Through it All

Chapter 61

Cheyenne's POV

BG and I just finished figuring out what kind of wedding we want and everyone is on board. We have had a serious talk and he has went back to playing his guitar and writing in his book. I know he's working on a song or songs. He likes to write while he is on tour on his bus. We are supposed to stop at 9 for supper and then on the road until we hit the venue. After the past few weeks I'm glad to just do nothing. I'm sitting on the couch so I have a view of B and can watch the scenery. The thing I have to decide is what kind of dress I want to get. I'm not sure I want to go the traditional route. I've done that already I just want to knock Bs socks off when I come down the aisle. It is a comfortable silence between us and I know I am blessed to call him mine. My phone buzzes and I look and it's a text from Nate. I dread opening it since I haven't heard anything from him in a while well the Sunday that the video released. I open it

N: Hey Cheyenne I know I am probably the last person you expected to hear from but I do need to tell you something. First and most important I'm sorry. There was no excuse for what I said to you in those messages and I don't blame you for not wanting to speak to me anymore.
Second I was at a friends house and his wife was watching the awards show so I saw yalls performance. You were amazing and I'm proud of you for trying something so different.
Third I want to say congratulations on your engagement. I'm glad you have found happiness because if anyone in this world deserves it, it's you. Yeah if I'm honest it kills me that it's with him but not surprised. You are an amazing woman and he is one lucky man.
And lastly I'm sorry I never told you how I felt but you were married and I respected you. I just want you to know that if you ever need me I will be there for you. I doubt that will happen but I just want you to know that I realize that I lost the best friend I ever had when I let the alcohol talk but I'm stone cold sober and the bottom line is I love you and have feelings for you and I just had to tell you. Tell BG that he is a lucky man and to cherish you.

I read the message again and I don't want to tell B cause it will make him mad but I will not keep this from him.

I look at him and he glances up at me and said what is it Chey? I tell him that I have a text he needs to read that I just got but to keep an open mind please. He said I'm not going to like it and I tell him no but I'm not about to start off with you by keeping anything from you. He nods his head and says give me your phone babe. I hand him my phone and watch his expression. It remains neutral which kind of scares me. He looks at me and says go ahead and reply like you want to but can I read it? I smile and tell him I wouldn't have it any other way.

Cheyenne: Nate thank you for the apology. I accept but it doesn't change the fact that your words hurt me and how you were my friend who I thought would support me. Thank you for the sweet words about our performance and your congratulations on our engagement. BG makes me happy and I love him. So out of respect for him and myself I have to say that any contact we have will have to be work related. I don't mean to be harsh but I don't have feelings for you like you do me and I'm sorry that I have hurt you. With that being said I know that you will find someone but like I have always told you, you have to open up and let them see the real you. The you that you let me see, the one I called my friend. Goodbye.

I sent the message after BG read it and said you aren't giving him any hope. I said B that's the intent. He can't think that there will ever be a chance for him with me. I love you and that's it for me. I thought it would make you happy. B told me it did make him happy but he didn't want to be the reason I gave up my friends. I looked at him and told him that I respected him and our relationship and I plan on doing everything I can to protect it, even if that means losing friends besides I have gained a whole new group of friends. I love you baby and I'm not about to spend one minute of the time I have been given with you arguing about friends. If they don't support us then I don't need them. Do you hear me? BG took my hands and kissed them and said I really don't know what I did to deserve your love but I promise to make sure you know it every day I live. I love you Chey! And then he kisses me soft and sweet and picks me up and takes me to our bed in the back and shuts the door. He lays me down and gently takes my clothes off and strips his off and kisses me from head to toe and as he kisses my mouth soft and sweet he slowly enters me and caresses my body and loves me like he hasn't done before. He was reverent and almost worship like in his lovemaking. As I reach myorgasm he did too. He pulls me and rolls us over so I am laying on his chest. The last thing I remember is B telling me he loved me.