MISS NOT PERFECT

CHAPTER 87

Ivan's POV

5AM na. Pero hindi parin ako umaalis sa kama ko. Tinatamad pa rin akong pumasok. Two weeks na akong ganito kaya dalawang beses na akong na late sa first class namin.

I closed my eyes. "Mikki.."

Tss.

Hindi na talaga siya nagparamdam. Nakalimutan na ba niya ko? Ganun kabilis? Kaya ba hinahayaan niya lang si Kerr noon, kasi tama ang hinala ni Camille?

I groaned in frustration.

I don't know what to do anymore after I saw her picture with Kerr. I shut my eyes tightly and shook my head as if it could erase the image of Mikki and Kerr kissing. I bit my lips and covered my face with my palms. Dammit! It freaking hurts!

For this past two weeks, I just kept myself busy and ignored everyone. I stopped flooding Kerr and Lea's inboxes. I stopped sending her emails nor trying to call or text her. But whatever I do, I can't stop thinking about her. Na kahit anong pagkaabalahan ko just to divert my attention, image of her will always come flashing in my head.

I took a deep breath. At saktong may kumatok sa pinto ko at nakita ko si Nanay Lotty na may dalang tray.

She beamed at me.

"Breakfast in bed? Nanay Lotty wala ho akong sakit." Sabi ko at umayos ng upo sa kama.

"Kumain ka na, baka malate ka na niyan" sabi niya saka nilapag sa kama ko ang tray at pumunta na sa may pintuan. "Ubusin mo yan ha at mag-ayos ka na pagkatapos at pumasok." sabi niya saka sinara ang pinto ng kwarto ko.

I sighed.

Pinagmasdan ko ang inihanda ni Nanay Lotty. Tosilog, coffee, water and orange. Kinuha ko ang orange at napailing na lang.

Pinilit kong ubusin ang pagkain at nagmadali akong maligo at magbihis. Hindi ko nakita si Nanay Lotty pagbaba ko kaya tuluy tuloy na lang ako papunta sa kotse ko at nagdrive papuntang school. Something urges me to drive to Mikki's house at namalayan ko na lang ang sarili kong nililiko ang kotse ko at tinatahak ang daan papunta kila Mikki.

I stopped the car and stared at the particular window wherein Mikki's room was located. Baliw na ba ako kung iniisip ko na sana biglang may maghawi ng kurtina ng bintana niya at bumungad si Mikki?

Yes, I was hurt but that doesn't mean I don't love her anymore. The truth is, the more I spent the days without her, the more I was longing for her, my feelings for her are growing deeper and deeper. But the battles are not just for the fighters who would do everything to win the game,  but for the braves, who knows how to surrender when the battles are not worth fighting anymore.

I heaved a sigh and gave a last look at the window before starting the engine.

From: Hans

Dude, nasan ka?

I frowned as I'd read his message. Kakababa ko lang ng sasakyan at naglalakad na ko sa hallway papunta sa classroom ko.

To: Hans

Hallway. Bakit?

Mabilis siyang nagreply kaya nagtataka ako.

From: Hans

Nothing. Akala ko hindi ka papasok, galing kami sa room mo wala ka pa daw. Napapansin lang namin this past few days na hindi ka na pumapasok ng maaga.