Through it All

Chapter 29

BG POV

I don't understand what has just happened. I pack my bag and walk out after Amber's ultimatum. I'm in my truck and I'm so pissed off but at the same time I'm hurt. She told me she wanted a family and then yanked it all out from under me. I don't think it's unreasonable to not give up my career but I am willing to cut back and be there for her and any children we would have. I'm not sure what she is thinking right now. Maybe if I give her some time she will come to her senses. It's 1 am and I don't know where I am going. I guess I will get to Nashville and decide what to do. I will send Kolby and mama a text when I stop for gas to let them not to expect me at church or for lunch . I will check on Cheyenne when I get to Nashville and find a room. I somehow have to figure out how to ask her if she will sing on my album a duet and then come on tour some dates with me to sing. One thing at a time. I never thought Amber felt this way about my tour dates, makes me wonder if she ever really loved me or was it just for my money and fame. I knew that it was too good to be true, no one wants forever with a redneck biker like me. I have done too many bad things to ever deserve a love like Robert and Cheyenne had and would still have if he hadn't been taken from us too soon. They both faced death with strength and courage. Maybe I am meant to be alone and play music and be a godfather to all my godchildren. Maybe that is Gods plan for me. I don't know but I never had a clue this was coming. If she hasn't called by Monday evening when I get through at the label I guess I will call her and I can always go to the deer farm and workout my frustrations with some manual labor. It's so funny listening to the radio and hearing myself but the song stops me its one of Cheyenne's favorite and when she isn't sure what to do she says these words "let it ride" meaning that doing nothing and it will work out like it's supposed to. My phone beeps I look hoping that it is Amber but it's Cheyenne sending a text:

C- Are you still up B?
I debate about answering her but I promised I would be there for her at any time. So I pull over and send back
B- yeah what's up darlin?
C-Nothing is up just can't sleep and I have tried everything . I'm sorry for bothering you I bet Amber would like to kill me right now I will talk to you later Bye B.

I pull back on the road as I hit my phone book to call her. I can't let her do this alone so I'm gonna call.

C- Hello B
B- Hey darlin talk to me..
C- no go to bed B Amber probably is upset with me for you being gone all week already especially since you have to leave later today to go to Nashville for your label meeting.
B- I'm on my way to Nashville now so I can talk for another 4 hours.
C- What happened and don't tell me nothing!
B- I really don't want to get into it right now if that is okay. What can I do to help you sleep?
C- okay I will let it go right now but I am here anytime B don't shut me out please promise me
B- I promise I won't shut you out but I can't talk right now darlin it's to fresh so what can I do to help you?
C- Can you sing to me?
B- Yeah baby I can definitely do that, what do you want me to sing?
C- What about Let it Ride?
B- starts laughing Yeah I can do that darlin
C- Why did you laugh at me B?
B- Ahh darlin I laughed because that song was playing on the radio and it made me think of you and how when you don't really know what to do about something you always say let it ride and it usually works out. So it's kinda funny that you want me to sing that song.
C- oh I thought you were laughing at me cause it's a love song.
B- Chey you should know I would never laugh at you darlin. So you got everything locked up and are you settled so when you fall asleep I know you are safe.?
C- B everything is locked up and I'm on my couch so sing away.
B- No I am not singing until you go get in the bed.
C- arrgh okay B I'm heading to bed. I'm in the bed now please sing
B- okay I have one more thing, will you sing it with me?
C- yes I will a little bit but that kind of defeats the purpose of you singing me to sleep
B- starts to sing

Italics - B
Italics bold - both of them
Normal - C

I guess we should've seen this comin'
I can't say it didn't cross my mind
Cause we both said we'd take this slow yeah
And here we are dancin' cross that line
Cause you got your lips an inch away from mine
Just to see how long they take to touch
I guess we both got a thing for playing with fire
'Cause this sure looks like it could get dangerous

Just one kiss I know I'll lose it
And I won't know what I'm doin'
I can't call it
Guess I'm caught up in this moment
Let it ride
Once your lips touch mine, girl, it's over
Yeah I think we both know
We can't stop
We're just rockin' with this moment
Let it ride

C- B thanks
B- that's not all the song darlin'
C- I know but I'm almost asleep.
B- okay darling but I need to ask one thing before I let you go
C- ask away
B- will you sing with me
C- I just did
B- no on my album I have to have a female on this next album for a part and I want you to do it I don't want some stranger the label gets
C- sure B I will come sing on your album just send me when and where and I will be there. Don't forget you still have to tell me later what's going on( she yawns)
B- good night darlin' I will talk to you later today now get some sleep.
C- Night B stay safe and let me know you make it safe. Love you
B- Night darlin and I will send you a text where I end up and that I'm safe. Love you too.

As we hang up I just grin cause she has no idea what she has agreed to do for me. I should feel bad but I don't cause she has just turned a very bad night into a good one. I turn the radio up and roll my window down as I put miles on my truck heading to do what I love to do and that is make music. I didn't have that wreck and almost could have died to just give it up. I want a family but I am NOT giving up music. I can't give up something that God has given me. My momma told me that along time ago and I made her a promise that I wouldn't. So no woman is gonna make me break my promise to momma.
I look around and realize that I am pulling into Nashville so I head to the closest hotel to the label and check in. As I get in my room it's 5:30 so I send momma and Kolby a text in the group message that I wasn't gonna make it to church and lunch that I was in Nashville. I sent Chey a text letting her know what hotel and that I was okay and would let her know when I got up.
Now to sleep for a while!