Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes) complete

Chapter 9: imagination/kid in love

I feel the heat of the sun shine against my face and I nuzzle my face into my pillow. "Someone's up" I hear shawns angelic voice. I look over at him, he looks like a god his body glowing under the sun. "You enjoying the view?" He ask putting down his phone. "Shut up" I say throwing a pillow at him quickly tuning in the bathroom to brush my teeth.

I stretch walking out the bathroom and I freeze when I don't see Shawn in the bed. I walk slowly stoping in front of the bed. I feel a whiff of breeze behind me and I duck. Seeing Shawn with the pillow in his hand. And I laugh "you thought you had me" "how did you even know" he ask confused. "I use my senses duh" I tell him laughing. I can feel his muscular arms throw me on the bed tickling me. "Shawn stop!" I beg laughing until my sides hurt. And he finally stops. I breathe with my arms wrapped around him pulling him down.
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We end up making out until we release to catch our breath. "I really like you" Shawn tells me trailing his finger against my swollen lip. "I really like you too" I admit. We watch tv for a while "What do you want to do today?" "What ever you want?" I say laying on his chest. My stomach is lightly cramping me. I breathe lowly. "Are you okay?" He ask concern and I shake my head with my eyes closed. "I'm going to take a shower" I tell him grabbing a pair of sweats and a t shirt. I strip and not to my surprise Mother Nature decides to pay me a visit. I frown oh shit all my things are in my suitcase. "Um Shawn" I call "yes princess" I flush "can you go in my suitcase and pass me the black bag" I watch him take the bag out and of course while walking over he had to drop the bag and all the pads, tampons, wipes, pills  and all had to fall out. I just decide to look away and hold my hand out the door. But surprisingly it didn't bother Shawn. He's a little red but he keeps a neutral  tone grabbing everything and throwing it in the bag before lightly handing it to me.

Well that wasn't so bad Matthew acted like I had a disease he wouldn't go to the store and buy them for me and he wouldn't even touch a pad or come near me when I had my period so im just as surprised. Shawn really is different.

I finish with my shower and getting dressed and my cramps has gotten worse. It was an 7.5/10 right now. "Are you okay Sam?" Shawn asked panic. "I'm fine" I tell him feeling tears form in my eyes. But he comes over and pulls me into a hug. "I'm just going to take a nap " I tell him. The pills haven't kicked in yet. He's unsure of what to do but I crawl into bed clenching onto my lower stomach trying to rid the pain. The crazy thing is I don't like to be comforted when I'm like this. I don't want any one to touch me or come near me. First because I move around a lot and second I get hot really fast and it aggravates me I turn into the hulk basically. So instead thankfully Shawn sits by the desk in my room spending his time writing .

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I wake up with little to no cramps. Im down to a 2/10 it's bearable. I'm comfort worthy I see Shawn staring at me and I pat the side next to me. "You feeling better?" he ask sitting next to me rubbing my stomach. "Much better" I say snuggling into his side. "How come you didn't freak out?" I ask "Because I don't think that's something to freak out about it happens" I kiss his cheek. "What were you working on?" A song. And can see him turning red "Can I see?" I can see that he doesn't want to share "it's fine never mind ?" I shrug "it's not that it's just that I wrote.......I wrote it for you" I smile at him "aww Shawn" he looks away blushing. "But I should really give you a time out" he tells me I raised a brow "why?" And he flips through his song book until a piece of paper falls out and he holds it up. "I wanted to finish it for you" I tell him "why?" "Because I knew you wouldn't every time you see that song you get emotional Shawn" I tell him and he sighs kissing my forehead "why are you always right?" I shrug playing spinny circle on his phone. "I like the song" he says and I pause the game "you do?" "Yea you know me better than I know myself it's something I would write" "yay" I squeal "im happy that you like it and I think you should put it on the album" I suggest and I can't determine his emotion. "I think it's a story that needs to be told and it will help you connect more with your fans" I say wrapping my arms around his waist. He looks down at me pushing my hair behind my ears. "I'll think about it, that ones really personal to me" I shake my head understanding "okay" .
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"Okay your on stage in 5!" Emily shouts down the hall. I manage to sneak into shawns dressing room. "Sam!" He smiles over at me. He looks so hot in his black t shirt and blue jeans. "Hey" I smile shyly at him "I thought you weren't coming" "I'm dosed up on pills so I'll be alright but of course I'll be watching from the sidelines instead of in the crowd" I tell him smoothing out his shirt. "I'm glad your here tonight's the night I introduce stitches" he beams excitedly. "Don't forget the lyrics" I tease. He rolls his eyes pulling me close before pressing our lips together. The banging on the door interrupts us. I grab his guitar handing it to him as we race towards the door. "Shawn you have 5 seconds to be on that stage" Emily snaps. "Good luck!" I yell over his roaring fans. He gives me a quick kiss before walking out on stage.
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Shawn is absolutely amazing.tonights show is sold out and he is doing great along with the songs he has already performed life of the party,something big, show you, one of those nights and now stitches he strums an unfamiliar tune.

"I wrote this song not to long ago about the way I was feeling towards a special someone and it's called  imagination" he glanced at me a few times during the song and after that he sang another unfamiliar song called kid in love  "Oh my gosh you so have to put me on about you and Shawn" Taylor beams at me waving at Shawn as he finishes up"it's nothing were not official of anything he hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend" I shrug "are you kidding me I don't think he has too because he already knows the answer. "Give it up for my good friend Taylor swift!" Shawn hypes the crowd. "That's my cue" she says giving Shawn a high five on her way out to the stage.

Shawn and I couldn't keep our eyes from each other. My eyes were tearing up but instead of being excited like other girls would I felt panicked and scared. I ran faster then I ever had out of the stadium all the way to the hotel which was a 30 minute drive and a much longer walk. But I got there in 20 at the rate i was running. I locked myself in my hotel room. I felt like pulling my hair out I'm so confused. I don't know why I feel like this I feel angry and sad. Why couldn't Matthew be like Shawn why couldn't he be as sweet as Shawn he use to be. I just don't understand what if Shawn isn't the one. What if he leaves me then what? I would have already given away my heart twice. I am so afraid to be in love with Shawn. One because I just got out of a 3year relationship and second because I have fallen for him faster then I have ever fallen for anyone.

Double update another one coming up in a few. 💗