Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 111

Me and Mario walked into a room full of completely new people. The only people who I knew here was Mario and Hazel. But everyone else.. they were strangers. 

"Lucy!" Hazel squealed, running towards me. She then gave me a hug whilst everyone else began talking to their friends. "A-are you okay after.. that?"

I let out a sigh but forced a smile and nodded a little too enthusiastically, unable to speak as no words were popping into my mind. 

Hazel didn't look the slightest bit convinced and to be honest I don't blame her. She frowned at me and then grabbed my hand.

"I wont get mad." She told me calmly, watching Mario walk to some of his friends. Her gaze then turned back to me and she added: "But I've got to admit, I do love him.."

I so badly wanted to snap at her and tell her that she's only just met him. But instead, I decided to tell Hazel everything about Jack and I. I may regret it later, but at that very moment I didn't care. I told her about the day I met him and how I hated him, but then got stopped by the teacher. After the teacher told us what work to do and let me choose my seat which was obviously next to Mario and Hazel, I told Hazel about when Jack and I kissed and cheated on Isla. I then went on to talk about how me and Jack maintained a secret relationship but got recorded kissing, causing the entire school to know and hate us. Now I could see that Mario was intrigued, especially when I talked about leaving England with Jack. I ended the story by talking about Jack's accident and felt my heart break when I realised how badly I missed him. We've shared so much together, it feels as though our relationship has ended too soon. 

"You both really have had some history." Whispered Hazel after I finished, staring at me with a shocked but for some reason sad expression. "I feel so bad now!"

"Don't!" I reassured her, trying my best to act as though I felt bad for her. "Seriously, I don't care anymore!"

We then carried on doing our work whilst talking about boys and friends and what not, but when there was silence for a while Mario nudged me. I then faced him and allowed him to whisper into my ear. 

"You still love him, don't you?" He asked as quietly as possible. I shook my head as quickly as possible. However, I wasn't too sure if Mario believed me or not. He just looked at me for a while, rolled his eyes and then got back to work.

I then looked at Hazel, wondering whether me encouraging her to date Jack is even worth it. Whatever happens they'll most probably start dating anyway so why should I even care? There's nothing I can do. It's just life and something which I have to accept and be mature about it. 

"You look sad." Mario observed. 

I shrugged, my gaze stuck to my work, and then carried on writing my work, my heart feeling as though it was torn into two. One side of my heart was stuck to Geo, but the other was stuck to Jack. And I was in the middle, unsure of what side to go to. 

I always say that Geo's the one, but is he really? If I'm having my doubts about him then maybe he really isn't.. 

Sorry for not uploading for a while. I have anxiety and things have been getting pretty bad lately. Also sorry that this chapter wasn't the best, idk why but whenever I'm worried or sad I don't feel inspired at all and unfortunately today is one of those days :/ I'm sure tomorrow will get better though! :)