He dropped to his knees .
"Shawn -"
"Don't do this please don't do this" he sobs handing me the ring back I just stare at him.
"This is not what I signed up for" I wipe my tears
" I can change I'll do better " he sobs
I sit on the bed with my knees to my chest Shawn at the edge head in hands.
"I fucked up and you're right I should have been there more for you and the twins but I don't know what happened. I just felt so lost I needed my own space-"
"Space from your fucking family Shawn really ?!" I rage in anger
"I couldn't be in this House it was driving me crazy" he holds his head
"Don't you think it's driving me insane too ? Shawn life goes on and I'm not saying it to be selfish because I miss Amelia just as much as you . I miss her voice her questions, her crying, her laughter every thing about her every single day. But secluding yourself from your family isn't going to bring her back" I wipe a tear away.
He stays silently crying
"It's going to be hard but we have to push through it you have two other children that loves you just as much and would like the same love in return. You don't have to love me anymore but you can't abandon them "
"No Sam I can't lose you too" he looks over at me tears falling from his cheeks.
"You already lost me Shawn ... I'm sorry " i wipe my on coming tears away .
"No Sam baby please I'm sorry for leaving you on your own I didn't mean to I promise it won't be like that "
"Your promises are meaningless" I sigh
"Sam please don't do this" he begs
"Shawn-" he smashed his lips against mine
I push him away .
"I'm sorry I can't" I cry walking into the bathroom
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3 years later
"Liam no! Let go of your sisters hair " I pry his fingers away .
"Aw don't cry princess " Dylan scoops Melanie into his arms .
"That was not nice Liam bad " i give him a little pinch so he knows what he did was bad .
He cry's and I feel bad myself for yelling I lift him into my arms "it's okay baby mommys here " I rock him in my arms.
"Your too soft babe this is the 3rd time he's done it next time you can't baby him" my boyfriend Dylan O'Brien tells me .
"I know but look at his little face" I pout looking at my son his eyes filled with tears. I kiss his face all over until I hear a giggle .
"There he goes" I laugh blowing sounds into his stomach.
The door bell rings and I open the door.
"Daddy!" Liam screams reaching for Shawn
"Hi LiLi" Shawn scoops him out of my arms throwing him high in the air spinning him around .
I smile at the sight . Shawn and I share custody of the kids but considering Shawn's job they stay with me most the time.
"Hey" I smile and he pulls me in for a hug
"How are you feeling?" He asks cautiously
I feel my eyes tearing up "I'm fine" I wipe my eye before Dylan can see .
"Hey man what's up?" Dylan does a hand shake with Shawn they are really cool with each other and get along. Which is good for the children .
"Nothing much planned a fun weekend for the twins and I " Shawn smiles kissing Liam's cheek .
"Sound good I'll get their bags" Dylan walks upstairs and Shawn places Liam down .
"You didn't tell him did you ?" Shawn frowns at me
"I tried but I just couldn't " I look at the ground
"Well you should " Shawn scowls lifting my chin up
I hear a screaming noise coming from behind me I see Melanie running to Shawn .
"Hi princess " he hugs and kisses her repeatedly.
"Here they go" Dylan brings down their bags "I'll help you to the car"
I put on Liam's sweater and shoes before walking with him to the car.
I place him in the car seat before kissing them goodbye.
I watch the car drive away as I sigh walking back into the house .
"Peace and quiet" Dylan laughs
"I know the floor will stay clean for the. Weekend "I laugh laying on the bed .
"Well now we have alone time" Dylan smirks wiggling his brows at me . I laugh laying down.
He hovers over me planting kisses down my neck .
I immediately felt sick I pushed him off and ran to the bathroom. Fuck.
I brush my teeth quickly and walk back out.
"You okay babe" Dylan looks worried
"Yea I'm okay think it's something i ate" i lie
"Okay baby get some rest I'll make you tea" I thank him laying on the bed.
I close my eyes
Flash back
"Fuck Sam" Shawn and I collapsed in the back of his car. I quickly button up my shirt.
"Oh my god not again " I say to myself
"It's okay baby" Shawn rubs my back
"No it's not don't touch me" I put my head in my hands.
This is the third time I've cheated on Dylan and he hasn't found out I feel so guilty.
"Sam honestly just dump the guy " Shawn shrugs zipping up him pants
"No I can't he's in love with me " I sigh
"But your not in love with him " Shawn says
"I do have love for him" I admit
"So why are you cheating on him?"
I sigh opening his door and walking into the house.
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"Here baby" I wake hearing Dylan enter the room.
I thank him sipping the tea .
"Baby I've been thinking and I think it's time we have a baby of our own " Dylan smiles
I Choke on my tea .
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