Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 156

Geo's POV

I stayed sitting in the dark room Jack introduced me to in silence as my mind raced with hundreds of confused and angry thoughts. Silence lingered with me as the sky which was once bright began to darken with heavy, grey clouds. Even the chattering in the house had begun to grow quieter, it was though sadness was abiding everyone in this house. My vision began to grow blurry as tears escaped from my bloodshot eyes, and a heavy load of loneliness fell on my chest, reminding me of how much I needed and missed Lucy. 

I know Dylan, and I know how charming and manipulating he can be. But I thought Lucy was better than that, even Loren soon realised how selfish he was. 

"Shit." I hissed under my breath as the tears uncontrollably dripped down my neck. I hate crying, it makes me feel vulnerable and weak. I never cry over someone, this isn't me. Maybe us not being together anymore is happening for the better. I mean... we both began to seem miserable. Us being together brings too many problems. It isn't worth it. 

Yet I still missed her like crazy and wanted to call her mine, even though I knew that was foolish of me. She loves another guy and has for for god knows how long. I should have seen this coming, I always thought they shared feelings for each other, yet I forced myself to believe Lucy when she denied it. I don't think I can ever trust anyone anymore, or allow myself to fall in love ever again. How can I anyway? No one is going to be able to replace Lucy. No one.

"Yo, can I come in?" I heard Jack ask, despite the fact that he was already slowly opening the door. 

"Yea." I quickly rubbed away my tears and then looked up at Jack, who stared at me in sympathy the second our eyes met.

"You've been crying huh?"

I nodded, too upset to lie. The girl I love just admitted her love for a boy I hate. I don't think I could have asked for a worse breakup. It feels as though I'm living a nightmare. My head hurt and felt tight and my heart wouldn't stop pounding. I missed her. 

"She's been crying too y'know."

I frowned at him. "You sure?" I asked with a hint of bitterness as I gazed up at him in confusion. "Surely she'd be happy? She's with the guy she loves."

Jack shrugged and then sat next to me, soon after suppressing a sigh as his hands ran through his hair and his bewildered eyes stayed fixed on the floor. "I don't get it too." He seemed just as upset as I was, which I respected. Jack and I have never been on good terms, but he clearly wants us both to be together, despite what him and Lucy have shared in the past and despite the mean things I have told him in jealousy.

"I see Lucy as a sister, y'know?" I nodded, waiting for him to elaborate. "I fucking hate seeing her upset." His calm, soft voice progressively changed into a frustrated one. He clenched his hands as his eyes stared at the floor in anger. "She was throwing up in the toilet not long ago. Something isn't right with her!" Tears were now filling his eyes, and at this point, I wasn't sure if it was because he was enraged or upset. "I feel helpless..."

I rubbed his back as he stayed staring at the floor with bloodshot eyes and a tear stained face. "I feel the same." I replied quietly as I felt the rock stuck in my throat start to enlarge. "But what can we do?"

"I know, I know..." Jack seemed to look even more worried and depressed by the second, it seemed as though he was effected even more than I was over this. I had to push away the jealousy as I remembered how close Jack and Lucy were. "There's not much we can do."

Sorry for the abrupt ending, didn't really know how to end it. Also - I really don't think I'm going to be able to update for a while as GCSE'S are coming up. Please don't leave the story though!!