Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes) complete

Chapter 39:

-Sams pov

We've been home for  a month and I still haven't pulled myself to tell Shawn my medical results. I haven't told any one I don't know how to where do I start. I know tell anyone will alter everyone's life , the world doesn't revolve Around me and I dont want it to.

I walk to the room changing into shorts and Shawn's t shirt .

"Boys  come eat , jax come here" I here barking and nails scraping against the floor. I fill the dogs bowls with water resting it next to their food.

I hear the front door open and little stomping of feet . "Mommy!" Amelia leaps into my arms

"Hi princess, how was your day"  she goes on and on telling me what she did today  as I prepare her bath.

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Soon after I  feed and tuck Amelia into bed .
I step out to the living room and Shawn sits on the couch looking heart broken.

"What's wrong babe?"

" you tell me" he says in disbelief

"What?" I ask scared

"Are you pregnant?" I dreaded hearing those 3 words.

"No" I say calmly and as honest as I can but I cant look him in the eyes.

"youre lying to me! what the fuck Samantha" he stands up pacings back and forth running his hands through his hair.

"Your phone just rang, and you know who it was?" he asks stopping in place.

"Who was it?" I ask in a whisper

"The clinic calling to schedule your abortion" he says in an extremely hurt voice.

" Shawn I...." I cant find the words to say to him

"Now you have nothing to say?!" he laughs shaking his head wiping the tears falling from his eyes. " your fucking selfish you know that?" he steps closer.

I feel my vision blur as my eyes fill with tears. I take a step back everytime he takes one closer.

"Im sorry Shawn" I cry staring at the ground

"I bet the fuck you are!" i flinch at his loud voice . " W-why didnt you just t-tell me baby?" he ask his voice cracking.

"I didnt know how to-"

"How the fuck do you not know! send me a fucking message! write me a goddamn note Samantha this is not something that you can decide to take care of on your own! did you not think that I would find out? you of all people know that the paparazzi finds out 90% of everything that has happen before we even got the chance to tell each other I just dont und-"

"Daddy?" Amelia calls walking into the livingroom rubbing her eyes.

"Hey princess did me and mommy wake you up?" she nods continuing to rub her eyes.

"we're sorry come on lets go back to bed" he takes her hand and they walk back into the room.

I take that as my que , I hurry into the bathroom locking the door turning on the shower.
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I've been in her for an hour now I've finished my shower hoping he went out. I slowly open the door stepping into my room. I quickly get dressed and walk to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I go to check up on amelia .I find her and shawn sleeping on her small bed. I pull in the door and go to my bed.

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Sitting here having Breakfast is the most akward i've ever felt in my entire life. Shawn hasn't looked at me not once he only spoke to me to thank me for the breakfast.