Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes) complete

Chapter 16:

"What's going on?" Shawn marches over to us arms crossed. "Shawn this is Matthew. Matthew, Shawn. I glance between  them as they exchange looks.

Matthew smiles brightly stretching his hand out to Shawn but Shawn doesn't shake.

He give me this look. He's pissed off I know I'm in trouble after Matthew leaves. He sit beside me and now Im in the middle of the two. this can't be any Akward.

"What is he doing here?" His voice loud enough for Matthew to hear . "To talk" I whisper and he gives me a 'dont' look.

"I was just getting ready to leave actually but it was nice meeting you take good care of her she's a keeper" he smiles at Shawn before getting up.

"oh I think. I forgot a box over here" he scratches the back of his neck. "I'll get it" I insist running to grab the box in the room.

As I walk out I can see him and Shawn speaking in low tone. I wait out a little allowing them to talk until Shawn spots me and I walk out. "Sorry I couldn't remember where it was" I lie looking at Shawn but I can't read him emotion.

"it's fine Sam thankyou" he smiles and I walk him to the door. "Oh before I forget this is for you if you want to come it's entirely up to you but it would mean the world to me" He smiles nervously handing me an envelope. I nod saying our goodbyes before closing the door.

I sigh walking into the bed room seeing Shawn stepping out of his sweats with his towel around his neck. "Why didn't you tell me he was coming over" he scowls. "I didn't even know he was coming over" I admit laying on the bed.

"You expect me believe that?" He's so grumpy "Shawn please I don't want to fight"I plead

"then maybe you should start telling the truth" I give him a look. "Why would I lie to you?" "I don't know how did he know you were even back in newyork you had to text him" he raises his voice.

Oh god not again "Shawn I'm not lying he just showed up" I frown. "How do I know if this is the first time that he's shown up' to your door" he crosses his hands against his chest.

"Your being  ridiculous" I roll my eyes. "What if this whole thing is an act and you with him behind my back-" "Shawn stop! why would I lie you you? Why would you even think that?" I don't feel trusted.

He shrugs running his hand down his face and through his hair. "Because I see the way you look at him" oh god not this again.

Wait? Is he crying. No not my new found confident Shawn. "Shawn" I cue walking up to him. "And I just want you to look at me like that" I wrap my arms around his waist tip toeing to peck his lips.

"I love you and only you Shawn nobody else" "but-" "but nothing Matthew came over to clear everything up between us yes he says he loves me and I still love him but were not In love with each other anymore. We love other people".

"Shawn he found Alex and I found you and I would change it for the world" he still doesn't seemed convinced he looks down at me confused tears filling in his eyes. "If I could go back in time and change everything that happened between Matthew and I, I wouldn't , as much as I wanted. it wouldn't make a difference because you can't help who you love and eventually Matthew would have moved on" I wipe his tears.

"But most of all I wouldn't change it because I wouldn't have met you. And I didn't know it before but now I do, your the one Shawn" I smile and I see a smile creep on his lips "you always have been" he laughs wiping his tears. "Now I feel stupid" he shakes his head and I kiss his cheek.

"It's okay" "I'm going to go shower" he says and nod my head sitting back on the bed.

I guess I come off that way to Shawn because Matthew was the first serious relation ship that  I ever had and he was the only person who I've ever loved. So my world did revolve around him for a while. But what we had is over and I'm ready to create new memories with Shawn.

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I open my email in my laptop seeing a whole bunch flood in and I sigh in annoyance. Getting back to every one I hadn't realized that I fell asleep.

"baby wake up the pizzas here" Shawn whispers in my ears and I groan fanning him off. I hate being interrupted in my sleep "come on I haven't seen you eat anything all
Day" he frowns. I sign getting up and following him to the living room.
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"What's wrong?" He ask concerned as I play with my pizza. I don't say anything I just shake my head. "Sam" "it's nothing" "then why aren't you eating? You love pizza". I feel myself about to cry. I look at Shawn and he softens. Taking my plate from my hand and setting it aside.

"Please Sam I want to know what's wrong?" I nod again biting my lip "nothing" I whisper leaning into his chest "I want you to tell me"
He frowns.

Before I fell asleep I read the card that Matthew gave to me. It was an invite to his wedding which was only two months away. How am I suppose to react to that. It's way too soon after a break up to get married to someone even if they've been dating for a year and a half and he's inviting me his ex like nothing's wrong with that.

I don't want Shawn to think that everything Matthew does affects me. So I keep this to myself I don't want to upset him and Matthew brings up the insecurities in himself.

"Your scarring me Sam is it something I did?" "No" I say wrapping my arms around him "Sam" "no it doesn't matter forget about it please" I beg.

He starts guessing what's wrong with me. Then he stops for a while and I look up at him "are you....." He pauses flushing red "are you um.... Pregnant" he scratches his neck and I go pale.

"No!" I shriek although I haven't even thought about that. "I don't think so" I give him an unsure look and he looks like he's seen a ghost.

He gets up quickly grabbing his leather jacket and his car keys. "Shawn" I plead, that's not even the reason why I'm acting like this. "I'll be back" before I can protest he's out the door.

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I lay in bed thinking if I could be pregnant but then I would be showing by now. I've gained some weight since I left the tour but I don't think I'm pregnant. I hope not I'm sure I would have noticed with symptoms and all. I highly doubt it though.

I hear the door and I spring up on the bed. Shawn enters the room with a bag in his hand from the pharmacy. He can't be serious. "I-I didn't know w-which one to get s-so" he's nervous like extremely nervous. Oh my poor Shawn he look too pale like he's about to throw up or pass out. "Hey, it's okay Shawn breathe" i pull him onto the bed next to me. "Just relax I have a high feeling that I'm not Shawn" "but if you are" "then we'll talk about thar later" I assure him.

My moment of truth I grab the bag from off the bed  and I make my way into the bathroom to do my business.
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I walk out and I see Shawn at the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees and face in his hand. "Its negative" I speak softly and his head shoots up in confusion "I'm not pregnant" he lets out a deep breath I'm just as relieved.

"Now come to bed please" I beg glancing at the clock it's almost 10 and I have a session with James bay tomorrow.

Just as I'm about to fall asleep Shawn mumble in my ears "why were you crying?" "Because I was feeing confused with my emotions " I whisper my voice filled with sleep.

"what were you confused about?" I take a deep breath turning to face him "Matthews getting married" I say feeling shawns grip losen around me. I hold his arm in place wrapped around me. "Shawn don't please, it was just unexpected I didn't know how to feel" I sigh .

I really don't to be honest. I'm happy for him but apart of me is still hurt. I don't know if I can attend this wedding and see the man that I once loved and that I would spend the rest of my life with would be getting married to another man. First of because we've been together longer and he never even thought of proposing to me so it hurt I thought I would be the one to Marry him.

He's sad and tired I can see the mixture in his eyes. "Your the one I love" I say sleep taking me over. I feel shawns lips press against mines. "I love you too" he whispers quietly and we both fall asleep.