Torn up. ~Flamingeos Fanfiction

Chapter 81

When we were done I could see myself in the mirror, which was placed behind Jack, with messed up hair, runny mascara and bloodshot eyes. I couldn't help but snigger when I saw how terrible I looked like, anyone could mistake me for a tramp.

"Don't cry.." Jack whispered. He looked really concerned so I forced a smile. It was obvious that I wasn't happy at all though, I don't know why I bothered to do that. "Look, if you feel bad about Geo I'll get over you."

"B-but I don't want you to." I blurted out, blushing when I realised what I said. A smile appeared on Jack's face and he then said:

"So you finally like me?"

I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to say yes because of Geo but I didn't want to say no because I don't want Jack to get over me. I just stared at him whilst looking like a complete mess. 

"I need to sort myself out." I quickly told him, ignoring the question. I then stood up and almost ran to the toilet so he wouldn't be able to stop me. I got rid of all my makeup and put my hair in a ponytail. I then walked back in my bedroom and stared at Jack with sad eyes. "I think you should go."

Jack looked at me with what seemed like an offended expression. I opened my mouth to say sorry but stopped myself from saying those words and instead grabbed his bag and shoes. I then threw them on the bed for him to put on. 

"See you tomorrow then?" He asked, stumbling whilst putting his shoes on and hopping so he wouldn't fall. 

I nodded. "See you at the airport."

I then followed Jack to the door and watched him say goodbye to my dad who knew everything that was going to happen tomorrow. I felt so guilty for leaving my mum like this, there isn't really any excuse for me to say to defend myself. 

After Jack talking to my dad about America and future plans, he turned around to face me. He stared at my lips but realised that he's not allowed to kiss me when I stared right into his eyes, not daring to ask for a kiss as well. Not only is it betraying my boyfriend but it'll be awkward for my dad. I hugged Jack instead and smiled when I felt his hand run down strands of my hair. I then rubbed his back and let go, waving him goodbye whilst watching him drive off. I wonder if I'll ever be able to kiss Jack again. In America I have to be super careful.

Oh my gosh. I'm going to America. America. The last time I went to America my life changed. Before that, whenever I'd go to America me and Geo would just talk and gossip and play games, stuff like that. I'd always wish to at least hold his hand but then get mad at myself for thinking that because at the time I thought he only liked me as a friend. But last time I went.. firstly I got lost, then met two of my bestest friends, then found out that Geo hated me and then found out that Geo lost his memory. But then.. after that.. we kissed. We kissed and fell in love and ran away and then I saw him kissing Loren and..

I shouldn't think about all of that now. This time when I go back to America to live I'm going to have the best time of my life. I'll go to school with Ariel, Mario and Jack and visit Geo in prison everyday. I'll live with Jack for the rest of my life and have nothing to worry about. 

I can't wait. Just thinking about it makes me feel like crying of happiness.

Tomorrow I'm going to see Geo. I'm going to hear his accent and gaze into his hazel brown eyes and touch his smooth, warm hands. 

Tomorrow is the day where my life will change for the better. I just know it.