Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes) complete

Chapter 59:

I wake up to the sound of beeping coming from the monitor beside me. I see shaliene and my brother Theo. "Hey she's up" he walks over to me kissing my forehead "how are you feeling?" he asks concerned.

I think about what happened and my heart rate goes up.
"Hey relax" he rubs my arm

"What are you guys doing here? and where's Dylan?" I panic

"Only family members allowed so he has to wait for you to wake up"

" I want him here with me"

"What's up with you and Shawn?" Theo asks I look at shaliene for help.

"How about you grab Dylan and I'll keep an eye on her" she suggest and Theo gives me a look before leaving the room.

"Thank you" I sigh in relief my brother has been on my back about getting married and sticking to one guy as he says.

"Are you and Shawn having problems?" She sits on my bed

" he wants custody of the kids and we just aren't in a good place right now" I sigh

"Is the baby okay?" I ask panicked

"What baby?" My brother asks looking right at me . Shit. The only people that know are me Shawn, Dylan , Justin and shaliene I tell her literally EVERYTHING.

"Nothing" I lie

"Jesus Christ Sam your pregnant again?" Theo runs his hands through his hair "does mom know?"

"No one knows" I lie
I watch Dylan step into the room walking over to me.

"Thank god you're okay they wouldn't let me see you" he kisses my head

"Who's baby is it?" My brother questions me shaliene takes him outside to explain. Leaving Dylan and I alone.

"Is the baby okay?" He ask anxiously

"I don't know I'm waiting on the doctor to tell me" I sigh feeling emotional again.

"It's okay everything is going to be alright" he pulls me into a hug I cry on his shoulder telling him what happened between Shawn and I .

"I wish he was here so I could punch him in his fucking face" My eye widen

"No Dylan please don't touch him I need you here with me I can't do this alone again " the doctor steps in and my brother and his wife follow behind.  he has a serious look on his face I know he's going to lecture me after.

"Glad to see you are awake" he smiles forcefully I know he has bad news. I grip onto Dylan's hand so tightly.

"Unfortunately you were under a lot of stress which caused you to miscarry. In our best efforts we weren't able to save-" my whole body goes numb I just stop listening to what he has to say nothing else matters.

I feel so broken inside just empty. I hold everything in.

" could you guys just give me a minute please " watching them walk out as I begin I sob . Dylan didn't go anywhere he wrapped his arms around me and held me close.

I cried for hours and still no sign of Shawn.

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Two weeks later

I was finally able to go home I stayed in bed and cried my eyes out everyday for two weeks and Dylan was with me the whole time.

Shawn's mom would check in on me when picking up and dropping of the twins.

She'd come into my room hug me and tell me everything will be okay. My mother came for two days then back to work . But I just feel empty like time is passing me by.

" hey I have to go into work today for my final shoot but I'll be back straight after" I nod not saying anything. He kisses my forehead and is on his way. Shawn's mother is bringing the kids in a few so I need to put on my acting face I don't want them to see me like this.

I hear the doorbell ring. I open the door and Slam the door back shut. "Sam I'm sorry " I hear him muffle through the door.
I lock the doors and go into my room and lock that door and crawl back into my bed. I hate him.

I forgot he has a copy of the key I need to change the locks on the door. I hear him jiggling the handle to my bedroom door . He bangs on the door begging me to open it.'after 5 minutes of ignoring him he kicks open my door . There goes my  door knob.

"Sam I want to talk to you I'm sorry okay." He sits on my bed and I inch away from him. Unable to control my emotions.

I've never had anyone that could bring such sadness and hatred with their presence.

"I feel so horrible I should have never left you alone. I shouldn't have yelled at you or spoken to you like that. We are both responsible for what happened and I'm responsible for this. .......I stressed you out and I'm sorry I know you're hurting and i should have been there in the hospital.b-but I couldn't bare to lose another child" He pauses collecting his thoughts "....and I was jealous because even after everything you ran back to him and he took you back. I don't have anything but our children and if it weren't for them I know you would have left me a long time ago. I know that you don't want to talk to me but I owe you an apology I'm truly sorry Sam"

I didn't look at him or say anything I couldn't . How could he do this to me again and just disappear we have gone through SO MUCH.

"Please Sam say something " he begs reaching for my hand . I get up quickly backing away . I know Shawn wouldn't hurt me but when he's angry he scared the shit out of me. And his temper makes him get aggressive

"Say something baby" he gets up and walks closer to me.

I feel like I can't breathe the way he always makes me feel when he gets this close.
I have nowhere to run to he's blocking my exit.
I can feel him breathing by my lip.

"Sam!" He slam his hand on the wall by my head

I flinch "I hate you!" I begin to cry in fear

"Don't say that!" His eyes get dark I'm so scared right now . He takes a deep breath "I'm sorry I'd never hurt you.i just miss you" his voice cracks as he wipes my tears.

I close my eyes tight flinching but relaxing in his palm. I haven't felt this way in a long time since Cameron.

"Looks who's home-" Dylan walks through the door liam in his hand .

"What the fuck is going on?!" He puts down liam and tell the twins to go to their room.

Shawn turns to Dylan "mind your fucking business " Shawn shoves Dylan . Dylan punched Shawn in the face and they start fighting . "Stop!" I scream trying to separate them I get knocked down none of them notice. Shawn's mom comes in the room her jaw drop. She pulls Shawn by him arm "Stop it! " he stops when he here's her voice.

"You two are grown men you are no longer boys you need to grow up and set an example for your children!" She shouts in frustration the twins gripping her legs peeking in with scared faces.

"Shawn lets go NOW!"She grabs and pushes him towards the door before yelling at him somemore.

I walk over to the twins taking them to their rooms.
The questioned me of course but I let them know everything is alright.

I walk back into my room "are you okay" he ask me I wrap him in my arms softly . This is not what I need nor the twins. I pull him into the bathroom to wipe his busted lip n his bleeding nose.