Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 80

Jack was over mine, helping me pack. I tried to make myself look decent for him but there was no point because he came over mine with messed up hair, Adidas joggers and a white jumper. I couldn't help but chuckle when I saw him, he looked a mess yet still so handsome.

Jack has made the decision to join me in America on Sunday. I can't stay at Ariel's so Jack and I are sharing a hotel room until we can find a proper house to live in forever.

I find it weird how I'm living with a boy who loves me. I'm taken yet I still feel as though I have feelings for Jack. One day Geo will find out about me sharing a house with a male and I know he won't be happy. Maybe it's worth telling him tomorrow? Yes. I think I'll have to.

"What's up Luc?" Jack asked me, tilting his head to one side whilst his dark, green eyes were staring into mine.

I quickly snapped back to reality and rubbed my sore eyes which had forgotten to blink for roughly five minutes.

"N-nothing." I stammered, quickly grabbing a dress Geo had once complimented and folding it so it would fit into my suitcase. Jack shrugged and then carried on lying down on my bed and typing on his laptop. 

I wanted to ask about Isla but I didn't want to ruin Jack's happy mood, seeing as he's been acting depressed for the past few days. Maybe he's depressed because he still has feelings for his ex? Who can blame him, I've seen pretty people but she was something else. Maybe he's using me as a distraction..

Yesterday I saw scars on Isla's wrists. They looked fresh and I wanted to know if anything bad as happened in Isla's family life so I won't have to worry about her self harming because of me. 

I'm running away with her boyfriend. I'm cruel. Yet despite all that I still decide to run away with him. It's because I'm selfish, not just cruel.

Jack was staring at me without me noticing again. He then sat behind me whilst I stared at the floor in a daydream and put his arms around my waist. I froze and felt butterflies dance inside of my stomach when I felt his warm skin touch my shoulder. I slightly moved my head to the side to see his chin resting on it and his beautiful emerald green eyes stare into my blue ones.

"Just friends." I reminded him even though I hated saying so. 

"Who cares about that Juwany." Jack mumbled, letting go of me and sitting beside me. 

I wanted to agree with him so badly. God, how many boys like me? Geo, then Mario, then Logan, and now Jack. What mess have I gotten myself into? I don't want to hurt Geo or Mario or Jack and I don't want Logan to find out about me having a boyfriend. He's defiantly not going to be mine and I know that Logan gets too jealous and violent. 

But what's so special about me? I always thought my looks and personality was nothing special, just average. I never thought myself as "something else". I still don't, I'm probably going to stay insecure for the rest of my life.

I stood up and went inside of my wardrobe to get some more clothes. But Jack stood up too and wrapped his arms around my waist again. He kissed my neck and I closed my eyes, forcing myself to be sensible and not react. Geo's face appeared in my mind and I felt a tear trickle down my cheek. I can't betray him again. What has gotten into me? I thought I was better than this. 

"Y-you're not crying are you?" Jack whispered, sounding shocked.

"No." I replied as confidently as possible so he wouldn't be able to tell that I was lying. I then turned around and placed one of my hands on his cheeks. I closed my eyes, allowing more tears to roll down my cheeks and kissed him. I opened my eyes to see Jack stare at me looking completely shocked, but he kissed back.

"I love you Jack." I whispered when we stopped for a second but carried on straight after. We then stopped again and Jack said:

"I love you more."

I noticed that a lot of you ship Jack and Lucy so I hope you don't mind me writing "Jucy" scenes more often now. I defiantly will make more happen to Lucy and Geo though x