"If only you could.." I whispered, not really knowing what to say. Geo wiped away a tear from my cheek, but something told me he was only doing it because he felt sorry for me. I know what he looks like when he really cares, but right now he just looks confused. "The English girl who you met when shopping. I was with Sasha. Remember?"
Geo stopped for a few seconds to think, but then looked back at me with a big sigh and shook his head.
"Never mind." I sighed. I stood up and Geo let go of my hand. He went to stand up as well but I stopped him.
"Please stay!" I urged, blushing when I realised how upset I sounded. "I need to go."
Geo went to say something but stopped. I hated looking at him. Yes, I love him. But looking at him was so painful. Looking at the one who you love and knowing that it'll never work was devastating.
I went to walk away but jumped in shock when I felt a freezing cold hand grab my wrist. I turned around to see tears rolling down Geo's flushed cheeks. He stared at me for a while without saying anything, and then looked at the floor. His grip on my wrist loosened which must mean that he's allowing me to leave.
"Geo?"
There was no response. He sat on his bed and buried his face into his arms.
"You're looking at me as though I'm mad." He eventually responded. His face was still buried into his arms and he sounded as depressed as ever.
"I.. I'm sorry.." I whispered. I felt my body begin to tremble as I slowly sat down beside him, desperately wanting to hold his hand or embrace him into a big hug.
"I don't even know who I am anymore."
"You're Juwany Roman. A YouTuber, Younower, muser, Instagrammer-"
"I know that." Geo snapped. He stopped sulking and was now looking me in the eye. "You don't understand."
That sentence hit me like a rock. Geo would never say that. He'd always tell me how I understood him and how he only asks me and his fans for advice because we're the only people who understand what he's saying.
I opened my mouth to say something but then stopped myself. Instead, I walked out of the room without saying anything.
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Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction
FanfictionEveryone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Loosing someone hurts. Everyone confuses these things with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us...
