Through it All

Chapter 99

Chey POV
The buses pull in the driveway and we start loading stuff on the buses. Ellie and Ace have just one bag to load due to we are headed to New York to sight see so there luggage will be with us. BG and I load food and clothes due to we will be on tour for several months or he will I only have a month left before school starts. Ace has a year of high school left and after that I may just quit and be with B all the time on the road. We have talked about it but he said to wait and see how I felt when Ace graduates.  Jake is loading his truck now and I can tell Ellie is not liking it. I stand in the front of the bus watching them I know exactly how she feels watching him load a truck to go to another state. It hurts so bad that you can hardly breathe. I watch as Jake pulls her in his arms and talks to her and he leans down and kisses her and it breaks my heart for my baby cause I know how bad it hurts. I feel two arms circle my waist and pull me back. B says right next to my ear, why are you watching them and why are you crying? I didn't even know I was B. I was watching cause I know how heartbreaking it is to watch someone load a truck and pull away and saying goodbye is heartbreaking. It hurts so bad that you can't breathe. I hate that she is going to feel that way . B looks at me and said I thought you were okay with them cause if not then I can handle that baby. I am okay B, it's just as a mom I never want my kids to hurt cause when they hurt I hurt. B said is that how you felt when I would visit and leave? I turn in his arms and tell him yeah it was,  well still do when we have to part. Your heart knows that you will be fine but it still hurts being apart. That's why I want to make sure that we see each other at least 1 day a week when you are on tour. I can't not see you for months at a time and I don't care that it may just be a few hours. He looks at me and says I know baby I feel the same way.  I tell him I don't see how Amber could stand being away from you it makes me physically hurt. He smiles at me and said that's good to know darlin'  but we can head out there now and say our goodbyes.
We walk toward Jake and Ellie and they are holding hands. I smile and thank Jake for coming that we enjoyed having him. B hugs him and tells him to keep in touch with him. Jake grins and says he will. Jake looks at me and says can I talk to you? Yeah let's walk around back I tell him. We start walking and Jake asks me if I am okay with him and Ellie. I said yeah or you wouldn't have been in my house and grin. Why do you ask? He tells me that he was divorced and had a daughter but that he was very cautious about who he brought around her and that he and Ellie wanted to see how it went. I know that I am 14 years older than her and I just want to make sure that you are okay with this. I like her a lot and she makes me happy. But I won't pursue this unless you are okay with it. I know she has school and coop and that is very important to her and I respect that and I would not ask her to do anything to jeopardize that. Also after talking to the guys last night I just want to reassure you that I respect her choices about her body and would never do anything to pressure her. We discussed that right after the talk and I just had to talk to you her mother. I smile at Jake and tell him that Ellie is grown and lives in her own place and I respect her and her decisions. If she wants to try with him I have no problem but I know how crazy this life gets and if he is going to talk to her then it has to be only her. No groupies or hang arounds, I don't know if you do that I'm just saying don't do that to her. If you respect that then we are good Jake. He tells me I haven't ever done that and she is to precious to do that to. She is amazing and I haven't ever met anyone like her. So do I have your blessing? I turn to him and tell him that I respect him for this talk and I don't have a problem with the age difference but a piece of advice and that is to talk to his ex wife cause Ellie doesn't need drama from her with her in school. He said he was planning on doing that today. So we got back to the front and I hugged him and told him that if he needed anything to let me know. He told me thank you I may take you up on it. I walked over to Ellie and hugged her and said he's a good one, took B by the hand and led him inside. He asked me if everything was okay and I said yeah he just wanted to make sure I was okay with him pursuing Ellie before it went any further, asked for my blessing since I was her mom. I told B the conversation and he said he didn't ask me. I hit him and said its okay Pop. I wrap my arms around my husband and said how long before Kolby gets here to take us to the airport? He looked at his watch and said about 20 minutes why? Cause I was wondering how long I had to love on my husband. B looks at me said I don't think so darling you are still bruised and it ain't happening. Come on B, don't you think I know my body? Not happening babe lets go check on Ellie. We walk to the door and Ellie is standing in the driveway waving as Jake leaves. The trucks brake lights come on and the drivers door opens  and Jake gets out and runs toward Ellie and she runs toward him and he picks her up and kisses her says something and then gets back in the truck and leaves. Ellie comes to me and she is crying so I hold my arms open and she leans over and hugs me. I tell her it's gonna be alright and I love her and I understand it's so hard watching them leave. She asks how do you do it mama, my heart hurts so much that it hurts to breathe. I know baby that's how I feel when I have had to watch B get in a truck and drive away. Just know that if you want it to work it will, it takes both wanting it but you talk about everything and work it out. Just know that he is a dad and as bad as it may feel at times Pearl has to come first. Ellie looks at me and says I know mama he made that clear. He's gonna talk to his ex wife today about us so she won't give me a hard time. He came back and asked me to be his girlfriend said he couldn't leave without knowing where we stand. I told him yes but I'm scared at the same time. How do you do it? I look at her and tell her that it takes both of us and I continue to be myself on social media . I also know that the fans are important and for the most part they are really great. Just prepare for the backlash you will get taking him off the market. She hugs me and says I think he's worth it. I'm gonna go get my stuff I hear Kolby coming up the drive. Thanks mama, I love you. I love you to baby, I tell her. B looks at me and says you did good baby. Now you ready for the big city?