MISS NOT PERFECT

CHAPTER 43

"What are you doing here?" Tanong ni Mikki na diretsong nakatingin sakin.

Tinignan ko siya tapos tumingin ako sa katawan ko at nanlaki ang mga mata ko when I realized I'm freakin naked! Mabilis kong pinulot ang towel at itinakip sa dapat takpan. Sh*t!

Hiyang hiya ako kaya naman, imbis na sagutin ang tanong niya, nagmadali akong lumabas ng banyo at nagmadaling magbihis, kahit mahirap dahil bukod sa nanlalambot ako sa hiya, I can see her in my peripheral vision, watching me intently while crossing her arms. I gulped. Hindi ako makatingin sa kanya kaya naman tumalikod ako. Isusuot ko na sana yung tee shirt nung magsalita ulit siya.

"What are you doing here?" halata ang inis sa boses niya na ngayon ko lang narinig.

"T-tinawagan ako ni Lea kagabi para magpatulong alagaan ka" I bit my lip, nakatalikod pa rin ako sa kanya habang sinusuot ko ang tee shirt.

"I don't need you. You can go," she said.

I sighed. I prepared myself for this, kagabi pa, but I didn't expect the words she used could hurt me.

"O-okay"

Nawala bigla yung hiya na nararamdaman ko at napalitan ng sakit. Sakit na hindi ko malaman kung saan nanggagaling. Lumabas ako ng kwarto at pumunta sa dining area para magpaalam kay Lea.

"Kain na Ivan" yaya ni Lea ng makita niya ko.

I faked a smile and shook my head.

"Tumawag si Dad, hinahanap na ko sa bahay, hindi kasi ako nakapagpaalam na hindi ako uuwi" I lied. Kahit isang beses, hindi pa ko tinawagan ni Dad. Psh.

"Ah ganun? Sayang naman. Sorry ah, baka mapagalitan ka pa" nag-aalalang sinabi ni Lea.

"Okay lang." nasabi ko na lang, ayoko na kasing madagdagan ang kasinungalingan ko.

"Thank you so much for coming! Sayang tulog pa si Mikki, gusto mong magpaalam muna sa kanya, I can wake her up"

"No need" I shook my head "She's already awake. Anyways, I really have to go" tinalukaran ko na siya at nagmadaling lumabas ng bahay bago pa siya makapagreact.

She'll know I lied. Mikki is a very affront person, she might tell Lea na pinalis niya ko. I bit my lip and released a deep breath before I started the engine. I left the place and drove back home. Nagkulong lang ako sa kwarto ko pagkauwi ko. Hindi naman ako makatulog kaya inabala ko ang sarili ko sa pagbabasa ng libro. I picked James Patterson's 'First Love'. I'm not really into love stories but I guess I give this a try, wala namang mawawala.

"I was afraid of what I felt. But was that the only reason it was so hard to admit it to him? Or was I afraid that he didn't feel the same? Yes, I was definitely afraid of that."

I stopped after reading this one.

Falling in love? Nakakatakot, because I know, once I fell, I can no longer get out, stand up and walk out of the place I'm falling for. Malulunod ako. I'm afraid of falling, because I'm afraid no one will catch me, she won't catch me, that's for sure. In short, I'm not ready for a heartbreak.

I'm already at the edge of the cliff, one step and i'll fall. I closed the book. I lyed on my bed and closed my eyes. I saw her face, her beautiful face. And then the words that came out on her mouth.

I bit my lip.

Bakit ako nasaktan?

Then my heart's throbbing to the extent that it exasperates me. This feeling really need to stop. This abnormal heartbeat needs to beat normal again. I sighed. Kelan ba to nagsimula? Inisip ko yung mga panahon na nagiging abnormal ng tibok ng puso ko. Then I remembered, it all started after the kiss.