Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes) complete

Chapter 58:

We went on an icecream date and back to his house. We are watching movies and having a really good time surprisingly.

I feel my eyes getting heavy as I try to stay up.

"Just go to sleep " he laughs

"The twins I have to go home " I instantly wake up.

"It's really late I'll take you home tomorrow just text Shawn to watch them you deserve a break" he smiles softly

I really missed him those eyes can hypnotize anyone.

"Okay" I text Shawn n he calls me a million time asking me where I was.

I turn it off and lay my head on Dylan's shoulder.
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I wake up with Dylan snoring softly beside me. This bed is so soft . I turn on my phone I have 30 missed calls and 20 messages from Shawn I roll my eyes and put my phone down.

"He's concerned about you" I feel warm air hit my ears

I turn around we are very close face to face.

"Yea" I sigh looking into his eyes.

"I'll take you home" he says moving closer

"Not yet" I say feeling how close our lips are.

I lean in but I feel him move away.

I open my eyes frowning .

"I'm not ready to jump back in I'm sorry " he scratches the back of his head.

"It's okay I understand" I say embarrassed

I walk out the room to shower and get dressed.

I wait for him to finish his shower. I look so stupid being in this stupid triangle Shawn won't let me go . I want to be with Dylan but I have to gain his trust I just feel so frustrated I should have never cheated in the first place.

"Are you okay" I watch as he steps out the shower only towel around his waist. I didn't notice I was crying until he wiped my tears .

"I'm okay I'm just upset with myself" I sigh getting up to let him get dressed

"You can stay nothing you haven't seen before" he jokes

That's not what I need to see right now especially because he can't pull himself to even kiss me.

"No thanks" I wipe my tears some more walking out.

"Sam I was joking I'm sorry" he pulls me into a hug.

I break down again crying in his chest.

"I messed up everything" I sob

"Look At me "

I cant pull myself to everytime I look at him i remember how badly I hurt him.

I feel his finger left my chin up

"I forgive you"

I cry even more how could he possibly

"I truly forgive you because that's the only way we are going to move forward so stop beating yourself up. That's too much stress for the baby " he hugs me for the longest time but I still feels so wrong.

"You're okay I gotcha" he presses his lips to my forehead.

My whole body tingles.

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"Want me to go in with you?" He ask
I think of the chaos that may come out of that.

"No im okay but thank you. I really needed yesterday"

"No problem I needed that too, call me if anything happens I'll see you soon "

I take a deep breath watching his car drive away. I hear the door open behind me "you're fucking kidding me!"

I sigh before turning around "what!"

"You ran back to him that's where you were all day!" He's so angry

"We were talking-" he cuts me off as I walk in the house

"You're a fucking liar you ran back to him crying and he's stupid for taking you back. You need to get your shit together it's either me or him. You're aren't going to confuse our children !"

"Shawn I we-"

"I don't want to hear you lie that's all you ever do you blame me for you cheating but you are the reason. You know how many times you could have told me no? I knew you were in a relationship but I didn't care and you and I both knew that . You still went ahead and had sex with me multiple times while you were in a relationship with him that's on you . You knew the risk and if you weren't pregnant you'd still be right at my door!"

I didn't even know what to say my lips and hands trembled.

"You can't even defend yourself because you know it's true I'm tired of being the bad guy . And I'm tired of being your second choice your fucking rebound I'm more than that we have children together and we're having another one together does that not tell you anything. Our children can't have two fathers I hope you know that . It's either me or him I'm tired of playing this game with you!"

"Shawn ..." I cant get my words out .

"I know you won't choose me so be prepared to see me in court I want custody of my children all 3 of them. I have so much evidence on you even last night I don't care that you were out there fucking him I was calling you because I had to take mel to the hospital again. You are listed as their primary dependent for crying out loud!"

I can't believe who I've turned into. "Shawn-"

"The twins are at my parents house you can get them later. I'll see you in court"  I hear the door slam .

I can't even process what just happened I can't think straight there is so much going on all at once . I come back from a good day to this. Poor mel I feel like a horrible mother.

I feel a pain in my abdomen. I take a deep breath.  My mind is going a million a minute.

I feel the pain again and I feel a warm liquid running down my feet.

"hey You left your bag in the backs-" I hear Dylan's voice.

"Sam what the hell happened" I'm in too much pain to talk. I hold onto the couch leaning over it .

I feel him wrap his arm around my waist supporting me to stand.

"911 what's your emergency?"

I hear Dylan screaming into the phone but I can't hear what he's saying it sounds like mumbling and my vision is getting blurrier by the second.

"Dylan" I call he looks over to me with a scared look on his face "I can't..." I feel really drowsy everything is getting darker.

"You can't what Sam ?" I hear him ask but I feel my body hit the floor. Then nothing .