
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It's 5:30 and Shawn still isn't here yet and he's not answering his calls or texts. I sigh sitting on a stool in the booth strumming on his guitar. I brought it here for him because he's been busy all day . I look back over at the lyrics of stitches and strum the guitar until I find the right key singing the song to myself.

When I finished i hear clapping in the background . I turn around spotting Shawn in the door way with a hand full of roses and a bag of candy, snack and Chinese takeout. "Sorry for being late" he blushes hand me all he bought. I gaps in aw before resting them down and pulling him into a hug. "Thank you Prince Charming I think you should be late more often" I smile playfully at him "I'm sorry everything was running late today so i decided to get food on the way, which took more time than I thought it would " "it's okay, so I was strumming around and came up with something" I strum stitches and sing it for him and after a few seconds he catches on to the melody. "This is perfect!" He smiles pulling me into a bone crushing hug "Shawn your too strong" I frown rubbing my arms and he laughs "alright well I'll go show Ron what we came up with and start recording it won't take too long so you can take a break"
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As I finished my take out I can't help but notice a journal on the piano next to the snacks. I pick it up and scan through it. It's shawns song book and he has a few finished songs but more unfinished ones. I flip threw the book landing on a song names the weight.
I wanna go back,
Forget that it's over
Paint it in black,
When you left me alone
I never knew,
She was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with,
And I can't go back to her anymore, no

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight

"I forgot my-" I jump seeing Shawn walk back in the booth "what are you doing?" He takes the book from me with a panicked look. "I....." I trailed off . And I see him take a deep breath "I'm sorry for over reacting my song book is just very special to me it's like my journal but I just choose which story I want to share with the world I don't want everyone to know everything" I nod understanding "I'm sorry" i say and he pulls me into a quick hug as Ron yells for him "it's okay" he kisses my forehead before running down the hall.
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I'm so caught up in writing I didn't notice Shawn sitting beside me "maybe you should change that verse" I jump holding my heart . "Shawn your scared me" he laughs "you didn't see me come in ?" "No" "well I think this song is great" he says taking my note pad to see it better.

Taking it slow isn't easy, if as far as you go
Is only half as far as you and I both know, yeah
Coming up from above, a little something
And it's only because I don't ever wanna see you in love
But I know

That you've been coming off strong lately
And I can feel it there
You been thinking that maybe you got a, another shot at me
Thinking possibly somehow, but not now

And it's been spinning around like a hurricane
And the sound of the thunder
That's beating my head to the ground
But I, I know

I sing it for him so he can have an idea of how I think it should sound. "That sounds amazing how did you come up with this?" He ask and I sigh "Matthew called me today" and I look at Shawn "what did he say?" He asks and I can already feel my eyes tearing up. "I don't want to talk about it" I say laying my head on the desk. "Hey don't cry Sam" I can't help myself. I just try so hard to forget about what happened but it just won't leave. The last thing I expected was for my boyfriend of 3 years to confess his love for another man. If it was a girl it would have hurt a lot less. I feel Shawn rubbing my back then pulling me into a hug. "It's okay, your going to be alright" I felt so embarrassed pouring myself out to Shawn once again. "I'm sorry" I tell him my voice muffled in his chest. "You don't have to be sorry" "Shawn it's time to- not again this is-" "don't! Emily if you say one more word I swear your fired!"