MISS NOT PERFECT

CHAPTER 33

My eyes opened widely when I realized what I've said.

Did I say that I like her? Dammit!

"I-i mean.." I don't know what to say next.

Mikki stood up and came back to her poker face.

"I'm leaving" she said and immediately went out of the office kahit hindi pa pumapayag ang POD.

The POD just sighed and shook her head afterwards.

"You may go too, Mr. Meneses. Warning na lang muna ang ibibigay ko sayo. But please don't do that here next time. Kung hindi mo kayang pigilin ang sarili mo. Sa labas na lang ng school."

"Sorry po. Thank you po" nasabi ko na lang.

Hinanap ko agad si Mikki sa paligid, pero wala na siya. Ang bilis naman niyang mawala? Kakalabas niya lang a?

Inikot ko na ang buong campus pero wala. I want to make it clear to her. I just said that I like her, in front of her. Yes, I confessed unconsciously. That was the dumbest thing I've ever done!

I went back to my classroom, and I saw her. Sitting right next to my chair. I took a deep breath before taking my seat. I want to say something but it looks like I swallowed my tongue and I cannot speak. I'm so tensed. I've never been so tense like this before. Dammit!

I'm cursing again. Nasasanay na ata akong magsabi ng bad words. Masama to.

"Oy. Where the two of you have been?" tanong ni Ella na siniko pa ko.

"Kay POD"

"Oh? She's here na?"

I nodded as a response.

"What happened?"

I just shook my head and shrugged. I don't want to talk about it now. Not until I have a guts to talk to the other girl beside me.

Natapos ang klase nang walang nangyari. Uwian na. Nakita kong lumabas ng classroom si Mikki. So, I followed her. Lumapit siya sa itim na kotse na nakaparada sa parking ng school at lumabas doon si Kerr.

Kerr opened the door for her on the passenger's.

I sighed.

I forgot about him. I sighed again and shook my head. Umiwas na ako ng tingin sa kanila at dumaretso na kung saan nakaparada ang kotse ko.

**

Isang linggo na naman ang lumipas. And just like last week. I'm still thinking about her. This time, not about the kiss but her, and my unconscious confession.

I've been indenial, I admit.

I like her.

Yes, I like her. I admit now. Crush lang naman. Madaling mawala. Hindi naman masamang magkagusto sa kakaibang babae hindi ba? Siguro dahil kakaiba siya kaya nagustuhan ko, maybe her aloofness. Halos lahat kasi ng estudyante dito nakakausap ko at nginingitian ako. And she's the only exception.

She's been so aloof and unreachable since we were prep. I wasn't aware of how much craved I have to get her attention that my curiosity and obsession for becoming her friend will lead to liking her eventually.

Me as a guy liking her as a girl. Now I admitted it. I like her. I freaking like her.

Medyo tahimik na ang school pero hindi pa rin nawawala ang usapan tungkol sa amin ni Ella. Tinanggi ko na to, sinabi ko na hindi kami, pero ayaw nilang maniwala dahil lagi daw kaming magkasama.

Pag magkasama ba lagi ang babae at lalaki ibig sabihin sila na?

Tss.

I stopped thinking when suddenly Mikki entered the room together with Kerr. My heart stopped beating for a second. I don't know why. I saw Kerr holding Mikki's hand, and how it intertwined to each other. Seeing it after admitting to myself that I like her pulled some string inside my chest, but all I could do was to look away. I don't like the scenery in front of my face. Dammit.